Jolyn's Journal

7 mths 2 weeks old..

2011-11-14T23:24:00.001+08:00

This is such a long overdue post..Boy had since started on solids at 5 mths 2 weeks old (22nd Sept 2011)..It is such an exciting phase especially when a new food is introduced to him...Only a couple of days ago, we started him on porridge and oats..had tried to work out a schedule for him and so far, he had been quite happy with the amt of food and milk...Daryl is now only drinking 3 milk feeds/day..and i m still expressing every 3-4 hrly..so there is suddenly an abundance of milk in the fridge (which hardly happened) in my 7.5 mth old moo moo career..

Maybe this is really an indication that I can start to gradually end this very fulfulling but tiring career...Tiring is really an underestatement!! Especially when i had been exclusively expressing..but i can proudly say i really did my best when i look back at the times where i cried/fret/pumped till my arms ached to provide for my baobei...

Hope i can do better at latching for no. 2..

But, i am still battling with the idea of stopping now cos i feel its such a waste and i cannot help feel guilty about it.. Hmm..then again, my holiday in dec would be a good start lah..since i dont think i want to pump every 3 hrs!! I need a real break and holiday !!

Anyway, at 7 mths 2 weeks old, Daryl boy is learning how to sit up and is babbling all the time!!

His first taste of food - rice cereal

Milestone

2011-08-28T21:40:00.004+08:00

Daryl had finally learned to flip to his tummy at 4 months 2 weeks old! Cutie pie achieved his first flip in the morning before Mummy and Daddy went to work! :)

2011-06-30T14:47:00.002+08:00

Time flies! I will need to return to work in 4 weeks time..had requested to work on a part time basis for at least a couple of months. Hope the management will accede to my request!

Have yet to bring Daryl out on my own..but its such a coincidence that Kavi had asked us out for lunch next week and she too will bring Sid out..so excited!!

2011-06-03T12:15:00.002+08:00

Never knew looking after Daryl on my own could be so much fun! Though it takes some getting used to hurried meals and visits to the toilet, I am still enjoying this new experience totally!
I m glad I encouraged mum to go for her holidays in Sydney, cause if not for this, chances like this for me to look after bb on my own would be so rare!! Then again, its not like I am totally left on my own lah, cos I still have a helper to prepare meals and do the housework haha..and hubby to take over some feeds and diaper change.
Babies grow up so quickly! Daryl just turned 2 months old!!

Talking about time, I am looking forward to the day where i can fit into my old jeans!!! My SIL and friends keep telling me they regained their old figure 3 months after giving birth..and reassured me i would to..hur hur..How to when i cant do any exercise till Aug?!! Chams lah..

4 weeks old!

2011-05-09T10:58:00.002+08:00

Daryl turned 4 weeks old last thursday! And i must say he has grown tremedously esp when i look back at the pics we took of him when he just came home.
We will be bringing him for his Hep B jab later..hope the doc at the polyclinic will let us know if he is developing well! And also some remedy to Daryl's phlegm, the poor boy seems to be in discomfort everytime after he drinks his milk!

Though I thought bringing him to the PD would be better, after hearing how Carol would bring her girl to the PD once a month to check on her growth and development. But dont know why hubs dont seem too keen about it..

Anyway, my first Mothers Day came and went..how sad..haha..was a little disappointed that hubs didnt really bother abt it too..oh well!

2011-04-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

2011-04-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

3rd day of my massage..and i really do hope it works! Cannot stand the sight of the loose bulge at my lower abdomen!!

The massage is not too bad, if only it was for 2 hours instead of 1 haha..greedy! Well, at least its time for me to relax without having to attend to Daryl for awhile..But it felt a little painful esp when she massage lady massaged my lower abdomen..
The binding with the cloth is the one that really needs sheer tolerance! Its super tight and restrictive that you will be forced to sit and stand up straight, it felt so uncomfortable as i wasnt used to it and even my breathing seemed restricted!! But i endured till 12 hours before releasing my bounded body! haha..

2nd day, better, i think i tolerated till 14 - 15 hours..Massage lady bounded the cloth a bit lower compared to the first day so that it restricted even my thighs..the cloth was tightening onto my thighs so much that it was too painful to bear..esp when i sat down..And since i had to move around much more at night to attend to bb, i surrendered..

3rd day today, feedback to massage lady about the pain around the thighs and it felt so much better today cos she adjusted the cloth..hope i can keep it on till tomorrow morning!!

2011-04-22T15:30:00.000+08:00

2011-04-22T15:08:00.002+08:00

It had been a totally new experience for me and Jeff for these few weeks..I will call this heavy duty on the job training! From trying to get bb to latch on, to figuring out how to use the bottles (Yes, no one told me you even had to learn to position the bottles at an angle for bb to suck properly!!), from working out how much to feed bb..and the list goes on..

I dont know how i can still survive with intermittent sleep time..Daryl wakes up almost every 3 hours for feeds..and sometimes it goes on more than that, he will cry for milk, feed him, change nappy, refuses to be put down and finally after carrying him for an hour, he falls asleep, then its time for me to express milk..after everything is over, i realise its an hour to his next feed!!

Am still adapting to all these challenges and i was definitely feeling the blues for the first couple of weeks, cried alot too..Am still feeling down at times now esp with my very inadequate milk production and esp when i hear friends around me doing total breast feeding or able to produce enough milk for their bb at each feed even with expressing..I know its silly to compare but somehow i feel so guilty for not being able to provide for my bb..

Another first time for me is to undergo the op, or rather the c-section. We had opted for bb to be out on the 5th April after consulting Stephen and before that, i was so worried that Daryl might decide to surprise us with an earlier labour, thank gdness he didnt but strange enough,i felt contractions the night before i went for the c! They were not the usual Braxton Hicks but they were painful and they came at regular intervals..

Experience at the operating theatre was scary!! The numbness waist down felt queer too..but given a choice, i would still have opted for the same..It was such a great relief when i first saw bb..Cos at least i didnt have to wait till i was awake to see him..Am glad hubby was with me throughout the entire op, would have felt so alone and helpless..

Next stage, is to get back in shape too! Hopefully i can start on my massage next week without my wound hurting too much..

Till then, will blog again when Daryl allows me to..

2011-04-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

2011-04-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

~38 weeks 2 days~

Last weight taken at gynae a week ago: 56kg! Total weight gain of 13 kg..Had my preggie pics 'professionally' taken by Jeff too haha..save money! They were taken when i was 33 - 34 weeks..

Date and time booked for C section..Been telling boy boy to be gd and stay in till the date arrives..

Finally started my ML a day ago..felt a sense of relief as I walked out of my office that day. I was initially panicking a few weeks ago as it seem like i had tonnes of work which i couldnt seem to be able to complete before I could go for my ML! Was so so glad to hand over my last article to my boss haha..

Glad to be off work too cos my pelvic is aching and my legs are swollen..sleeping doesnt feel so good anymore and not to mention the stretch marks which are multiplying!!! sigh, i had been religious with applying my stretch mark cream since my 1st trimester but doesnt seem to be effective huh..

Been thinking of how the C section will be like since i opted for spinal which means i will be fully aware of what is happening..thinking of having the catheter and plug site scares me too..not to mention the pain after the the anaesthsia wears off!! :(

Worries abt not being able to bf, unsuccessful latching on..too many to count lah..

2011-03-12T12:10:00.002+08:00

I used to have cravings once in awhile for things like coke, chocolate pre pregnancy..those cravings could easily be forgotten or delay being satisfied if I was determined enough. But cravings when expecting are totally different!! They wont go away no matter how much i try to distract myself with other thoughts/tasks! haha

Its really strange how strong they can be..and i didnt know my cravings for drinks could be as strong as for food too..looking back, my likes for certain drinks changes as I grow bigger..

I remembered in my first trimester: Sprite was my comfort drink especially having to deal with throwing up at least 2 - 3 x /day
And it was Sprite, not 7 up..haha
Then it was Ribena

2nd trimester: Florida OJ and Iced water (with heaps of ice) even in the morning..

3rd trimester: Now, my latest fave is teh, and both iced and hot milo from the coffee shops!!

haha weird..

Am I am so glad my adverse reactions to milk had stopped after i passed the 2nd trimester..i rem how i would throw up everytime i attempted to down some milk..

