On my 25th bday - 14th Dec

Thanks for all the bday well wishes, lovely presents and surprises all of you had showered me with.

Though there wasnt any big celebrations, I had the joy of having a few mini ones with different groups of friends! Be it advanced or belated, Ms jo jo is really touched! Thankies darlings!

And the best thing of all was that I took leave from bday eve and extended to a day after bday plus 2 days of wkends haha..there was a grand total of 4.5 days of leave!!

I had the privilege of cutting 4 cakes on my bday week! hehe..2 of them were surprise cakes, 1 was baked personally by my company's pastry chef and the last one being the most economical costing only $2 !! heh

It was the first time bf had sent flowers on my bday and am really pleased with it! hehe..

Anyway, here are some pics of my cakes and presents! More pics to be updated soon..

Hehe..

My mummy

The bf

The girlies!

Me time

It wasn't planned to be a ' me - time' session after work today..Jeff and I had wanted to go out for dinner..But due to some miscommunication, we didnt meet up. I didnt want to just get some takeaway and head home, so I ended up at Starbucks with 'Her World', a tall iced skinny latte and a toasted multigrain chicken sandwich!
Think it must have been a long time since I have had such an opportunity to just relax at the cafe that it felt really good to just have some time to myself! It was really therapeutic enough to kinda soothed my frazzled nerves (from work) and anger (from the tiff we had - but now resolved)..It will be even better if the seats were sofas! hah..
Reached home just in time to catch the last episode of the 9 pm serial! Had a chat with my popo and even did a diet history on her to check on her food intake! haha..*job hazard*
It had been an eventful week..few incidents had evoked quite a bit of emotions and thoughts..
Incident at work today allowed me to realise how horrible it felt to have someone tell me sarcastically some things I didnt do right, I would have handled it better if she just told me directly, however I have already made it clear to my colleague so its all good now. :)

Another issue with some friends or I would rather as acquaintances now, have now surfaced their ugly sides to me at an even clearer dimensions. The differences in how these people view and respect friendship and love as compared to the more sensible and normal *haha* friends I have is appalling!! I was totally disgusted and pained to see such people hurting the ones around them..unknowingly or rather they dont give a damn about..

Think I shouldnt write too much of these stinky tales of them in my precious blog space lah, not worth it also..

Time to lie down on my comfy bed already..working tmr in exchange to attend my long awaited convocation next sat!
Hope it will be a more pleasant day tmr..

I need a break!

I feel worn out, especially when it comes to getting up to prepare for work..I really need a break! And the short break at Genting wasnt enough boy..it was more of rush there and rush back again...

I wonder how I will get my break when I dont have much money to spare..:(

*Yawnz* Am feeling depressed again...sux..

I'm a Mazda Miata!

You like to soak up the sun, but your tastes are down to earth. Everyone thinks you're cute. Life is a winding road, and you like to take the curves in stride. Let other people compete in the rat race - you're just here to enjoy the ride.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

Diminishing..

How do one handle the dejection and disappointment of knowing that we can't fulfil that big dream we had?

I am trying really hard to move on and self comfort..

Eventful weeks

I have had so much fun for the past two weeks..but also a doubly fair share of crap from work and the people i meet..Met up with pretty shirlene for our first ktv session together and we had so much fun! And we chanced upon the new foodie area beside carrefour at suntec..wah so much finger foods and takeaways!
And I was even more delighted to know that my fancl products were around 10% and more cheaper in japan than the ones in here..So all thanks to shirlene, she managed to buy them back for me when she went there for work! And everytime she goes to a new destination, she will bring back small gifts for me..she is such a sweet darling!!
sighz i wished i could be like her too..going to all the fun and new destinations..

And last week, Jeff and I attended the NDP! Hiakz..it was a truly fun and heartwarming session..it never fails to bring a fuzzy feeling to my heart when the entire stadium sings the national anthem and say the pledge..And of cos the most anticipated item for the parade - fireworks! I found the session quite short this yr though...

We also celebrated our 8th year anniversary together..haha..our celebration just revolved around eating! haha..2 days ago, we cooked spaghetti with lotsa mushrooms and chicken and had a clam chowder which jeff didnt like..cos he said it was too fishy! Desserts were chocolate and grapes..*so fat*

Then came the actual day where we pigged out at sushi tei and desserts at my fav coffee joint - coffee club at somerset! Wah..so shioksss..hehe..

Fri was clubbing nite..was supposed to go butter factory but in the end we ended up at MOS cos the quene was too long at that stupid factory..Ah well..shall go there earlier the next time..Nevertheless, it was fun at MOS too with Ms Paul paul, my neighbour and a new friend *lol*! But it was such a pity that i had to leave earlier..

Then yesterday was girlie day out with Mich and Daphne..so tai tai u know hahaha...went for lunch at crystal jade then coffee at TCC..it was just catching up and more catching up and we have made a pact to meet up on the saturday of every month where Daphne and I wont be working...

Yeah..sianz..too bad wkends are always too short..*sianz*

Shall blog again.Happy wkends pple!!

Sevens

7 Random Things About Me

1. I feel refreshed after washing dishes and seeing them all squeaky clean.
2. I shuffle cards, hold the spoon and clap with my left hand but I am not a leftie.
3. My lashes are my favourite feature on my face
4. I am superstitious
5. I have picked up a kid's poo before from the floor using only paper towels
6. It irks me totally to see my bed in a mess
7. I wished I had siblings

7 Random Songs At The Moment

1. Yuan Lai - Lin Jun Jie
2. Hua Tian Cuo - Wang Li Hong
3. Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
4. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
5. Together Again - Janet Jackson
6. Qian Nian Zi Lian - F.I.R
7. Jia Zhuang - Jolin Tsai

7 Things I Like Most

1. Coffee
2. Hugs and kisses
3. Veggies
4. Money
5. Shopping
6. Singing
7. Nua-ing

7 Things That Scare Me

1. The supernatural
2. Cockroaches
3. Losing my memory
4. Losing my loved ones
5. Sickness
6. Left alone in this world
7. Losing hair

7 Things I Say The Most

1. kns
2. Wah lau
3. Oh my goodness
4. Are you serious?
5. I am a dietitian, my name is Jolyn
6. So irritating
7. Hai

7 People To Do This

1. Weiguo
2. Daphne
3. Su Ann
The rest had already been tagged or they dont keep blogs..

All in a day

My colleagues and I were faced with a thick pile of referrals ie many clients (better change to this description just in case I get into any trouble for writing that) waiting to be seen as we stepped into the office on a blue monday..We were down with 2 staff..my senior went on leave and there our new colleague would start work only on the last week...
So the 4 of us left were totally maxed out, well or should I say it SEEMS like ALL of us were, even though it is quite obvious that some of us were not, only appearing to be, which irked me even more.