Looking forward to my next check up next Saturday!

2011-02-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

33 weeks..went for my gynae check last week and my heart sank when Dr Judy said bb is in a breech position..And that around 80% of babies would have had their heads down by now..

Gotta wait till my next check up at 36 weeks to see if he decides to be a good boy and changes his position..if not I will have to go for a c section..Which i really dont wish to undergo..

Takes longer to heal, cant carry and breastfeed as well after the op..sigh...

Many worries running through my mind too as the due date draws nearer, worry if bb is going to be ok..as in normal with normal features etc..

I gotta keep reminding myself to think positive!!

Gloomy

2010-06-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

I am feeling moody..uncertain what the new job will bring if I choose to take it up. When I applied for it, I didnt really think I would be this close to getting it! Current job I have now sucks, but at least I am familiar with what I am doing..

On the other hand, I am tired to job hop and start all over again should this new job be yet again not suitable for me!

Anyway in addition to that, a few events had happened and I feel unreciprocated..The person I thought whom is close to me had started to make me feel otherwise..She is overall just a private person whom only confides in us when she is troubled. Other than that, from my view, whatever I try to share with her, will be returned with lukewarm responses. I dont think any of my true close girlies are like this..

Other than that, I just feel unappreciated in terms of the advice I have given..It just feels like even family don't view my knowledge as useful..

I feel left out as well..and pressured..to have children. I know it is silly to feel that way, but I just cannot help it! Its like, I havnt been a mum, but of cos I understand being a new mum is an exciting phase in life and lots to talk about..there is nothing I can contribute to in terms of advice other than those I have learnt from my profession as a dietitian. But somehow, i still feel left out, more now after yesterday's incident at dinner.

Once I walked in - they were talking and normally, they would come help me at the kitchen..but yesterday it was just me..

First thing i hear is abt her food preference now..

The bigger portion must be given to her cos she needs it more..

Hard to put it all in words..I am just not happy now...

Life

2010-03-21T16:51:00.003+08:00

Now that I have joined the population that works regular office hours, weekends to me are definitely precious time for me to catch up on sleep, spent time with family and do whatever I feel like doing!!

It had been almost 2 months since I last updated about my new job. Well, there were a few incidents which once again tested my limits and tolerance to how things were handled by some bitches at work. In which as an employee, either to take it or leave the job! For now, I will just do my best to adapt to whatever stupid format or ideas those people want..

Had the chance to spend more time with 2 of my patients and speaking to them really made me ashamed of myself for whining and complaining about things which compared to what they have to face everyday seem so small and insignificant. To them, being able to wake up to a fresh new day is a bonus..

I should be thankful of what I have now and try to be more positive when I meet with any setbacks.. =)

My first week at 'school' (work)

2010-01-10T15:46:00.002+08:00

My first week at my new job just whizzed past like that! I am proud to say I survived it!

Last Sunday night was horrendous as I suffered from the mother of all blue mondays! I had scary images of very cold or super hardworking colleagues eg knock off at 7pm, rigid rules conjuring in my mind and not forgetting the dreadfulness of having to wake up at 6 plus every morning..

Thankfully, it wasnt as scary as I thought it would for, at least for now..which things may change drastically once high and mighty comes back from her leave.

My colleagues are all relatively new, with the longest stayer in the company for ard 2 yrs excluding the management of course..they seem to be down to earth, non nosy parkers and quiet pple..But still its too early to determine...Time will tell!

Waking up early and sleeping with an average of 6 hrs consecutively for 5 days was damn difficult for me! But i know its all a matter of getting used to!

Tasks delegated to me now are still manageable but I know am only going to be busier and tasks more difficult to handle as time goes by..Just gotta try my best and learn!!

Oh yes and i realy need to add more variety and quantity to my working wardrobe!!

Lets see what is in store in the 2nd week of work...

Happy 2010!

2010-01-01T11:49:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!!

I hope to be able to cope and enjoy my new job!
To be a mum soon!
Happiness and Good Health to all my loved ones!

Will be spending the New Yr's day with family at Uncle MC's place..Its a pot luck event, hope the shepherd's pies I ordered will be delivered to his house man..hah..

Will post some NYE pics up later.

Another chapter closed..

2009-12-21T14:12:00.002+08:00

7th December 2009 marks my last leg with the airline and it was 'so kind' of office to schedule a NRT- KUL/KUL-SIN pattern for me!

Nonetheless, my last flt to JFK was one of the most memorable..the crew who gave me impromptu hand made cards, the allocation ( the mid gly which i was really afraid of doing) and my batch girls, not forgetting the food and shopping we did!

2 yrs ago, this time..I remember me and my class girls undergoing rigorous training, all hopeful of the new adventures and travelling will bring to us, uncertain of what this new job holds for us..and 2 yrs later now, its time for me to close this eventful and enriching yet not always pleasant chapter.

Come 2010, another chapter awaits..I dont know if the choice to go back to my old line is the right one..from what i see now, i am in for a tough time with my new colleagues, new job scopes and to refresh all the facts and skills I have long archived in place of the waitressing skills for the past 2 yrs

So much for being trying to be positive, Jeff says I should think twice before agreeing cos no one forced me into this job, well he is true..no one forced me into it lah..but I am worried about finances and what if we have a baby etc...

Oh well, no use fretting over things that havent happened yet..Just gotta try, wait and see!

need some luck

2009-09-28T13:48:00.002+08:00

Jo's usual routine these days are to wake up, turn on the pc, surf all the possible sites for jobs, send out resumes and pray for the best..

Besides a phone call from the prospective employer's HR to confirm the details for my qualifications, there had been zero response from the others I have written in to!!

Gosh, how to leave my current job lydat?!

This sux man..

2009-09-10T08:48:00.002+08:00

Finally decided to perm my hair..Needed a change in my hairstyle but there was nothing left to do cos I couldn't colour my hair due to work and wasn't quite ready to cut it much shorter..so there, I was only left to perm it!

Am glad it turned out better this time as compared to the first I went for a few yrs back!
Lets see how long it will take me to get used to and then tired of the curls!

Time to work hard

2009-09-02T14:16:00.002+08:00

A month of merry making and lazing around just whizzed past like that!! Went to tokyo and bkk, think it was our honeymoon? But didnt felt that sweet afterall haha...maybe cos its places i have been to? Or maybe there was just too much walking and rushing around different locations plus the summer heatwave?

Nevertheless, I still enjoyed myself! Especially at Disneysea and Bkk's massage plus Chinatown's yummilcious seafood!

Its back to work tmr for me and there is still a jap test to overcome!

Am at the crossroads once again cos its job hunting time again...:(

Our big day - 1st August 2009

2009-08-11T12:26:00.018+08:00

It has been more than a week after our big day and I am still reminiscing abt the whole day's events.=)

All the months of preparation, squabbles, disagreements paid off when I see all those happy pictures and the way the day's events fell rightly into place.

1 day before wedding
Started off with me going for my mani and pedi in the afternoon. 'Our' v chio yellow bridal car was also delivered to us in the evening followed by us driving it to My Bridal Room for them to tie the decor which resulted in a simple but sweet design which we liked very much.
And Shirlene came over to stay for the night..I was then feeling nervous and excited to think abt how the big day will turn out to be :)

Had difficulty falling alseep but eventually did at ard 11 plus but woke up again at 3.30am and cldnt get back to sleep le. So had my breakfast at 4.30 and was just feeling restless haha.

The Special day

Me in my hot pink pyjamas specially sourced by Elizabeth in Phuket

All the important people, Dily my MUA, Ernest my VG and Yew Kwang my PG turned up pretty punctual and that was really a load of my mind!

Subsequently, my Jie Meis came and enjoyed themselves immensely preparing for the games!

And the relatives..

My very happy mummy!

After a few smses and calls, Jeff and his brothers finally reached and made their arrival known by blaring their car horns and some very annoying tenant from the block beside the roundabout actually threw eggs down! And some of it got onto the car..how bad can these people be?

Thanks to cousin Vinn Yang for coming back from Perth to attend our wedding as well as open the door for Jeff!

Jeff and his band of brothers

I got really nervous when I heard the commotion from my room!