Anyway back to the story, if all the clients were nice and compliant, it wouldnt have made me blog it down here..But NO, one of them totally stretched my patience and tolerance..{Description of this scenario has to be carefully worded due to the reason stated above)

That arseface client of mine wasnt a local..He didnt need any advice whatsoever and told me straight in the face that I didnt know anything about food when I went in to introduce myself..So I attempted to tell him his blood levels showed that his control over his condition wasnt that good, and I mentioned a scientific term which I would go on to explain a few secs later, but NO, arseface had to say this ' wait wait, stop, speak english, I dont understand u. Then i went ' Ok, this *** means your control, before i can continue, he cut in again, ' NO NO stop, I SAID speak in english!'
What the hell? How the fuck do i explain when he just kept stopping me? Ok nvm..the quick tempered me was already seething with anger but I was surprised at myself for being able to control it..
Then he went on to say he knows his condition perfectly well, saying that he just lacks exercise and its ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE to do NATURAL exercise here..Cos i suggested walking, swimming..He said he dont do that, the only thing he does is farming..and he cannot find it here..because 'this country is totally artificial' and that 'all our food is cooked in oil'..And went on about if given a choice, he wouldnt have came here...Arseface was posted here to work...
Anyway, unfortunately, I couldnt rebuke back even though I was fighting back the big urge to do that..
He was an absolute arse, totally fucked up and a racist..and he looks down on pple different from him..One of the nurses caring for him even had to take this kinda of comments from him ' You dumb asians'
Wah really feel like slapping him I tell you...ok anyway readers, i gotta go and get ready for work now..have to stop abruptly first..continue again k..haha

No time for myself..

As I was signing in, I was half expecting to key in the wrong user name or pass word..Im surprised I still remember! I long for some slack time where I can blog, use the msn or just surf the net at a leisurely pace at work..But with such a tight schedule at work, time simply doesn't allow me to blog at all..And comes after work, Jo will be either catching up with a friend or doing some shopping/self maintenance/reading up where I will be so dead beat by the time I am done. The only thing I feel like doing is to SLEEP.

Talking about sleeping, I cant believe I spent almost 3/4 of Sunday sleeping!! Sat was a late night out with booze at Brewerkz and then an even later nite with ktv after that..So I slept in till 1 plus on Sunday..Woke up and dragged Jeff out from bed to feed my growling stomach...At 3, Jo was a satisfied gal but falling drowsy again..So I decided to take a nap..haha..Nap continued till 8 pm!! Haiyooooo..Then nvm..time for dinner..ended at around 10 plus...As I was feeling quite energetic, I went to bed at 1 plus am which I shouldnt have cos comes Monday morning, I still felt tired!!! Its such a vicious cycle..And there were so many things I had planned to do on the weekend but ended up sleeping and yet still feeling tired..so DUH!!

Ok anyway, one of my closer colleague had left..She is the only one I feel comfy talking to about more personal matters and def. has more EQ than some others!! Its going to get lonelier at work these days..Unless I want to be more superficial and do some acting..hah..

Time to get ready for work...Sianz..

3rd week of work..

Time flies when we are busy man..It has been my 3rd week as a dietitian..and I think i have lost my skills in writing..writing as a form of entertainment and not the writing in the case notes for my patients lah huh..

My typical day would be to see patients (pt) in the outpatient clinic for the first half of the day where there is an influx of patients everyday..patient count ranging from 5 to 14..And the current trend is weds will be the killer days..Gotta see all those pts starting from 9 am to latest by 12.30..ie. Mad Rush..so much so that i dont have time to go to the toilet or drink water..

And things get harder when the pt notes don't come in sequence, and I will have to walk around the ctr to look for them..(most often be in the nurse's office) and retrieve them in the most polite manner on a busy day..or else bear with the irritated look and a stern answer from who ever is holding them.

If not, it will be the blood test results taking a gazillion yrs to be reflected in the data base..

Then its the much appreciated lunch hr..and next comes seeing pts in the wards..this will generally take on a more relaxed pace but still not too lax lah huh..cos it will reflect on how inefficient you are!!

oh well..still need to give myself somemore time...but I just have this nagging feeling in me that this job is not one which i will stay on for long..

I wont be working this sat yayy!! ..*crosses fingers* hope my colleagues dont suddenly decide that they have sth on and need to swap with me!!

Yucky Monday Blues

Yucks, I am feeling the horrible, sinking and dull effects of the infamous monday blues.

To update, I am working as a dietitian now in a healthcare institution..Not exactly liking it but still tolerable..Prolly cos i feel different from my colleagues..and their expertise in this field pressures and intimidates me quite alot..sighz..*my brain seems empty*

However, i will just give myself a chance to try out how it feels like to be really working as a full time dietitian and if I am really suitable for it..

The job is not a bed of roses as some annoying people would deem it to be..especially when I havnt been in touch for quite some time..So I had promised myself to revise and do some reading up in the weekends which on the Sunday nite I havn't quite started on..hah..What's new?!!

Nevertheless, i will get round to doing it lah, eventually. *looks at pile of notes and thick txtbook beside laptop*

Unusually enough, it was an alcohol free wkend for me..it was coffee with Jeff and friends and a first movie experience at Cathay ( i love the couple seats!!) and a homely sunday with us shopping for groceries and preparing our spaghetti dinner together! Been such a long time since I have cooked..

Aiyah.. am looking forward to the next weekend already!

Cute quiz

Jo has been busy lately..will update more when I am more settled in my new job ya..Before i go, i shall complete this quiz( My fav cousin just tagged me!)


01) What is the phone brand?
Nokia

02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?
223

03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
Dear dear wat time will you reach?

04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
Mabel

05) Who's the last person you rang?
Jeff

06) Who was your last missed call from?
Jeff

07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
Danny

08) What does the last message in your inbox say?
Take care girl. Will miss you loads..Hugs
09)Who comes up under J?
Joan, Joanna Ang, Joanna Goh,Jocelyn,Jodel,Joel,John,Jonathan,Josephine,Jovina,Jowie,Joyce, Joyce Wee,Junbin,Junjie,Justin

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 5th message say?
Around 630..Still in ward now...

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
Select Agency (haha)

12) Who's your network provider?
" I am walking on sunshine.."

13) How many messages are currently in your inbox?
69

14) What do you have as your background
Pic of Jeff and i taken at cousin's wedding

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
Rahinah

16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?
No one

17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
Dont know lah..

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?
Cab No *haha*

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
Full

20) What do you have as your main ringtone?
Jolin Tsai - Ye Man You Xi

ok..gotta sleep now..
Jie, Paul paul, Su gin u are tagged!!

Why do my curls look straigter today! *yikes*

I look fat in this pic! ok..just look at the hair

Vanity weekend..

Hehe..I had my first facial session last thursday, it was so sweet of Mich to buy me a facial session..She thought it would be good for me to try out since I have never went for one before..I will always hear from my gal pals, those who go for facials describe how clean their face feels after the session..and now I really understand what they meant by that..

My perpetual blackheads on my nose were removed and the size of my gaping pores were significantly reduced! Heheh..and of cos there were more radiance, fairer and skin felt so soft! Shioks ah..


Then on friday, I permed my hair! hehe..Friends who know me well enough will know i love straight long hair alot haha..what made mi want to perm my hair?! It was the suggestions from BF, cost of the perm was sponsored *Grinz*, and to try something new! End result is that I am liking my curls! BF likes it alot! haha BUT, i think my hair is not curly enough..so i might go back to the salon to have it redone!