My aunties came up with this last impromptu obstacle and got Jeff to call them in their correct titles in Cantonese before letting him through! Hhehe.so happening !

My baby finally make it! LOL

Praying to our beloved gong gong and popo

Mum says its Cantonese tradition to have a red brolly shield me when i step out of the house and have rice and salt concurrently scattered over the brolly

Waiting for Jeff to drive the car over

Miss the princess treatment so much! hahaha

One of our favourite spot to pak tor in our earlier years of courtship

My lovely girlies..and how I miss Michelle...

Went to Jeff's Ah Mah's place after our outdoor photos to pay respects to his late Ah Gong
Then we went to Jeff's house for the tea ceremony

His grandmas..my new ones now :)

Our parents

Getting ready to change into my kua

Calling my family to let them know we are on our way back my place

Another Cantonese tradition

We had to eat 2 eggs in sweet soup for its auspicious symbolic significance

The happy girls! haha

My younger cousin and her husband had to serve tea to us

Cheers and thanks heaps for the morning session that went so well!

The wedding dinner

I love this Oriental decor

I was freaking out cos I realised how easily I could trip on my dress and was trying to rehearse with what the few mins we had before our 1st march in

My nanny

I love my gowns so much!

I posted this pic cos i love this hair do so so so much haha

Oscar Wong our banquet manager (which did a very good job) giving us some reminders before the 2nd march in

My very eloquent emcees for the night, thank you so so much my dears =)

Would like to really thank everyone that had helped and attended our wedding..all of you had made this special day a very memorable one for Jeff and I!

3 days to go

2009-07-30T00:51:00.002+08:00

Went for our final fitting and collected our gowns and suits today! Its so surreal to see them hanged on my closet now..

Will really miss the opportunity and feeling of trying the many many pretty and colourful gowns!

Its An chuang day today! Many thanks to Uncle Jimm and Auntie Jasmine for their help - an chuang is supposed to be done by a married couple with children so we have asked for their help plus they are probably the closest aunt and uncle to us.

4 days to go..

2009-07-28T20:30:00.002+08:00

Had a fantabulous hen's night with the girlies last friday! Thanks for putting in so much time and effort into making it happen! Was then whisked off for a osaka turn over the weekend. Flight and crew was nice so it made the relunctance to work less painful.

On the flt back, we discovered we had a sanitary pad stealer onboard!

This was what happened - As maintaining cleanliness and dryness in the washrooms are one of our duties, I pulled the trash can out so I could push in the used towels and waste to accomodate more waste papers and prevent any fire hazards. To my surprise, I saw many empty sanitary napkin boxes in the bin! And I quickly opened the drawer where the airsick bags and pads would be stored, there was only 1 pad left where there should be like 8 stored there!

I told my colleagues abt it and we were all joking how the pax could afford the air ticket but wants to scrimp on toiletries?

Later on in the flt, my colleague suddenly came over and told me she discovered that 2 more toilets had all their pads raided! OMG can u believe that..haha..

Went for my facial today, met up with my team gal for coffee and then melissa to pass her the v expensive loose powder I have gotten for her in osaka.
I was just telling her how motherhood hasnt changed her much at all haha and said her son is as siao as her! haha cute..

Collected my corsages from the post office too and am really happy cos they looked really pretty but there is a problem now, cos the online supplier only managed to make 5 corsages the way I wanted and cos she was lacking in one butterfly, reason being one of them were out of shape. Now only 1 of my corsage doesnt have it! How weird is that going to look?! Sighz

Have emailed the supplier and asked her to just mail the out of shape butterfly to me..hope she doesnt pull any stunt again.

While Jo was away for the wkend, we had the traditional Guo Da Li where the groom's family would bring over items like my jewellery MIL has bought me, pin jin, dried seafood, cakes etc..
Above are pictures of the super old school traditional cake Jeff had chosen to give my mum for the ceremony.

The fruit basket was made by my mummy!

2009-07-22T10:58:00.002+08:00

10 more days to the big day.

Am having mixed feelings for it to come sooner and yet knowing that I would miss the whole process when it is finally over.

Jo finally broke down last night..from all the stress from trying to please both hubby and mum. It isnt easy cos Jeff would be frustrated from all these last min changes and would urge me to go talk to my mum and Mum would be like unhappy cos its either I keep rejecting her for her countless requests or breathing down her neck for the confirmed guest list.

Arnt we all supposed to be happy and enjoying ourselves since its a joyous occasion?

I do understand where both of them are coming from but don't they see that their wife/daughter is the one taking most of all these shit?!

:(

1 more month to the big day!

2009-07-01T22:30:00.003+08:00

Its exactly one more month to the big day we have been preparing for at least half a yr.
Besides feeling excited about it, am also quite scared that the H1N1 influenza outbreak may affect our wedding. :(
Hope everything will turn out well..
After the wedding means I have to start looking for a new job seriously too, sighs..Need to start all over again.

Distance..

2009-06-19T19:17:00.002+08:00

This is my first blog entry from the comfort of a hotel room! Am in new york now lonely, jet lagged and feeling distant from all my loved ones in singapore. Hubs just logged off to meet his friends for some drinks, MPP isnt replying, she is prolly preparing to go out for her party.

Few comforts I have here is the luxury of having the internet (not free though) and the much needed company I have from my team girl in this long and ardous 7 day pattern.
Made use of the high speed connection and loaded almost all of our bridal pics from hubs to my lappie!

Brings so much joy and memories when I scroll through all those pics. Am going to resist the temptation of letting any friends take a sneak preview at them before the actual day! LOL hoho..sure takes a lot of effort

Cant wait to go back Singapore so I can continue with the rest of my preps for the big day, seems like its gonna be a real hard task to arrange for a day where all my girlies are free to meet up.

Can't help feeling left out at times.. :(

Sisters in law..

2009-06-12T13:47:00.003+08:00

We finally gotta meet up proper after such a long time! Had such a good chat which we hardly have chance to especially when we go back to my in law's place for dinner.

I am really glad we could be close enough to share and not jump to conclusions based on what MIL had said which could be so exaggerated and untrue, of cos she might have said them unknowingly..but still!

Cant imagine if the 3 of us were not so close to start off with and the discord that could have risen from all these dubious info we hear..

Oh well, its all part of a marriage huh..Still much stuff to learn as time goes by..

2009-05-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

I had such a weird dream last night! It was the morning of the wedding and my make up artist was not only late, but she totally didnt turn up! I kept calling her and a guy picked up instead, and no matter how I was pleading for her to come do my face, the guy just kept refusing!

How weird is that?! I dont think I am that stressed up with preps..haha..funny!

Am going to office tmr to pick up my schedule for June and also hope to find a change in the people I am flying with..sighz..that is if a miracle happens.

Pu sa bao you..

2009-05-19T18:31:00.003+08:00

Me went to rebond my hair today! keke..Simply cannot stand seeing my new grown wavy hair and cant possibly wait till after the wedding to do it cos that will be after 2 months! Cannot imagine how it would look!

And like I haven't spent enough money, I bought a really sweet black and grey dress at Ness too..$59 bucks after 20% off..Was eyeing it when another lady was holding it and was hoping she didnt take it. Anyway i had other pieces to try on and was deciding to buy another piece when i came out of the fitting room and saw that lovely dress hanging on the rack!

Hehe..and now its hanging in my wardrobe! *contented*

2009-05-08T11:41:00.003+08:00

Will be away again for long this flt, from this sat till 16th. Hope the tulips are still around for me to snap like a 1000 pics of them with my class gal and team leader. May it be an enjoyable flt with good pple and nice pax !!

With the actual day drawing nearer, Jo is getting more and more concerned bout the state of her complexion..haha! Just bought a 'star white eye spot' fron Laneige to hopefully lighten my dark eye circles..and also i realised my eye lids are of a different shade from the rest of my face..so ugly!! sighz..

As for the photo shoot, I truly enjoyed it and I miss it so much now! And am truly relieved and happy the pics turned out really well :) Even happier that hubby didnt mind topping up some money for extra pics despite the fact that he was kinda sternly warning me not to go overboard with choosing the pics and all BEFORE we saw them..hur hur..:p

2009-04-23T23:42:00.003+08:00

Tmr's the day to capture our best looks! And here are my nails to complement the look! :p

Ended up signing a pedi package with my regular nail bar as well..my regular manicurist always has a way with me to part my money! :(

Prays for fine weather tmr..

2009-04-22T10:06:00.003+08:00

Went to bed feeling hungry and thus had a lot of food cravings..was telling Jeff how much I felt like eating Macd's breakfast and he playfully asked what meal and drink I wanted.

I played along thinking that he wouldnt be serious abt it to go order it for me..

This morning, I was awoken up by the door bell. Heard Mum asking the delivery man who ordered it..immediately, I dragged myself up from the bed and rushed to the door and at the same time laughing to myself what my sweet hubby had did! keke..

Am still sipping the McCafe cappucino I requested to be in place of the original not so nice reg coffee..and he remembered too..

This surprise really made my day :)

2009-04-20T11:31:00.000+08:00

2009-04-20T11:19:00.003+08:00

We cooked lunch for mum and my aunt yest! Am so glad it turned out quite well, esp the chicken, its meat was succulent and smooth! Rice needs to be improved, could add more water and salt to it next time..
It was 4-5 yrs back that Jeff tried to cook this for me when he came over Newcastle for a visit!
Dish : Chicken rice(recipe from Jeff's mum)
Chefs: Jeff and Jo

2009-04-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

9 more days to photoshoot! *excited*

2009-03-22T11:18:00.002+08:00

Am finally back from NGO-CAN and thankfully, I heard this route is going to be taken out! We may not be working at full load at each leg but its still tiring enough with the early show ups and late touch downs!

However, that flt and the flt back to sin was made more enjoyable with the wonderful crew I flew with. Not all but most of them were really genuinely nice and it really feels less torturous to be at work. :)

Before this, Jeff and I went away to taiwan/hkg for 9days! With all the hype and most friends telling me how taiwan is so enjoyable, I was kinda disappointed cos I didnt enjoy it as much as they promised! Haha..Well, the food was unique in their ways but it didnt much suit my palate as well as in Hongkong!

Shopping was expected to be less fruitful so I aint complaining bout it. Haha..

Maybe cos also we had to walk alot too that I didnt find it quite relaxing at all plus we were drenched with the heavy downpour that lasted to the whole of the next day! Not nice when you have to carry a brolly, walk around in totally soaked shoes and jeans and try to eat the food bought from shilin market!

To stop at HongKong was a last min decision. We didnt want to waste the opportunity
cos we had to stopover at hkg anyway when we go to and fro taiwan.

I enjoyed hkg so much more! Sadly it was only for 2 days but we went to disneyland,lan kwai fong and Da yu san Big Buddha! And food was superbbb..hehe esp the egg tarts ( which I ate consecutively for 2 days after BF), the desserts etc.

This trip had allowed me to bond with Jeff much closer and really appreciated the much research and time he had put in for our trip! :)

2009-03-04T16:44:00.002+08:00

I was at 7 11 just now looking for the latest edition of Her World Brides, just as I was about to leave, a toddler was standing right at the door which kinda obstructed my path and I always take extra caution when opening or closing doors when little kids are around for fear of injuring their tiny and fragile appendages.

So just as I was about to try to make my way out by squeezing myself between the toddler and the door, she dropped her hat on the ground.

Then her stupid mother told her to pick it up, if the hat was right in front of u, would you just pick it up for her? And that toddler didnt seem to understand or simply didnt want to do it, she just stared at the hat. So I thought I was being helpful, I picked it up for her.

And what did i get in return for picking it up, the mother said ' Oh, I told her (her daughter) to pick it up'

Ok, maybe she was trying to explain herself so as not to sound like she was instructing me to pick it up, but hello where is your word of thanks?!!

If you were to say ' oh thanks, actually i was telling my kid to pick it up, then with a smile' the perception of it all seemed to be less hostile..

Feeling a little annoyed by now, i retorted: ' ya i am trying to open the door'

And the asshole mother actually said supposedly to her kid ' OH, auntie is saying she cannot walk around your hat'

WTF!!

I was so bloody fuming when I heard that, then she quickly just pulled her kid and walked further into the shop..TMD..here i was being nice and there she was being so bloody anal and sarcastic..

I dont care even if she was trying to explain every single thing to her kid, I feel she should at least use some tact here!!

I am so so so appalled..

If I see her again, I am so going to DIAO her..tmd..

Holiday!

2009-02-23T13:41:00.002+08:00

Whenever I pack and prepare myself for another 6-7 days away from home, I cannot help thinking about what lies ahead for my future.
I remember when I first embarked on this seemingly attractive job, maybe I wasnt used to it or it isn't the job for me, I dreaded everytime I had to work.
Time really flies..Cos in another 6 months, it would be time for me to decide if I should stay on or look for another job.

I know would definitely miss the sightseeing, the new places to explore, shopping, and the off days I have in Singapore but will be really happy to be away from unreasonable and shallow people, rigid working styles etc...

With no outstanding qualifications or extensive working experiences in a certain field to boot, I think my resume will be sooo pathetic.
I dont know if I can find a job and survive in this rat race..:(

So much for just an aspect of life and how about starting a family soon? Arrgghh..

Anyway, on a lighter note, we will be going to Taiwan early next month for our long awaited holiday! Had been hearing alot from others how much they enjoy Taiwan esp their food and all..I shall go see for myself if its really that gooodd!

2009-02-03T17:32:00.003+08:00

My heart skipped a beat when I this on my wedding ticker - '5 months, 4 weeks and 1 day to our customary wedding'

That doesnt seem like a lot of time in terms of wedding preparations!

I think i better get down to some serious work lest I want to be bridezilla on that day!

Anyway remember on my last post on how lousy I felt for having to take a long flt amidst the family gatherings and all..It wasnt that bad afterall because I had my class gals with me!

It was uber cool to have all 3 of us in New york! And I am most happy with my shopping cos I finally bought my Abercombie hoodie which was so coincidentally on sale that day! hehehe..

Happy New Year!

2009-01-27T16:18:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! May it be a smooth saiing year ahead for all of us..most importantly, to be healthy and to be with our loved ones...

I am feeling so so so lousy now cos I got called up to do a long flight later..Because of this flight, I cant join my relatives who are having good fun at my cousin's place..

I am so going to leave this stupid job in Aug!

2008-12-17T10:41:00.002+08:00

It had almost been 1.5 yrs! Jeff and I were discussing about how timely this piece of good news came..

The case is finally closed and none of the scary consequences we both had thought would happen..

The lot I got a few months earlier did indicate that things were going to be ok but still I kept praying as there werent any news yet and still I wasnt reassured till things were really confirmed!

I am so so relieved and would like to thank the friends and family that had been supporting us on, urging us on to be positive and the neverending words of encouragement throughout this long and tiring mental torture..

Time to move forward and to strive to be a better person..:)

2008-12-16T02:03:00.000+08:00

2008-12-16T01:48:00.003+08:00

One of the days we had been anticipating and planning for had finally came! I am so glad everything turned out well without any major hiccups :)))

Am very glad the vendors we engaged in for eg, decor, caterer, makeup artist and photographer were all professional and timely in their services!

Jeff and I are both very happy that almost all their close friends and family were there to witness and share this very special moment as they embark on a new phase of their lives together. And also for Jo who celebrated her 27th birthday with a very very pretty cake ( with compliments from her dearest Mich, Daphne and hubby)!

Thank you to all the well wishes, help, long distance phone calls, ang bows and lovely gifts we have been showered with, all of you have showed us once again how loved the both of us are. :)

Next, we are looking forward to our customary wedding in 2009!

2008-12-12T16:47:00.003+08:00

2 more days left to my singlehood! Hope we didnt miss out any preparations and if we did to be done in the span of this couple of days!

Jo is still worried that things might go wrong e.g checking in later than the stipulated time, decor not done up in time, make up artist forgetting bout turning up..even though we have already sent emails/smses to confirm and remind ya..

Seems like I can only be rest assured when the actual day is here!

Anyway..
Cant help admiring my freshly manicured fingers and toes hehe..thanks to Sarah for doing such a good job despite the fact that i was fretting over 2 broken nails (on my index fingers)!
Hehe

Our new sleeping arrangement

2008-12-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

My house has been and still undergoing some renovations..there had been some changes in our living arrangements and now Jeff and I will be sleeping in Mum's former bedroom while Mummy will take the master bedroom!