And looking at them now, I have this hunch that they are not going to last..prolly due to the fact that my hair was rebonded before the perm..arrghh..*crosses fingers*

Okok..so much for going on and on about my face and hair..:x

Mum got me this!

A surprise gift from mum

Grandad was in one of his rampages again..and again I got scolded for nothing.

Was feeling pretty upset and msged my mum ( she was on leave yesterday) to ask if I could join her outside for dinner instead of being cooped up at home and subjecting myself to more nonsense...

But Mum had already made an appointment with her friend...So in the end i just went to da bao-ed hor fun with fish slices near my place..And the lousy service at that stall really pissed me off even more..probably cos of the already frayed nerves i had..this is how the conversation went:
W - woman attending to me
J - Jolyn lah, just in case u dont know its me haha

J - xiao jie, ni you she me mian?
W- Ee mian, xiang gang mian, etc
J - Hor fun ne?
W - ' stares at me blankly for 2 secs'
J - (irritated) Wo zai wen ni you she me hor fun?
W- (in impatient tone) Seafood hor fun, Sao lao etc

Dont know whats her problem, intro once abt the type of noodles, cannot intro abt hor fun issit..stare at me for what...Just her luck to attend to a irritated Jo lah huh..

Alright anyway..dearest Mum came home with some shopping and she suddenly handed me something in a Sa sa bag..hehe..And i thought to myself, anything from Sa sa is good!!

And in there i saw the Kenzo perfume! hehe..Mum said it was to cheer me up as she knew i had been taking alot of nonsense lately and also it had been a long time since she had bought me something..hehe..*grins*

Mum chose that because it was quite mild.She personally didnt like perfumes cos she finds most of them too intoxicating and overpowering.
And she told me, when the lady sprayed another brand onto her wrist, she had to request for her to remove it cos she simply couldnt stand the smell...haha..

How come I am so different from mum? Ah well...

Anyhow..it really warmed my heart to receive something from mummy!

*needs to crack brains for ideas for her coming birthday soon*

My Cheeky Boy

Taking a break from cycling

Tea for Two

Been a long time

Indeed, it has been a long time since i have blogged.

Not in the best of moods to blog and all..A combination of too many disappointments and setbacks..

I need to have happy people around me to feel positive about life now.

I hate how I am feeling now and hope to snap out of it NOW.

Life sux to the max.

Don't waste the air and space lah..

I strongly believe some people came to this world with only one purpose in their life.
That is to annoy and irritate the hell out of anyone that comes in contact with them. Attributes like 'nice', 'accomodating', ' smiley', 'patience' had never existed in their life and these are perputually replaced with their antonym-ies.
I think these people find joy and feel achieved when they have succeeded in bullying or creating some kind of unhappiness to the other party.

Such people or better labelled as 'pesks' are such a waste of resources..take up space and consume our depleting resources and contribute to making life harder for everyone..

Unfortunately there are such people everywhere..One of them succeeded in spoiling my mood..just momentarily, thankfully. I didnt allow it to affect me long, that will be too great an achievement for such pesks man...NO WAY...

Good on you jo! I deserve a pat on my back! :p

Interesting..

Here is something interesting i chanced upon..interesting to me at least..

Based on an ancient agricultural calendar, the system is based on the influences of the different forces. Although the exact origins remain a mystery, legends abound on how it came to be.

One has it that on one of his birthdays, Yuhuang Dadi (the Jade Emperor of Heaven) invited all the animals on earth and heaven to join in the celebrations. But only 12 turned up and the party animals were Rat, Ox, Tiger, Rabbit, Dragon, Snake, Horse, Goat, Monkey, Rooster, Dog and Pig.

For their effort, the Emperor honoured each animal with a year of its own. It was also decreed that henceforth, those born in the year of the animal would assume the nature and characteristics of that animal influenced by the different elements.

And if you are wondering why Rat became the first animal in the zodiac? Well, Ox was in fact first but Rat, clever animal that it was, laid a bet with Ox. Sitting on Ox's head, Rat said "Let us take a walk around these heavenly grounds and see who will emerge as the 'big' animal."

Good-naturedly, Ox agreed.

"Oh, what a big, awful-looking rat," screamed one of the fairies and shook her head in disgust.

"See, I told you. Even fairies think I am 'big'!" declared Rat to Ox.

No arguments there and the tolerant Ox conceded.

Now why is there no cat in the line-up? Well, in those heavenly days, Cat and Rat were good friends. They both received the invitation to the birthday party but Cat was lazy and decided to ask Rat to reserve a place for him, while he stole a couple more hours of sleep.

"No problem," said Rat and off he went.

At Heaven, Rat got into a game with Ox and duly forgot his promise to Cat. When he returned, triumphant, Cat woke up to the rude reality that he was forgotten. Cat, of course, never forgave Rat. By the way, that's also why cats always catch rats.

I am down with the stupid cough and bad throat..quite serious leh i think..my phlegm had some blood in it this morning..arrgghh so heaty..

Is he the one, or not?

I once asked my married colleague, how do you that your husband is the one for you? Her reply - 'Frankly speaking, it is not easy to know he is the one or not lah..its just a gamble'

Another colleague who has an almost decade old relationship says " I don't believe in this now, esp in our times now.."

I so agree with the both of them..

Two can be happy together now, and later before you know it, you are weeping over a broken relationship..

How to trust again when trust has been broken? How to keep the bad memories at bay when things around you are not helping the situation?

How do we know the partners we have now are the ones suitable for us?

What if as time goes by, differences start to emerge and the right way is to let go..but our heart just can't bear the pain..How will the relationship turn out to be?

What if one has already tried to give but still feel unhappy? Is there such a thing as getting used to?

Sighz..i guess everyone has their own way of answering those questions...I wished I could answer them myself..

A Receptionist's Life

Think ever since I have graduated, the most working experience I have had is as a receptionist. Yesh, I am pathetic lah huh, I have friends or rather acquaintances telling me ' u graduated for some time already, still dont know what you want to do?' OR, 'huh, jobs nowadays that hard to find ah?' Ya Ya..bring it on lah..Jo is so used to hearing such comments mah..

Its not that I dont know what i want..I do have a rough idea and a goal but I am still unable to reach it and also still unsure if it is the right choice for me. And yesh, I am also one of the rare species who DO NOT THINK that going into a career unrelated to my field of study is a waste..But it is certainly much harder to get into the job without any relevant experience..Sighz..Think sooner or later i will end up working as a dietitian liaoz lah..

As if anyone can be more worried and stressed about my OWN career path other than myself..

Anyway, this entry is about my 'eventful' stint as a receptionist..If some of you think that being a receptionist is easy peasy..think again!! I used to be like one of those who thinks that recept duties are just picking up phone calls and greeting vistors. HAH..i was very wrong!!

I have learnt how to run through telephone lists asap to locate a person's name and transfer the line..also, it is a standard here that the phone should not be allowed to ring for more than thrice!