We have decided to combine 2 mattresses together for now and get a proper bed after our customary wedding.
Im sure it will be much more comfy than our former sleeping arrangement( 2 of us squeezing on a super single bed *lol*)

We went for our final fitting too and I really cant afford to have any changes to my waistline now other than just maintaining it cos the dress was altered to fit so snugly to the extent of it being a little restricting! Haha..anything for the sake of beauty!
I really hope this special event will turn out well :)

Growing pains

2008-12-04T22:02:00.003+08:00

It feels great to meet up with a friend that I havnt seen for a long time! And it feels even better to see her heavily pregnant :)

Through our conversations, it dawned upon me that I should appreciate and maintain the currently good relations I have with my family and future in laws.

I have heard too often married friends lament about their woes about how much they have to give in to their in laws to have some peace at home etc..

Sighz, gone are the carefree days of just having to worry about passing exams or how to spend the sch hols..what comes now are major life responsibilities like how to make a marriage work, having kids, supporting your aging parents..

Adulthood isnt that fun afterall ya?

2008-11-24T16:28:00.003+08:00

Jo's cooking again tonight! hehe..Will try to post some pics of it if possible.

Just as I was on my way back from grocery shopping..The bus I was in collided into a car!

It was cruising along fine when suddenly all of us were hurled rudely in front as the bus driver tried to do an emergency brake and immediately we hear a loud BANG!

Thank goodness nobody was standing at that time cos the impact was so great that all my chye sim and mushrooms fell off from the seat( thats besides the pt, just trying to describe the magnitude of the impact)

Am really relieved no one was injured besides just having a deep dent in the unfortunate driver's car..

Poor bus driver looked disturbed too after he left the accident scene..hope he doesnt feel too guilty and both drivers be more careful in future...

2008-11-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

Having a home cooked meal, Catching a movie, Ktv, Being there for a heart broken friend, shopping are things I enjoy much more and cherish dearly now given the nature of my job.

Finally met up with Mich for our long awaited ktv session! Bought a knitted top from Mango and the best purchase of the day is to finally find the shoes for my ROM and wedding! But it cost a whopping $290! Ok, Jo is a poor gal so spending this amount of money on a pair of shoes she isnt going to wear probably more than 5x makes her feel guilty..

But but..it is worth it to make yourself happy and look pretty on your big day right ? haha!

Though wedding preparations are taxing but I am enjoying every part of it! I think I am going to miss it when the big day is over..but there is still like 9 months to it so I am going to savour every moment of it till it is finally here!

2008-11-09T15:12:00.002+08:00

Finally came back from new york last evening..I would normally feel v happy to be back I aint feeling exactly that way now cos of the lack of time I have with Jeff :(

Jeff has to be back in camp for reservice and the only off day he has are to be spent at a friend's wedding and the next time his reservice ends is on tues night..and I will be going away again on wed morning le..:(

Am feeling so bored now..but looking at my freshly manicured finger nails lessens the negativity a little haha..*vain*

But am looking forward to tommorrow cos am going to choose my ROM gown, catch up with the pongs and run errands like change money, go to the temple..

Yayy..haha..*crazy*

2008-11-01T11:36:00.002+08:00

1.5 more mths to go to our ROM!

Things to be done
- Choose gown
- Confirm on who to engage for deco
- Photographer
- Caterer
- Order bouquet
etc..yikes!

So many things not done yettt...And did I mention that my schedule is amazingly packed for Nov?

Gong gong..

2008-09-17T11:37:00.003+08:00

Received a call from mum to remind me to offer joss sticks to gong gong..It had been a year since gong gong passed on..

Time flies..I still rem clearly that very morning when we received a call from the nursing home that he had been admitted to the hospital for shortness of breath..

All of us rushed to Ward 44 of CGH..the ward which i covered when i was still working there..

I naively thought gong gong was going to be ok..but sadly he didnt..he never opened his eyes..he was using so much effort to take each breathe..it hurts to see him struggle so hard...

I hoped he heard all that we said to him before he left us to a better place..

After his passing..I refused to take that ward for awhile..cos it reminded me so painfully of him..

Gonggong was just like a father to me..growing up had not been easy cos he was always so strict with me, he had a fiery temper and always scolded me if I wasnt in my best behaviour..but i appreciate all that I have gone through cos now I understand the values he was trying to inculcate in me..

There were of cos very fond memories of us going to Pattaya together with mum and popo, him ferrying me on his bike and going for swimming..he was the one who taught me how to swim..

Sigh..:(

Cherish your loved ones while you can..no matter how much they had angered or saddened you before..

Gathering

2008-09-16T17:39:00.004+08:00

It was the first family gathering after popo left us..It was something I looked forward to so much after a 5 day flight..

And the flight back wasnt exactly very pleasant in the sense that we had a very ill passenger onboard and all of the crew didnt have the time and mood to eat..So we were all tired and v hungry but thankfully there were medical personnel onboard and there wasnt only one doc..but like 3 drs and 2 nurses on that flight..

Hope that passenger has been discharged and is alright now..

All the drama that happened had certainly made me feel even more eager to be back home to loved ones and good food! (We had catered Peranakan food)

I am so glad I was able to be back in time to catch up with the family and see my most adorable nephew!

Heavy rain = no food!

2008-08-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

We planned to order kfc for dinner just now, but could not get through their delivery hotline at all...So Plan B was to order pastamania instead..so after a few attempts, we finally got through and just as I was about to anticipate tucking into some italian fare, the operator told me that delivery was suspended due to the heavy downpour..and guess what! The same answer was given to us when we tried Canadian pizza too!

Aiyah, so much for trying to be lazy and having food delivered to our door step..

Ended up having to walk over to the hawker centre to buy food back...:(

Getting married

2008-08-21T10:25:00.002+08:00

I wished I was one of those happy bride to be, like most of my friends but there is just this one thing that havnt been resolved which is weighing down my heart all this while.

I dont know how long more I have to worry about it..I feel like a bore whenever i tell my close friends bout it cos there is nothing we can do and I dont expect my friends to listen to my woes over and over again..

Have been praying hard for this issue to be over and hopefully not end up in the worst case scenario..

I hate this so much...

I love to cook!

2008-08-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

Cooked dinner again today..Fish in dark soya sauce with onions and tomatoes, Stir fried xiao bai chye with mushrooms and sliced pork..hehe..

Am glad Jeff enjoyed it! *beams*

I like cooking occasionally but I cannot imagine having to think of varieties EVERYDAY if I was a full time home maker!
And gets worse if the husband and children starts complaining or becoming fussier..

Am a contented gal now probably cos I aint on stupid standby for this entire week and am looking forward to FIR's concert, a 1 day batam trip and our 10th anniversary!

:))

In love...

2008-07-27T04:04:00.003+08:00

We collected our wedding bands today and I was so surprised when Jeff insisted on wearing it at the shop right away!

Haha..

Well, I would have preferred to keep it till our ROM and exchange brand new rings along with our vows but Jeff was so bent on wearing them now, telling me it doesnt make a great difference from wearing it now or later..

I thought it was really sweet of him to think that way considering that there are some guys that rather hide their rings and thus marital status for more 'fun' outside..

So, we both put on the rings for each other at the beach just now before heading to Beach Cabana for drinks with friends..and my boy even dedicated ' Nothing's gonna change my love for you' to me!

Aww..so sweet..hahah..

Pre flight syndrome

2008-07-17T13:14:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so blue..and everytime before a flight, I will tell Jeff I want to quit..

Yesh I have been toying with the idea of leaving the co..even if it means paying up the bond..Ya what an irony right, a stark difference to the Jo back then who had been trying so hard to get into the interviews and feeling over the moon when she finally did...

Jeff always tells me, the grass is not always greener on the other side..

Feeling the jitters before flt is the norm...there will be so many things running through my mind: worrying abt how the seniors would be like/would I be pushed to the business class to die under stress/how are the other crew like etc...

And the worst is to leave Jeff/family/friends..:(

I dont know how long I can tahan..but I will try my best..

Disillusioned

2008-06-22T04:04:00.002+08:00

Just got back frm clubbing..and had many thoughts running through my mind..

Was it really unintentional or just riding onto the notion of "under the influence of alcohol' that effected that kind of behaviour?

Was it acceptable to be flirting right under the nose of that person's partner and when that partner is also your friend?

How would you feel if that partner was you?

Dickheads are those that readily take you when you throw yourself at them.

I bet you didnt even care how that person feels about you. You dont mind being called a bitch too as long as you get as many guys hooked onto you.

I dont think you had any morals, values, respect at all for your relationships or so called boyfriend.

I am so disillusioned by the notion of love and faithfulness with people like you around.

Dartboard

2008-06-20T12:50:00.002+08:00

Touched down last night..Didnt really enjoy my flts cos of the bloody irritants onboard..those pple have such weird and nonsensical unspoken rules and only when you think its perfectly fine and do it, they all swoop at the chance to fault you with it!

And did I mention that as they have gleefully complained about you to the supervisors, they would still be nice to you and still can say ' I enjoy working with you!'
Wat the fuck lah..

No wonder theres such a high turnover rate for these companies..

I am pissed off..

I am so reluctant to study for my re test..

2008-06-11T13:16:00.003+08:00

Haiyah, I am referring to my Jap test the office made us take..Simply no mood to restudy..and the test is in 2 days time! yikes..I wonder what will happen if i fail it again..

There was a change in my schedule that totally disrupted my earlier plans of taking my time to study (or was it for more procrastinating) haha..and to meet up with Shirlene..

Ok excuses, the more time i had, the more i would delay to study..time is now 1.18pm..was supposed to start 18 mins earlier..
Nvm i will eat the bright yellow, juicy and sweet looking slice of pineapple first before i study hahaha...

Talking bout fruits, i realised how lacking in fibre/vits/minerals my diet had became..sighz..used to be able to take regular and somewhat more balanced meals before i started flying..
It makes it quite difficult to get a sufficient intake of fresh vegs and fruits esp when outstation..with all the eating out..

Ok time wasted = 5 more mins..

haha..

Been a long time..

2008-06-05T13:27:00.003+08:00

It has been ages since i last updated this blog of mine. Too many events had happened in this few mths..some happy and some sad...

My beloved popo passed away around a month ago..and even till now, it brings tears to me when i think of how nice it would be if she was still around..and when I have so much free time to be at home now..

Popo and Gong gong I miss both of you alot..Hope you will remember we all love yous alot..

It would be so nice if both of them were around to attend my wedding too..Well sighz, as Jeff had always told me, this is part and parcel of life, we just gotta accept that they are not around anymore..

On the happier events, I am going to embark on another new chapter of growing up or rather older..that is marriage...Like I was telling mp that day on msn, I dont think I am up to it to get married! Marriage is for grown ups! haha..

I wonder if there are still friends reading my boring blog..pls leave comments so that I know its still worth blogging here ya..

Dreams do come true..sometimes

2007-12-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

A week of training has passed and even now, I find myself wondering if this is all but a dream...Never expected it to really come true!!
Must really be 'fuo zu', niang niang and my gong gong to be blessing me..And of cos perseverance and hard work do pay off as well.

The interviews and anticipation are nothing compared to what lies in store in training..

I must admit i was overwhelmed by the new culture and expectations from us on the first few days of training..However, i know i must and can do it with hard work and more perseverance..and from the constant encouragement from family and loved ones..

This week had also been a busy one with the meet ups with friends and family..thank you for all the well wishes and thoughtful gifts you all had showered me with.

Jo is feeling truly loved..

Hoping with all my heart

2007-10-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

A month has since passed..Somehow, I can feel my beloved gg is protecting and blessing all of us at home..

No news to rejoice and be relieved of..My heart yearns for it all to be over soon..

Goodbye

2007-09-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

My beloved gong gong passed away on 17th Sept 2007.
Missing u dearly..may u be happy and painfree now

Hope

2007-08-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

I can just hope, pray and wish for this entire ordeal to be over..with you safe by my side..
The worry creeps up whenever I am idle, and it scares me to think of how we should handle it if the worst really happens..
I try to be brave and think positive as much as I can...but deep down I know I will crumble if it really happens..
I am scared and too occupied to be too bothered or affected by anything else happening in my life now..I just want you to be safe and happy...

New job..

2007-07-16T09:31:00.000+08:00

I need to get out of my current job soon...i have been dragging myself to work everyday
:( Wish me luck in my job searching !

2007-05-27T19:11:00.000+08:00

Went shopping today! SURPRISINGLY, it was Jeff who suggested it! hehe..bought a pair of brown pants from gg5 and 2 cardigans from far east..Was hoping to get some shoes and tops for work but didnt see any I fancied..

Will be going to KL over the long wkend, last time I went was when i was in pri sch! But kinda nervous after hearing friends tell bout rampant robbery and pick pockets around..I thought I went there to unwind!

Anyway, pic on the left shows 3 pretty gals at dblo having heaps of fun dancing and drinking! haha and on the right is the bf with my super adorable nephew!

Tarot card

2007-04-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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TGIF..almost

2007-04-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

Morale at work has reached its lowest I think.. and its not only me now..its everyone of us! I could not believe we were actually having a discussion and something like a brainstorming session on why we were all feeling this way!
Colleague even mentioned if we could bring it up to boss! Wah..madness! Hah..but I am comforted in a way cos at least I now know I am not overly pessimistic *lol*

Talking bout reaffirmation of thoughts, another colleague in another dept agreed with me that growing old can be quite scary esp when sickness and abandonment befalls. Ha, all the more realistic and upfront when you work in a geriatric dept. I say dying a natural cause is the best, as compared to being in pain or paralysed for long long periods of time and not being able to do anything at all on your own, OR to be so demented that you no longer recognise your loved ones or if you had your dinner OR, to be abandoned by your own flesh and blood or worse, all of THEM OR to be placed in a nursing home where sub optimal care is given.

..Aging is a natural and inevitable process unless life ends before we can age..I say I shall try to be less pessimistic and do the things i want to do/achieve before its too late!

Jo ponders, thinking of which ' hmm, maybe i should just awol for work tmr since I want to sleep in' ' Gotta do the things I want to do wat...' haha..

Motivation

2007-03-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

I would like to share these encouraging words my colleague text me this evening

' you are very special too, dont let anything hold you back. If your dream leads you somewhere, hope you have the courage to pursue it.'

Thanks so much val! Really needed the support..

Happy New Yr!

2007-02-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Been ages since I have blogged! Just didnt have the mood and was too lazy to blog lah.

Hope everyone had a great time this CNY..I did, though I never won for every gambling session ie black jack, mahjong ( no luck for gambling this yr according to zodiac readings), hah the long PH was good!! Did some visiting, movies, clubbing, feasting..

However, I have grown to feel less close to family..Just didnt seem to understand or agree with how they managed matters..Wish I could move out..

We celebrated grandad's bday today..Grandparents are older and more forgetful..Granny have been asking me abt ang bao and money issues for the past consecutive 4 nites!! Really extending my limit for patience man..

Growing old is scary..esp when we have illnesses surfacing..Yikess *I dont wanna grow old!!*

This entry is so lacking in structure and logic..its just like my random thoughts in different paragraphs..Oh well whatever for tonite lah..Still bothered by the differences in me and family + freaking mon blues (I dont look forward to working at all) + jeff for reservist = :(

2006-12-24T13:27:00.000+08:00

my first bday cake for this yr from my future sis laws! haha

2006-12-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

hehe..thanks for the lovely cake girlies!

2006-12-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

Cake from my colleagues

2006-12-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

Bday cake and flowers from the bf

2006-12-24T13:21:00.000+08:00

My 25th bday presents!!

On my 25th bday - 14th Dec

2006-12-24T13:19:00.000+08:00

Thanks for all the bday well wishes, lovely presents and surprises all of you had showered me with.

Though there wasnt any big celebrations, I had the joy of having a few mini ones with different groups of friends! Be it advanced or belated, Ms jo jo is really touched! Thankies darlings!

And the best thing of all was that I took leave from bday eve and extended to a day after bday plus 2 days of wkends haha..there was a grand total of 4.5 days of leave!!