Of cos, we also have to usher visitors/clients into the correct meeting rooms, serve drinks, and then tidy up the rooms after they leave..Must book meeting rooms, arrange for courier service, sometimes book a cab..frank mails..haiya..etc..
It bores me to type it all out..dont want to put my readers to sleep too lah huh..

Anyway point being, recept job aint that easy lah huh..and also there are some fucked up pple around who are racist and too snobbish, bossy and unaccomodating for their own good..Oh well..we are talking about the heartless corporate world lah huh.

But I take this as a learning ground..and for those who thinks that being a receptionist is easy, think again ya..and do slow down and look around for the unsung heroes e.g courier men, delivery men, tea ladies etc we have in our company...they contribute alot to the interlinking processes of our daily business activities too...

The weekend

It feels weird to not have Jeff around on the weekends..My poor boy is having his reservist and can only book out on Monday..but only to return on that very night! It is also rare that I had stayed home for the whole of today! More of me feeling tired and lazy to go anywhere..so chose to stay at home and rest..

I had such an unhealthy diet today! TSK! It was instant noodles for brunch and chicken chop for dinner and ice cream after it..And all i did was to sleep, watch tv and surf net! So terrible..gotta tighten my reins on my diet liaoz lah..

The pics u see after this entry are the ones taken last nite in the toilet of MOS..Wah..finally had the chance to capture all the 4 of us!! First it was group pic, then in pairs..haha..girls! I must say the lighting near the mirrors in the toilet was pretty gd for photo taking..

This is just one of the many things gals do in toilets..apart from the updating, gossiping, preening, touching up etc..and as compared to guys, toilets are only used to answer the calls of nature..thats abt it huh..haha


Have a good wkend people!

First round of the formation

My girlies..

My Miss Paul Paul

My Mich

My Jie

Reflections..

As i grow older, I realised i have learnt to reflect upon myself about my attitude and actions more often now. As we get more and more caught up with the daily duties, socialising, etc of life, we often forget to slow down and think back about how we have been treating the people around us..

I am glad I am still not too drained or numb to start reflecting on my attitudes esp towards my loved ones..

Gotta bear in mind what i need to improve on and hope they will grow on me as time goes by so it becomes second nature..

So sleepy now, going to bed now before i start typing poorly structured sentences..

wahh..

You shelter a Fire

Demon.
A very powerful demon. He rules over the world of

anger, impulsivity, passion and destruction.

One awaken, even with a very strong will, he

is difficult to settle down, so be careful

when you awake him or he may entrance you and

make your life a living hell .


What demon sleeps inside you ?
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wedding bells..not mine

I feel sort of rejuvenated..or something in that sense..have been feeling moody and somewhat down cos of the extreme long period of umemployment i have undergone..and im still in the process(just to inform those so called 'concerned' people who only ask me ' found a job? any interviews? in our conversations)

I dont know why i am feeling this way but i feel happier after coming back from the wedding make up trial of mich's..my dearest gal looked sooo prettyyy!! Like looking at her so happy and excited for her wedding had also made me feel life is not all dark skies..like i said, its just weird i will feel that way lah.and its not as if i can hear my own wedding bells ringing..haha..

Im truly happy for her..:)

Saturday

Had an enjoyable day yesterday..Jeff managed to finish his work early and so my saturday wasnt that boring afterall..Went to the career fair at suntec and it was BORING..it was definitely more useful for those planning to further their studies as around 70% of the entire fair were taken up by the various universities..Saw a friend whom i havn't seen for ages..and a 'always bump into' friend there..haha..

Then it was movie time! Enjoyed 'Underworld'.. Kate Beckinsale is such a hottie man, her figure is POWEERrr...And Jeff and i decided to be naughty and brought in Subway for dinner too..haha..Not the first time liaoz..but I must say it wasnt easy to eat a huge sandwich with its filling overflowing in a darkened cinema and at the same time trying to keep your eyes to the screen to avoid missing any important parts to the plot! haha
And we always joke about other people bringing in other more 'outrageous' foods like hor fun, char siew rice etc..haha..and they will open their styrofoam boxes once the cinema is darkened..

And it was a pleasant coincidence to see Mich and her bf at the movie too!! Hehe..we were watching the same show..

And after the show, we headed down to 'The Chamber' at robertson walk for jeff to watch his soccer..While I was whisked off to 'Cornerstone' (around the vicinity with Pauline and Favian to have some chit chat session over my half a Heineken..

Reached home before 1 am loh..which is so rare of us on a saturday nite..even mum was surprised to see us back 'so early'. *haha*

Talking bout mum, a few days back, she suddenly brought up the topic about Jeff and I..and asked if we have any plans bout getting married, ROM etc..I was so surprised man..Thought it will be so unlikely of mums to ask their daughters bout marriage..Cos i thought it will be more likely for the mum with the son to hurry the couple instead..
Anyway, mum wasn't hurrying us lah..just asking...

It the stupid money factor that is holding us back lah..:(

Note to self : Better get your ass into a job fast!!

*bleahhh*

Moods Mixer

Besides the norm of feeling tired and bored...thrown into this assortment of moods are anticipation, anxiety,and worry..

Anticipation - Not too many chances left for mi to grab..with anticipation i wait for The Day...

Anxiety - Its once again to prove what i have got, the anxiety of not being able to handle the tough and impromptu questions faced...

Worry - I worry about the hurdles ahead of me, not 1, not 2, but a possible of none that i could cross..

I wish with all my heart i can do it..and to my faith in my religion, i seek for help and luck..

Friendly Cody

Random pic of me!!

Latte lasses at Coffee Club

Busy Weekend

Wow..it has been such a tiring but enjoyable weekend! My wkend started a day earlier haha... Had a coffee session with supposedly to be with just pauline and jimmy..but somehow, we got more company and almost the whole group turned up! ( A couple was away in Cambodia - 'tomb raiding and lara crofting' as described by Jim jim :P)

I got to know the entire group of friends through Jeff..it has been quite a long way back since i have known them..and many things have changed since..

Hope that noisy coffee session was somewhat useful for our jaded lass..

Time passed really slowly at work on Fri and it didnt help with me having to sit at the recept table picking up calls from angry customers :(

6 pm FINALLY came and program for the nite was drinks at this chill out place called Bar Celona, near Dblo for drinks..It wasnt very pleasant for me in the early part of the session as there was some issues with the bf but thanks to the advice dished out by the guys and gal ( u know who u are) and the 'whole fri nite mood', i felt better afterwards..

Sat was spent sleeping in and the planned movie with Pauline didnt come through as we were both pigs loh..haha...Hung out at Central at Hk Street as Jeff wanted to watch soccer there, wrong choice!!They didnt manage to watch it cos the SCV service at that pub was somewhat disrupted due to some issues!! haiyoh..the guys kept complaining man...but were later pacified with more booze and gambling hahha..as for me, i was contented with singing and people watching...