I had the privilege of cutting 4 cakes on my bday week! hehe..2 of them were surprise cakes, 1 was baked personally by my company's pastry chef and the last one being the most economical costing only $2 !! heh

It was the first time bf had sent flowers on my bday and am really pleased with it! hehe..

Anyway, here are some pics of my cakes and presents! More pics to be updated soon..

2006-11-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hehe..

2006-11-11T21:43:00.001+08:00

My mummy

2006-11-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

The bf

2006-11-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

The girlies!

Me time

2006-11-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

It wasn't planned to be a ' me - time' session after work today..Jeff and I had wanted to go out for dinner..But due to some miscommunication, we didnt meet up. I didnt want to just get some takeaway and head home, so I ended up at Starbucks with 'Her World', a tall iced skinny latte and a toasted multigrain chicken sandwich!
Think it must have been a long time since I have had such an opportunity to just relax at the cafe that it felt really good to just have some time to myself! It was really therapeutic enough to kinda soothed my frazzled nerves (from work) and anger (from the tiff we had - but now resolved)..It will be even better if the seats were sofas! hah..
Reached home just in time to catch the last episode of the 9 pm serial! Had a chat with my popo and even did a diet history on her to check on her food intake! haha..*job hazard*
It had been an eventful week..few incidents had evoked quite a bit of emotions and thoughts..
Incident at work today allowed me to realise how horrible it felt to have someone tell me sarcastically some things I didnt do right, I would have handled it better if she just told me directly, however I have already made it clear to my colleague so its all good now. :)

Another issue with some friends or I would rather as acquaintances now, have now surfaced their ugly sides to me at an even clearer dimensions. The differences in how these people view and respect friendship and love as compared to the more sensible and normal *haha* friends I have is appalling!! I was totally disgusted and pained to see such people hurting the ones around them..unknowingly or rather they dont give a damn about..

Think I shouldnt write too much of these stinky tales of them in my precious blog space lah, not worth it also..

Time to lie down on my comfy bed already..working tmr in exchange to attend my long awaited convocation next sat!
Hope it will be a more pleasant day tmr..

I need a break!

2006-10-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

I feel worn out, especially when it comes to getting up to prepare for work..I really need a break! And the short break at Genting wasnt enough boy..it was more of rush there and rush back again...

I wonder how I will get my break when I dont have much money to spare..:(

*Yawnz* Am feeling depressed again...sux..

2006-09-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

I'm a Mazda Miata!

You like to soak up the sun, but your tastes are down to earth. Everyone thinks you're cute. Life is a winding road, and you like to take the curves in stride. Let other people compete in the rat race - you're just here to enjoy the ride.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

Diminishing..

2006-09-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

How do one handle the dejection and disappointment of knowing that we can't fulfil that big dream we had?

I am trying really hard to move on and self comfort..

Eventful weeks

2006-08-13T12:09:00.000+08:00

I have had so much fun for the past two weeks..but also a doubly fair share of crap from work and the people i meet..Met up with pretty shirlene for our first ktv session together and we had so much fun! And we chanced upon the new foodie area beside carrefour at suntec..wah so much finger foods and takeaways!
And I was even more delighted to know that my fancl products were around 10% and more cheaper in japan than the ones in here..So all thanks to shirlene, she managed to buy them back for me when she went there for work! And everytime she goes to a new destination, she will bring back small gifts for me..she is such a sweet darling!!
sighz i wished i could be like her too..going to all the fun and new destinations..

And last week, Jeff and I attended the NDP! Hiakz..it was a truly fun and heartwarming session..it never fails to bring a fuzzy feeling to my heart when the entire stadium sings the national anthem and say the pledge..And of cos the most anticipated item for the parade - fireworks! I found the session quite short this yr though...

We also celebrated our 8th year anniversary together..haha..our celebration just revolved around eating! haha..2 days ago, we cooked spaghetti with lotsa mushrooms and chicken and had a clam chowder which jeff didnt like..cos he said it was too fishy! Desserts were chocolate and grapes..*so fat*

Then came the actual day where we pigged out at sushi tei and desserts at my fav coffee joint - coffee club at somerset! Wah..so shioksss..hehe..

Fri was clubbing nite..was supposed to go butter factory but in the end we ended up at MOS cos the quene was too long at that stupid factory..Ah well..shall go there earlier the next time..Nevertheless, it was fun at MOS too with Ms Paul paul, my neighbour and a new friend *lol*! But it was such a pity that i had to leave earlier..

Then yesterday was girlie day out with Mich and Daphne..so tai tai u know hahaha...went for lunch at crystal jade then coffee at TCC..it was just catching up and more catching up and we have made a pact to meet up on the saturday of every month where Daphne and I wont be working...

Yeah..sianz..too bad wkends are always too short..*sianz*

Shall blog again.Happy wkends pple!!

Sevens

2006-07-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

7 Random Things About Me

1. I feel refreshed after washing dishes and seeing them all squeaky clean.
2. I shuffle cards, hold the spoon and clap with my left hand but I am not a leftie.
3. My lashes are my favourite feature on my face
4. I am superstitious
5. I have picked up a kid's poo before from the floor using only paper towels
6. It irks me totally to see my bed in a mess
7. I wished I had siblings

7 Random Songs At The Moment

1. Yuan Lai - Lin Jun Jie
2. Hua Tian Cuo - Wang Li Hong
3. Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
4. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
5. Together Again - Janet Jackson
6. Qian Nian Zi Lian - F.I.R
7. Jia Zhuang - Jolin Tsai

7 Things I Like Most

1. Coffee
2. Hugs and kisses
3. Veggies
4. Money
5. Shopping
6. Singing
7. Nua-ing

7 Things That Scare Me

1. The supernatural
2. Cockroaches
3. Losing my memory
4. Losing my loved ones
5. Sickness
6. Left alone in this world
7. Losing hair

7 Things I Say The Most

1. kns
2. Wah lau
3. Oh my goodness
4. Are you serious?
5. I am a dietitian, my name is Jolyn
6. So irritating
7. Hai

7 People To Do This

1. Weiguo
2. Daphne
3. Su Ann
The rest had already been tagged or they dont keep blogs..

All in a day

2006-07-18T07:03:00.000+08:00

My colleagues and I were faced with a thick pile of referrals ie many clients (better change to this description just in case I get into any trouble for writing that) waiting to be seen as we stepped into the office on a blue monday..We were down with 2 staff..my senior went on leave and there our new colleague would start work only on the last week...
So the 4 of us left were totally maxed out, well or should I say it SEEMS like ALL of us were, even though it is quite obvious that some of us were not, only appearing to be, which irked me even more.

Anyway back to the story, if all the clients were nice and compliant, it wouldnt have made me blog it down here..But NO, one of them totally stretched my patience and tolerance..{Description of this scenario has to be carefully worded due to the reason stated above)

That arseface client of mine wasnt a local..He didnt need any advice whatsoever and told me straight in the face that I didnt know anything about food when I went in to introduce myself..So I attempted to tell him his blood levels showed that his control over his condition wasnt that good, and I mentioned a scientific term which I would go on to explain a few secs later, but NO, arseface had to say this ' wait wait, stop, speak english, I dont understand u. Then i went ' Ok, this *** means your control, before i can continue, he cut in again, ' NO NO stop, I SAID speak in english!'
What the hell? How the fuck do i explain when he just kept stopping me? Ok nvm..the quick tempered me was already seething with anger but I was surprised at myself for being able to control it..
Then he went on to say he knows his condition perfectly well, saying that he just lacks exercise and its ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE to do NATURAL exercise here..Cos i suggested walking, swimming..He said he dont do that, the only thing he does is farming..and he cannot find it here..because 'this country is totally artificial' and that 'all our food is cooked in oil'..And went on about if given a choice, he wouldnt have came here...Arseface was posted here to work...
Anyway, unfortunately, I couldnt rebuke back even though I was fighting back the big urge to do that..
He was an absolute arse, totally fucked up and a racist..and he looks down on pple different from him..One of the nurses caring for him even had to take this kinda of comments from him ' You dumb asians'
Wah really feel like slapping him I tell you...ok anyway readers, i gotta go and get ready for work now..have to stop abruptly first..continue again k..haha

No time for myself..