And this afternoon, went to Mabel's place for a gathering with the gals.We were treated to the fermented wine chicken mee sua and 'or ni' prepared by mabel herself!! Really nice of her parents to invite us over for lunch...Cody, Mabel's 'son' has grown so much!! V yandao now wor..hehehe..He soo adorable, he was friendly enough to lick me on the face when i carried him and placed him on my shoulder!!
Then whiled the time away with some mahjong..and the MJ amatuer is proud to announce that i have WON all the other 3 players in those few rounds we have had!! hahaha..Sheer luck lah huh..Cos someone commented this ' Wah she dont know anything but keep winning' THANKS for that man! Headed to Jeff's place for dinner and shopped around TM and Century Sq before heading home..

Wah 3 days of late nights has affected my complexion!! i see pimples popping out!! *aarrgghh*

As usual..Im gonna wake up even more tired to a new week tmr man..Better prepare to go to bed already..

Good week ahead people!!

My Valentine

Good times whizz by too quickly to be true!! Can totally understand the term of ' reality bites' when i was rushing back to work in a cab. I had such a special valentines' day celebration yesterday..we had so much fun which explains how blue i am feeling now at work..

Jeff n i checked into a chalet at Downtown east pasir ris in the arvo on V day itself..Though it wasnt any posh hotel or an overseas holiday, it was just nice to be able to laze and snuggle up to each other in privacy! haha..And just as i was quite sure i wouldnt get any present from him since he already booked and paid for the chalet...he asked mi to search around the room for my present..hee..After much searching, i found it in my bag, a limited edition olive green braun buffel wallet! Haha..he must have slipped it inside when i went to the toilet..

I was indeed surprised and it was just so sweet of him! hehe..Now the pillow and blanket i got him for him seems so cheapo :( Then again, they are what he needs mah..

In all, i really enjoyed myself..Thanks dearie! :* Muackz..

Waiting and hoping each day

Man..im feeling so sleepy now..Office work is borrringggg...Had hor fun for lunch not too long ago..Am counting down the hrs to knock off! haha...2 1/2 hrs more..sianz..

Been working in a telecommunication, service provider co for more than a week now..it seem longer due to the public hols..First few days were boring cos i didnt know anyone here...Now that i have known more colleagues here, it aint that dull..However, the environment here has also once again reinforced the reminder to myself for being cautious abt the stuff i tell and say to colleagues. And of cos i know how to play ' tai chi' too when necessary!! :p

Ah well..

I just hope for a better year now..Am still holding hopes to something which what seem to be disappointing for me last year..Im getting tired of waiting..sighz..Hope that opportunity for me will arrive REAL SOON and i can SUCCEED this time...

Will blog again when my life is less boring..back to work now..ugh!

sick..

SObz..im sick..diarrhoea and vomiting..combined with fever..think i better have another dose of the trusty 'po chai pills'...Need to get well soon..cos my boss just reminded me about the work i have to do when i go back..arrgghh..sianz..

What Kind of Candy Am I ?

Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Hehe..snickers happens to be one of my fav!!

Too chummy for comfort

Had been battling with the idea of blogging my opinions on an issue..And decided to do it after how mp had said ' its your blog wat'.

As i was thinking of how i should start this entry, another reason to why im feeling uncomfortable about this issue could be my lack of self confidence. Apart from being sensitive and a little possessive, it could also be the phobia of history repeating itself.

Oh well, i am feeling uncomfortable of how some other party is too chummy with my guy ( note 'my guy') :p..for my comfort.

How not to raise my brow when that person calls and asks quite often for opinions/laments/complains on issues with answers which is quite clear should be given by her own guy or girlies?

How not to question the limit of 'working partners' when that party is openly pulling practical jokes just on him in a social gathering?

Yes there are gals and guys out there which are pretty magnanimous and find it totally acceptable. Sorry am not one of them.
TO ME, being in a relationship means you behave and watch not to be too chummy with the other sexes because you respect your partner. And you also respect the partners of others.
Well, in the midst of typing this, i can conclude that party is obviously not minding the extra attention she is stealing from someone's (that someone happens to be me) bf.

As for the bf, he has voiced that, that party has always been like this and has categorized it as ' bo liaoz'. I wonder if he will still be in the comfort zone when his gal's 'working partner' is as friendly as his.

We will just wait and see.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Big Bird You scored 72% Organization, 45% abstract, and 69% extroverted!

This test measured 3 variables. First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean. Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type. Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself. You are very organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted. Here is why are you Big Bird. You are both very organized. You almost always know where your belongings are and you prefer things neat. You may even enjoy cleaning and find it therapeutic. Big Bird is never sloppy and always under control... pretty good for a 6 year old bird living without a family. You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Big Bird can be quite dreamy at times and has no problem using his imagination. At the same time he is also practical and can be methodical in his search for answers to questions. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. You are both extroverts. Big Bird gets along with everyone. He makes friends easily and always has a positive attitude. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team. The other possible characters are Oscar the Grouch Bert Snuffleupagus Ernie Elmo Kermit the Frog Grover Cookie Monster Guy Smiley The Count If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 89% on Organization You scored higher than 32% on concrete-abstra You scored higher than 71% on intro-extrovert

Link: The Your SESAME STREET Persona Test written by greencowsgomoo on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

Had spent so much time with Jeff and my family on these few days of holidays..Partly cos my relatives had came back from Perth and Saudi Arabia for hols..So we are all spending lotsa time for quality get togethers and partying in the festive season..

Had yummy dim sum at Mum's workplace for lunch with them today...And after lunch, Jeff and i were wandering around the Bugis area, then to Shaw towers to check out if there were any movies we could watch to pass time..In the end, dearie said he felt like exercising so decided to go cycling in East Coast..

Kinda missing Jeff now..Cos he had been staying over so often!! :( Anyhow..its good that he is back home now..Dont want to get into the bad books of auntie and uncle haha..

Thought i shall make the last day of this year more memorable by adding a blog entry before i head off for dinner and countdown to a brand new year.
2005 wasnt a smooth sailing one for me. I remember the year started off with me trying to deal with the stress of the attachments i had to complete in different healthcare institutions..

Then problems with some friends cropped up,however was proud of myself for being able to decide and make such a bold move to resolve it..

Next came something which i will never forget..My relationship was turned upside down..however we managed to survive it..And pls God, no more of such issues pls..

This is the year where i finally finished my degree..and am faced with some disappointments in trying for a job which i had really put in lotsa effort for..Am still in the search of a job though.

I have grown and learnt alot from all that has happened this year..and through all these events, I wouldnt have survived them without the support and love from my family, loved ones and friends..I would like to thank all of you (you should know who you are :p) for being with Jo through all these rough times, always encouraging, always there for me to complain and cry to, as well as sharing with me in times of joy, fun and play.

May 2006 be a better year for all of us.

Wishing all of you prosperity, love, better luck and good health...Happy New Year!!

Life is getting boring..and im getting poorer by the day..sighz..Was talking to my aunt who has returned for her holidays and she encouraged me to go take a masters first since my mood for studying hasnt died down yet..Hmm..

Was thinking of that too..I should take some business course so i wont be so limited in my current area of study especially when it comes to looking for a job! Was thinking of marketing or business administration?? Decisions, decisions..Looks like i gotta do some research about these courses before anything else..

James, my uni friend and his gf, Bec has came down for 2 days..brought them to lau pa sat (after consulting a few friends haha) and then boat quay and clarke quay..It was fun cos its the first time i can show pple around...Dropped the idea of accompanying them to sentosa today cos i just felt too lazy..haha..but will be meeting them for dinner with kavi later..

alritey..shall go do some research on the courses now..

Am waiting for time to pass to go to my cousin's place for a family xmas party.Not that i m excited abt it but just want something to do...Was trying to catch some sleep earlier on and got awoken by the loud shouts of my grandad..whats new!

Jimmy just told me we will be having a potluck instead of a bbq...oh nooo..wat to cookkk or bring??!!

ok i shall go think now..yayy..something to occupy me!

haha..yesh i know i shld be using the time to look through job vacancies..but no mood lah! Xmas season u see..*excuses!!*

Caught 'The Promise' with Jeff last nite..I liked the scenery and costumes..Some of the scenes were too exaggerated but i still like it..As the nite was still young, jeff wanted to watch some soccer before coming over..so ended at up conrad's lobby for my aromatic brew and his beer..

Bought more fancl products - sun block and eye cream last nite..all because i wanted their double stamp and free gift *hehehe* I didn't need more eye cream...but for sun block, i am still looking for one that my sensitive skin won't react horribly to, since it says its for sensitive skin, i thought i will just give it a try..Sighz..hope this will work for me and not end up in my cosmetic cupboard barely used..
The free gift was this bottle of 'Perfect Slim' drink..I just gulped it down a few mins ago as im typing this..haha...Which i doubt will have any effect just from one of it..But its expensive stuff!! A bottle of this costs $8!!

Am tempted to try the other supplement they have..one of its benefits is that it will improve elasticity of complexion and in turn tightens the pores...Something which i need desperately!! Anyway, will only do that when i can finally find a job huh.

Was supposed to go to the newly opened MOS last night too but a few friends could not make it so nah..But am looking forward to go!! Oh yesh..i must also say..my uncle supplies some of their furniture too! *proud* hahaah..

Am blogging on the last 15 mins of my birthday..Just had a sumptuous ' ma la ' steamboat dinner with jie, mich and pauline...gdness am so full now..Have received lotsa lovely and thoughtful presents as well as birthday wishes from my beloved friends...thank you so much my dears!

But lacking in this yr's bday is the absence of Jeff's company..he had to be away for work..which was kinda disappointing..oh well..

i wish upon a star on this special day that i will be happy...i just wan to be happy..

Dipping the ball of ice cream

Yummy haagen daz chocolate fondue which cheered me up a little

No more hoping, time to move on.

Its the start to another new week..I hope for the countless time that the important call would come...It has really been a dread waiting..And its not as if i can do anything to make it happen which totally sucks!

Sighz. I dont want to spend the special day in this week still waiting for it!

at the airport

I miss the superb prawn tom yum!!

Muakz

Grand Palace

BKK starbucks wor haha..after our relaxing massage

At Suan Lum Night Market

At a very common food outlet called ' Yum Saap'

Thoroughly enjoyed myself! Am looking forward to more holidays with him..

This is gonna be a happy entry. I received my first xmas and bday present last nite! hehe..All thanks to my girlie, Mich..We met up for ktv at kbox last nite and all along i thot it was just an exchange of xmas presents..

But it was kinda unusual when she asked me to bring along my camera..but i didnt think much of it also.

Then halfway through the session, using the excuse of going to the toilet, mich dearest came back with a rectangular piece of chocolate walnut brownie with a lighted candle on it!! hehe..Only then did i know she was celebrating my bday with me..Though it was a mini celebration with just the both of us, it was filled with so much sincerity and warmth..Mich had baked that brownie herself and it tasted soo delicious!! Though mich herself thinks it wasnt good enough..

And she got me a swatch watch..which was so pretty..it has white straps and a round watch face..absolutely love it!! hehe..took some pics of it, will post them later..

Thanks gal..love ya..

Then headed down to balaclava as jeff and friends were there and had some beer before going home..

Anyhow, i hope the wish i made last nite would come true..*crosses finger*

Havnt been blogging cos i have been too jaded and disappointed to do it..

Been asking myself over and over again why do things have to turn out this way..God has really played a big joke on me..why put me up there and then throw me heavily onto the ground.

It doesnt help when i have gone this far but yet still unable to reach the goal..ya maybe it is not meant for me..but i am truly disappointed..in fact i feel lost now..cant help feeling regretful too of my choice of course i have undertaken..sux..

Words to describe my feelings now: pathetic, lost, disappointed, underachiever, loser..

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out. When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life. Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Your Birthdate: December 14

You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you. It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy! You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around. But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long. Your strength: Your superstar charisma Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you Your power color: Fuchsia Your power symbol: Diamond Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Had a quarrel with my grandfather..well as usual, he shouted at me in the act of showing that he is boss and no one should ever reason with him..cos he is always right.

Well, what i said to him was just 'the maid is waiting for the water to boil' hence the extra few mins he has to wait for his tea break. Of cos the 'tyrant' attitude in him wouldnt allow such a lowly member of the family speak to him in this manner..and was immediately angered...It was a loud argument..and of cos he would add lines like 'i have seen u grown up', ' how dare you..'
I find this argument pointless and i happen to be nosy at that point of time and became a person he could vent his frustrations on..

Should have just kept quiet huh..and let him shout at the maid who by now should be used to his endless scoldings...

I dont hate my grandad..in fact i do cherish and care for him alot..and i understand where his frustrations came about..but does he need to always be the one that is right? Does he need to scold and shout to just get his way? Since young, i always feared him, he was a fiesty and hot tempered granddad..he has instilled in me a lot of values where i find important that the younger generation nowadays should be taught as well..But i dont agree with how he communicates with us..

Why do we always have to bear the brunt when we are not at fault at all..and worse be maligned of expressing something totally negatively just because you are the oldest in the family?

there are times where i wish i was financially stable to be able to support myself and thus move out..will save alot of heart ache and arguments for everyone..

:p

wah someone is trying to murder me!

Bleah..

Ok..this is just to say theres an unusual but pleasant phenomenon today..i have chatted with my 3 girlies namely mich, paul paul and jie ( in that order) on the phone today! haha unusual cos i normally dont really chat much on the phone..and to think i gotta chance to chat with these 3 precious girlies on the same day is definitely something worth blogging hahaha..

Its a rainy morning..and im up pretty early...with such a weather, it would be so cozy to just snuggle under the sheets with jeff hehe..* he is sleeping so soundly now* Just cant get to sleep more even though i have tried shutting my eyes...guess it has got to be the stress of the unfinished 50% assignment! Bleah..cant wait for it to end !! Its the last assignment boy!

Mummy is finally back from her holiday! And she bought me a Coach bag hehe..and the amazing thing is that i have never told her i was looking for a beige coloured one recently..and the bag she bought was exactly wat i wanted!! hehe..wonders of the bond between mother and daughter. Thanks mum! *muackz*

Went to fetch her from the airport with jeff, aunties, uncle and my cousins..and happened to see some of the teeny boopers waiting for FIR..hehe managed to catch a glimpse of them myself..I like their songs too...Faye, the female lead singer is very cool and stylish when she sings!