2006-07-11T06:57:00.000+08:00

As I was signing in, I was half expecting to key in the wrong user name or pass word..Im surprised I still remember! I long for some slack time where I can blog, use the msn or just surf the net at a leisurely pace at work..But with such a tight schedule at work, time simply doesn't allow me to blog at all..And comes after work, Jo will be either catching up with a friend or doing some shopping/self maintenance/reading up where I will be so dead beat by the time I am done. The only thing I feel like doing is to SLEEP.

Talking about sleeping, I cant believe I spent almost 3/4 of Sunday sleeping!! Sat was a late night out with booze at Brewerkz and then an even later nite with ktv after that..So I slept in till 1 plus on Sunday..Woke up and dragged Jeff out from bed to feed my growling stomach...At 3, Jo was a satisfied gal but falling drowsy again..So I decided to take a nap..haha..Nap continued till 8 pm!! Haiyooooo..Then nvm..time for dinner..ended at around 10 plus...As I was feeling quite energetic, I went to bed at 1 plus am which I shouldnt have cos comes Monday morning, I still felt tired!!! Its such a vicious cycle..And there were so many things I had planned to do on the weekend but ended up sleeping and yet still feeling tired..so DUH!!

Ok anyway, one of my closer colleague had left..She is the only one I feel comfy talking to about more personal matters and def. has more EQ than some others!! Its going to get lonelier at work these days..Unless I want to be more superficial and do some acting..hah..

Time to get ready for work...Sianz..

3rd week of work..

2006-06-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

Time flies when we are busy man..It has been my 3rd week as a dietitian..and I think i have lost my skills in writing..writing as a form of entertainment and not the writing in the case notes for my patients lah huh..

My typical day would be to see patients (pt) in the outpatient clinic for the first half of the day where there is an influx of patients everyday..patient count ranging from 5 to 14..And the current trend is weds will be the killer days..Gotta see all those pts starting from 9 am to latest by 12.30..ie. Mad Rush..so much so that i dont have time to go to the toilet or drink water..

And things get harder when the pt notes don't come in sequence, and I will have to walk around the ctr to look for them..(most often be in the nurse's office) and retrieve them in the most polite manner on a busy day..or else bear with the irritated look and a stern answer from who ever is holding them.

If not, it will be the blood test results taking a gazillion yrs to be reflected in the data base..

Then its the much appreciated lunch hr..and next comes seeing pts in the wards..this will generally take on a more relaxed pace but still not too lax lah huh..cos it will reflect on how inefficient you are!!

oh well..still need to give myself somemore time...but I just have this nagging feeling in me that this job is not one which i will stay on for long..

I wont be working this sat yayy!! ..*crosses fingers* hope my colleagues dont suddenly decide that they have sth on and need to swap with me!!

Yucky Monday Blues

2006-06-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

Yucks, I am feeling the horrible, sinking and dull effects of the infamous monday blues.

To update, I am working as a dietitian now in a healthcare institution..Not exactly liking it but still tolerable..Prolly cos i feel different from my colleagues..and their expertise in this field pressures and intimidates me quite alot..sighz..*my brain seems empty*

However, i will just give myself a chance to try out how it feels like to be really working as a full time dietitian and if I am really suitable for it..

The job is not a bed of roses as some annoying people would deem it to be..especially when I havnt been in touch for quite some time..So I had promised myself to revise and do some reading up in the weekends which on the Sunday nite I havn't quite started on..hah..What's new?!!

Nevertheless, i will get round to doing it lah, eventually. *looks at pile of notes and thick txtbook beside laptop*

Unusually enough, it was an alcohol free wkend for me..it was coffee with Jeff and friends and a first movie experience at Cathay ( i love the couple seats!!) and a homely sunday with us shopping for groceries and preparing our spaghetti dinner together! Been such a long time since I have cooked..

Aiyah.. am looking forward to the next weekend already!

Cute quiz

2006-05-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

Jo has been busy lately..will update more when I am more settled in my new job ya..Before i go, i shall complete this quiz( My fav cousin just tagged me!)

01) What is the phone brand?
Nokia

02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?
223

03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
Dear dear wat time will you reach?

04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
Mabel

05) Who's the last person you rang?
Jeff

06) Who was your last missed call from?
Jeff

07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
Danny

08) What does the last message in your inbox say?
Take care girl. Will miss you loads..Hugs
09)Who comes up under J?
Joan, Joanna Ang, Joanna Goh,Jocelyn,Jodel,Joel,John,Jonathan,Josephine,Jovina,Jowie,Joyce, Joyce Wee,Junbin,Junjie,Justin

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 5th message say?
Around 630..Still in ward now...

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
Select Agency (haha)

12) Who's your network provider?
" I am walking on sunshine.."

13) How many messages are currently in your inbox?
69

14) What do you have as your background
Pic of Jeff and i taken at cousin's wedding

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
Rahinah

16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?
No one

17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
Dont know lah..

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?
Cab No *haha*

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
Full

20) What do you have as your main ringtone?
Jolin Tsai - Ye Man You Xi

ok..gotta sleep now..
Jie, Paul paul, Su gin u are tagged!!

2006-05-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

Why do my curls look straigter today! *yikes*

2006-05-13T19:05:00.000+08:00

I look fat in this pic! ok..just look at the hair

Vanity weekend..

2006-05-13T18:48:00.000+08:00

Hehe..I had my first facial session last thursday, it was so sweet of Mich to buy me a facial session..She thought it would be good for me to try out since I have never went for one before..I will always hear from my gal pals, those who go for facials describe how clean their face feels after the session..and now I really understand what they meant by that..

My perpetual blackheads on my nose were removed and the size of my gaping pores were significantly reduced! Heheh..and of cos there were more radiance, fairer and skin felt so soft! Shioks ah..

Then on friday, I permed my hair! hehe..Friends who know me well enough will know i love straight long hair alot haha..what made mi want to perm my hair?! It was the suggestions from BF, cost of the perm was sponsored *Grinz*, and to try something new! End result is that I am liking my curls! BF likes it alot! haha BUT, i think my hair is not curly enough..so i might go back to the salon to have it redone!

And looking at them now, I have this hunch that they are not going to last..prolly due to the fact that my hair was rebonded before the perm..arrghh..*crosses fingers*

Okok..so much for going on and on about my face and hair..:x

2006-05-10T12:22:00.000+08:00

Mum got me this!

A surprise gift from mum

2006-05-10T12:20:00.000+08:00

Grandad was in one of his rampages again..and again I got scolded for nothing.

Was feeling pretty upset and msged my mum ( she was on leave yesterday) to ask if I could join her outside for dinner instead of being cooped up at home and subjecting myself to more nonsense...

But Mum had already made an appointment with her friend...So in the end i just went to da bao-ed hor fun with fish slices near my place..And the lousy service at that stall really pissed me off even more..probably cos of the already frayed nerves i had..this is how the conversation went:
W - woman attending to me
J - Jolyn lah, just in case u dont know its me haha

J - xiao jie, ni you she me mian?
W- Ee mian, xiang gang mian, etc
J - Hor fun ne?
W - ' stares at me blankly for 2 secs'
J - (irritated) Wo zai wen ni you she me hor fun?
W- (in impatient tone) Seafood hor fun, Sao lao etc

Dont know whats her problem, intro once abt the type of noodles, cannot intro abt hor fun issit..stare at me for what...Just her luck to attend to a irritated Jo lah huh..

Alright anyway..dearest Mum came home with some shopping and she suddenly handed me something in a Sa sa bag..hehe..And i thought to myself, anything from Sa sa is good!!

And in there i saw the Kenzo perfume! hehe..Mum said it was to cheer me up as she knew i had been taking alot of nonsense lately and also it had been a long time since she had bought me something..hehe..*grins*

Mum chose that because it was quite mild.She personally didnt like perfumes cos she finds most of them too intoxicating and overpowering.
And she told me, when the lady sprayed another brand onto her wrist, she had to request for her to remove it cos she simply couldnt stand the smell...haha..

How come I am so different from mum? Ah well...

Anyhow..it really warmed my heart to receive something from mummy!

*needs to crack brains for ideas for her coming birthday soon*

2006-05-08T13:24:00.000+08:00

My Cheeky Boy

2006-05-08T13:23:00.000+08:00

Taking a break from cycling