Alritey gotta get back to my work now..*though i would love to sneak out and catch a movie*

WOww..well yesterday was actually my blog's first yr anniversary!! Happy anniversary to my bloggie!! hee hee..Time to change my layout!

It was such a great day on saturday! Had Jeff's company for the entire day and a family issue was finally resolved and managed to club with all my girlies except ms minipong..It was a night filled with laughter and togetherness..minus some display of public affection from someone which i didnt feel quite comfortable viewing..ah well..im not in the position to feel anything anyway..But surprised at myself for being affected..

Despite that little incident, all was good and Jo is a happy gal! hehe..

I want a digicam for my xmas/bday..hint hint..Keke...So i can snap pictures and illustrate my blogs mah..

Wah, this is one of the rare times where i have dinner at home, thot it will be nice to come back home earlier and acc granny to watch some tv after dinner. Been working for the past 3 days as receptionist at MTV, bleh..some of them are just so stuck up! Puiz..

Other than that..nothing much has been happening..which is good, as long there is nothing bad.*touch wood*..There has been too much emotional turmoil going on for mi in the past mths..so nothing is gd as well...haha..need to give my frazzled nerves some rest..

Have been trying out some new skincare pdts and hoping that my sensitive skin will be able to tolerate them..Had the urge to try some new pdts cos i have been using this same brand for so many yrs and yet i dont see my complexion improving..Jeff commented that i have been getting vainer these days haha...Ah wellz..we are not called women for no reasons man..Furthermore, being conscious about our looks shldnt been viewed upon negatively(of cos, not when it becomes obsessive)

It boosts self confidence in a certain level which in turn makes us feel good...It has some level of prevention for your bf/husband/partner from straying...For those who are single, it increases ur chances of getting hitched..See!

So guys out there..dont keep complaining that we are vain..Bleah!

Stuck at home on a saturday with unfinished work..DEADline next monday 9 am, aust. time..which means its 7 am for us..who also means i have to send in to my lecturer latest by sunday night...Aint gonna to allow myself to drag it beyond that man..

To be able to do that on time, i shall stop my entry here and get back to that stupid piece of assignment..

shall blog again when i m less moody, stressed and bored..

Happy Birthday To My Dearest Jeff babi !! Muackz..May good things come your way...love ya..

i m feeling tired..couldnt get to sleep..was tossing and turning in bed and even had a nightmare- it was something not too far fetched and had the possibility of coming true, it was scary cos it was so surreal..and only one outcome will happen if it really comes true..the relationship will end..

As far as i can recall, i didnt use to be sleepless whenever i was troubled..but now it has became quite expected that i wont be able to rest well if something was bothering..sighz..

Has been a bad year for me esp with the matters of the heart..even my 'advisor' has confirmed that..

i am so looking forward to a better yr man!!

Feeling sleepy as i am typing this..As usual, i was out partying at dblo with pauline and friends..and jie come down too!! hehe..i am happy to be able to club with 2 of my best girlies..it will be awsome if only michelle could be there too..but sadly i think its gonna be really rare that mich will club these days..those were the days man..

And before heading to the club..i met up with dearest jie (hehe yesh i met up with her twice yest)for brekkie at the Mac's near us..It felt good..like sth different cos i dont normally meet up friends for breakfast..then it was meet up with pauline and jess for a shopping session..Man..i tell you i dont think jeff will say i spend alot on shopping after he sees the girls shop!! haha..then again who wldnt if they can afford to..unlike me at this 'pauper' state..:(

But it felt weird to not meet Jeff for the entire saturday though..Nonetheless i had fun with my girlies..what will i do without you gals man..love yous heaps..muackzz

Im tired..didnt have enough sleep for the past few days and had to wake up real early for work..was working as a temp receptionist for 2 days. Job scope range from of course answering calls from the switchboard (never had any experience in that before), answering enquiries to get hold of someone which i have no idea how he / she looks like..serving drinks to guests...booking meeting rms..etc...

But it was good experience minus the few occasions where my blurness made some stupid impatient client angry..he was being impatient and it was my first day can!!..not my fault..
Will be expected to temp for another day in oct cos its the recept's bday on that day..

Heard from my recruit consultant that she has got some more of such temp assignments coming up..yayy..more work means more income..which means less time and more discipline in doing my assignments..*sweat*

And i just did some tidying of my messy table but it still looks messy to me.sighz i need a bigger room with more cupboards to store all my notes and textbooks!! And i still have 3 more boxes of notes accumulated from uni!! alamaks..where to put?!! And the thing is i dont want to throw them away..they might come in use if i decide to work in this line...argghh...

Nice??

Okok, agree with jimbi that it has been a long time since i have updated the blog..getting lazy haha..
Lets see, was at dblo on sat..enjoyed myself but didnt really like some cheap bitch that was hanging around our group..She was this gal which was a looker ( am being very objective here *applaud*)but her objective of the nite was to know all the guys she can lay her hands on and of cos with her looks..she had most of the guys within 1 m radius totally attracted to her or should i say tamed enough to eat off her paws..
Well, i wont really care for other gals..But she tried to lay her filthy paws on MY BF..only cheap women try their luck at guys whose gfs are PRESENT..Obviously i was du lan..she even tried to put her arms around my shoulder..*puiz* And she also contemplated stealing ms paul paul away from me..ta ma de..

As some friends may say i show my dislike of certain pple too blatantly..i dont believe in pretending to be nice..its just not me..unless there is an absolute need to it..

Then on sunday..was out at east coast playing with sparklers and candles..haha trying hard to relive the childhood days..

Oh yesh..i must also mention i got myself a new fringe! haha..still trying to get used to it man..

Was in the midst of my assignment when i had the urge to blog..Jeff just called before going to bed..

The times spent together for the past few days were just so surreal..what with the mess for the past 2 weeks and the total change of feeling after that..I dont want to go through that mental torture again and more importantly dont wish to be hurt again..
However, i can say i am smiling again.. :)

Was browsing through BRIDES at Times just now and there was a line that caught my eye, from my vague impression, it said something like 'duration of your relationship could be important as well in deciding to tie the knot as the longer you are with that person, the more the true personality of the person will show through'
Hm, i totally agree with that line man..and to me, it applies to friendships as well..

The longer you know a friend, the more you know abt him / her..with the times spent together, the more opportunities to see how your friend behaves in different occasions and how he/she handles issues that come along..

I wonder how others handle it when you realise that the friend that you thought will be by your side never did and puts you down in front of others? How to come to terms that the friend that will be nice to you isnt that nice afterall?

Do we then lower our expectations of these friends and then draw ourselves a little further away from them? Or do we just play along and be fake about it and pretend everything is still cool? Or bring up the issue directly and risk the possibility of losing the friendship?

Hah..decisions.. personally, i hate fakeness..and i treat my friends the way i want to be treated..

Just dont take my easy going-ness for granted and be more sensitive of my feelings.. =)

A friend said this to me..and said i was a confused gal..maybe i am huh...

Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind

The days were spent trying to find an answer for myself..meanwhile the sad thoughts were helped kept at bay with my girlies and friends who i am very grateful for..Though it was really hard not to feel sad..but it was definitely less painful with all the support i had from friends..Cant imagine how it will be like if i was all alone in all this mess..I hope i will emerge stronger from this ordeal..watever the decisions maybe..To those friends that i havnt told anything to..its not that i dont want to share but i just want to keep it small and hope you guys can understand that..

On a lighter note, i did something which i had never attempted..that is to club for 3 consecutive days!! hehe..dblo on fri..mw on sats and sun! All thanks to my crazy peeps..but it was good!!

I hope i will be happy soon..

我真的受伤了

窗外阴天了
音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了

灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

He finally came online..and im relieved..

Im such a paranoia..such a weakling..

To jie who is chatting wif mi now: thanks for assuring that the way i reacted was totally understandable..

To paul paul : im such a crybaby...hehe...but what will i do without u..

To eliza : thanks for being here and feeling gan cheong for mi as well..

Im such a silly girl..sighz..

As each hour passes by, my heart sinks even deeper...No sms or call from you..Why?

It was a restless night for mi as i tossed and turned and woke up several times to check my phone..thinking that you might drop a msg or call..

I have thought over all the possibilities but none of them was substantial to warrant for your actions..except if you were kidnapped...

How should i be feeling now? Worried? Disappointed? Or once again be understanding? Or as nonchalant as you had portrayed to be? Call you?

I dont know..i just know the feeling sux..

Am typing singlehanded while holding a plum in the other..its sho sour but i like! heh..hope the little amts of Vit C in that plum can help battle the annoying flu bug that had invaded my system!! I could have taken an orange instead but im too lazy to peel it..and i prefer my oranges peeled instead of them cut into wedges..
Had been out the entire day with Jeff..Been a long time since we have spent so much time together in a single day boy..He had been tied down with work..then again, i have gotten used to the fact that there will be fewer chances of us 'pak toring'..oh well..career comes first now..
Gotta be more disciplined if i want to complete my assignments sooner boy..then again, i am not complaining cos time was well spent with him before he goes on a business trip to Thailand on wed which i will refer it as the 'land of temptations'..
Shall have the time to concentrate on work and try to take my mind off pointless worries and thoughts for these few days while he is away..

Had an eventful day yesterday..As we were promised a tour of how the foodservice operations will be like in the army camp, we made our way down to SAFTI. It was an eye opener and im pretty impressed with the architecture of the entire compound..nice! Erm sorry i dont know how else to describe it in those terms which my 'architectural' friends will be more well versed in huh..ok let mi try harder..it looks like a fortress! Gives me a serene yet secure feeling prolly cos of its high walls..
As its a protected area, we had to exchange our ids for visitor passes..Had a taste of how the infamous cookhouse food tastes like..and sad to say, i have to agree its really not that good..better not let my ex supervisors see this man..
Then headed down to jurong east to meet Jeff for abit..had fries and a drink...then decided to roam around to pass time till evening to meet jie..

Meeting up wif jie has always been good..it had been such a long time since we have both caught up with each other!! And i received gifts from her! hehe..a sweet looking panty and a bar of soap made from PURE dead sea salt..the PURE must be in caps to emphasize it exactly like how jie described to me last nite hahaha. And finally passed her, her long overdue bday pressie and im glad she liked it! :)

What i am going to say now could largely be related to gals..at least thats what i think..Are a woman's instincts accurate all the time? And does it only act up much stronger when it comes to her man? Gals, gimme ur views abt this ya..Guys are welcomed too k..

Alrite gotta head down to cineleisure to meet my cousin now..buaiz..

Our anniversary

It was a special day for the both of us yesterday..10th August 2005..marks our 7th Year together..With all the dramas and heartaches that happened not long ago..it made me treasure the bliss of having him around even more for this anniversary..

Thinking back at how we first got together..he with his side parting hairstyle..the plump me with my braces and untrimmed eyebrow *eeks*..I was still recovering from my past rship..We went through the different phases in our lives..Poly days, NS, LDR with me stuck in Newcastle for 2 1/2 years, his new career...We almost didnt make it in some phases..But at each time when the rship seem to be dying..either one or the both of us will hold on tighter to it..salvaging it...

Like how i totally agree with my girlie..Nothing is forever..But a part of me is secretly hoping our love for each other will thrive and bind us both together forever..

Happy Anniversary to you and i..

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!! I LOVE YOU!!!
It had been 2 years since i have been back for National Day..Nothing beats being back here..I am proud to be a Singaporean and living abroad for some time has made me love my home more..

Hmm..couldnt get to sleep..think it has to be the caffeine from my skinny capp i had at Mc Cafe just now..Had a great day today..Only got up at around 1 plus this arvo and had a grilled chicken chop for brunch at around 3pm! haha..wat a great example i set as a dietitian huh..
Then accompanied Jeff home and got greeted by the ever adorable piggy..hehe..shes just so cute but i simply dont understand why she will growl at me everytime i hug her! haha..erm for those who is trying to make out who piggy is..shes jeff's family dog..
Then dinner was at this steamboat place at bugis..it was good..and the soup was fiery mann..then headed down to marina square to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Pauline and Jess..The story was gd! Found it entertaining..and i must say Charlie has got such a nice accent! hehe..im a sucker for the British accent..
Then we settled for coffee at Mc Cafe at East coast after much discussion..come to think it..it had been quite some time where i hung out at a cafe..relaxing..catching up and just listening to my girlies..
Just gotta know one of my girlie better and realised she has had such a trying time throughout all these yrs..and it made mi realised how fortunate i was..and shes indeed a strong gal..the set backs i have encountered are just so tiny as compared to her..I just wish life for her will be better soon..
*yawnz* yayy..finally feeling a lil tiredness setting in...shall go sleep now...
And hope my triple eyelid will go away and become double again..sighzz..aftermath of crying too much..and of cos to recover from the soreness of my left eye will goooo awaaayyyyy...

nite nite pple..

It has been an emotional roller coaster for me for the past 2 weeks...However, i have never expected things to resolve so quickly, of course i am not implying that i want it to drag forever but the whole decision and issue was already sinking in and then you called...

The longer time you spent in a relationship, the harder it is to let go...through this ordeal, i have learnt that forgiving is much easier than holding on and blaming..and that there are alot of things to learn in this world and trust is something which you must abandon all doubts and 'what ifs' and be brave to trust again..
And nevertheless..my girlies who have been there for me throughout this whole ordeal..

' Dear gals, it would have been so painful if i didnt have you gals with me..thank you so much for the guidance, advice and hugs..thank you so much for loving me so much...i love you all too..'

Of cos not forgetting the guy friends that have been offering me advice..thanks guys..:)

Though things are back to normal..i will still take things easy ya...life is so unpredictable..

on a lighter note, i finally learnt how to blade!! Thanks to ms paul paul once again for being the pushing factor..:) but gotta practise more to be more zai!!
And also, i have finally rebonded my hair!!

But my left eye is itching..and red too..sighz..dont know wat happened to it again..prolly shld see a doc huh..sianz gotta wear glasses...

Will blog again..

sad sad..

Finally came to the end of my attachment..Time to concentrate on other stuff...