Wah, this is one of the rare times where i have dinner at home, thot it will be nice to come back home earlier and acc granny to watch some tv after dinner. Been working for the past 3 days as receptionist at MTV, bleh..some of them are just so stuck up! Puiz..
Other than that..nothing much has been happening..which is good, as long there is nothing bad.*touch wood*..There has been too much emotional turmoil going on for mi in the past mths..so nothing is gd as well...haha..need to give my frazzled nerves some rest..
Have been trying out some new skincare pdts and hoping that my sensitive skin will be able to tolerate them..Had the urge to try some new pdts cos i have been using this same brand for so many yrs and yet i dont see my complexion improving..Jeff commented that i have been getting vainer these days haha...Ah wellz..we are not called women for no reasons man..Furthermore, being conscious about our looks shldnt been viewed upon negatively(of cos, not when it becomes obsessive)
It boosts self confidence in a certain level which in turn makes us feel good...It has some level of prevention for your bf/husband/partner from straying...For those who are single, it increases ur chances of getting hitched..See!
So guys out there..dont keep complaining that we are vain..Bleah!
10/26/2005
10/22/2005
Stuck at home on a saturday with unfinished work..DEADline next monday 9 am, aust. time..which means its 7 am for us..who also means i have to send in to my lecturer latest by sunday night...Aint gonna to allow myself to drag it beyond that man..
To be able to do that on time, i shall stop my entry here and get back to that stupid piece of assignment..
shall blog again when i m less moody, stressed and bored..
To be able to do that on time, i shall stop my entry here and get back to that stupid piece of assignment..
shall blog again when i m less moody, stressed and bored..
10/09/2005
10/07/2005
i m feeling tired..couldnt get to sleep..was tossing and turning in bed and even had a nightmare- it was something not too far fetched and had the possibility of coming true, it was scary cos it was so surreal..and only one outcome will happen if it really comes true..the relationship will end..
As far as i can recall, i didnt use to be sleepless whenever i was troubled..but now it has became quite expected that i wont be able to rest well if something was bothering..sighz..
Has been a bad year for me esp with the matters of the heart..even my 'advisor' has confirmed that..
i am so looking forward to a better yr man!!
As far as i can recall, i didnt use to be sleepless whenever i was troubled..but now it has became quite expected that i wont be able to rest well if something was bothering..sighz..
Has been a bad year for me esp with the matters of the heart..even my 'advisor' has confirmed that..
i am so looking forward to a better yr man!!
10/02/2005
Feeling sleepy as i am typing this..As usual, i was out partying at dblo with pauline and friends..and jie come down too!! hehe..i am happy to be able to club with 2 of my best girlies..it will be awsome if only michelle could be there too..but sadly i think its gonna be really rare that mich will club these days..those were the days man..
And before heading to the club..i met up with dearest jie (hehe yesh i met up with her twice yest)for brekkie at the Mac's near us..It felt good..like sth different cos i dont normally meet up friends for breakfast..then it was meet up with pauline and jess for a shopping session..Man..i tell you i dont think jeff will say i spend alot on shopping after he sees the girls shop!! haha..then again who wldnt if they can afford to..unlike me at this 'pauper' state..:(
But it felt weird to not meet Jeff for the entire saturday though..Nonetheless i had fun with my girlies..what will i do without you gals man..love yous heaps..muackzz
And before heading to the club..i met up with dearest jie (hehe yesh i met up with her twice yest)for brekkie at the Mac's near us..It felt good..like sth different cos i dont normally meet up friends for breakfast..then it was meet up with pauline and jess for a shopping session..Man..i tell you i dont think jeff will say i spend alot on shopping after he sees the girls shop!! haha..then again who wldnt if they can afford to..unlike me at this 'pauper' state..:(
But it felt weird to not meet Jeff for the entire saturday though..Nonetheless i had fun with my girlies..what will i do without you gals man..love yous heaps..muackzz
9/28/2005
Im tired..didnt have enough sleep for the past few days and had to wake up real early for work..was working as a temp receptionist for 2 days. Job scope range from of course answering calls from the switchboard (never had any experience in that before), answering enquiries to get hold of someone which i have no idea how he / she looks like..serving drinks to guests...booking meeting rms..etc...
But it was good experience minus the few occasions where my blurness made some stupid impatient client angry..he was being impatient and it was my first day can!!..not my fault..
Will be expected to temp for another day in oct cos its the recept's bday on that day..
Heard from my recruit consultant that she has got some more of such temp assignments coming up..yayy..more work means more income..which means less time and more discipline in doing my assignments..*sweat*
And i just did some tidying of my messy table but it still looks messy to me.sighz i need a bigger room with more cupboards to store all my notes and textbooks!! And i still have 3 more boxes of notes accumulated from uni!! alamaks..where to put?!! And the thing is i dont want to throw them away..they might come in use if i decide to work in this line...argghh...
But it was good experience minus the few occasions where my blurness made some stupid impatient client angry..he was being impatient and it was my first day can!!..not my fault..
Will be expected to temp for another day in oct cos its the recept's bday on that day..
Heard from my recruit consultant that she has got some more of such temp assignments coming up..yayy..more work means more income..which means less time and more discipline in doing my assignments..*sweat*
And i just did some tidying of my messy table but it still looks messy to me.sighz i need a bigger room with more cupboards to store all my notes and textbooks!! And i still have 3 more boxes of notes accumulated from uni!! alamaks..where to put?!! And the thing is i dont want to throw them away..they might come in use if i decide to work in this line...argghh...
9/21/2005
Okok, agree with jimbi that it has been a long time since i have updated the blog..getting lazy haha..
Lets see, was at dblo on sat..enjoyed myself but didnt really like some cheap bitch that was hanging around our group..She was this gal which was a looker ( am being very objective here *applaud*)but her objective of the nite was to know all the guys she can lay her hands on and of cos with her looks..she had most of the guys within 1 m radius totally attracted to her or should i say tamed enough to eat off her paws..
Well, i wont really care for other gals..But she tried to lay her filthy paws on MY BF..only cheap women try their luck at guys whose gfs are PRESENT..Obviously i was du lan..she even tried to put her arms around my shoulder..*puiz* And she also contemplated stealing ms paul paul away from me..ta ma de..
As some friends may say i show my dislike of certain pple too blatantly..i dont believe in pretending to be nice..its just not me..unless there is an absolute need to it..
Then on sunday..was out at east coast playing with sparklers and candles..haha trying hard to relive the childhood days..
Oh yesh..i must also mention i got myself a new fringe! haha..still trying to get used to it man..
Lets see, was at dblo on sat..enjoyed myself but didnt really like some cheap bitch that was hanging around our group..She was this gal which was a looker ( am being very objective here *applaud*)but her objective of the nite was to know all the guys she can lay her hands on and of cos with her looks..she had most of the guys within 1 m radius totally attracted to her or should i say tamed enough to eat off her paws..
Well, i wont really care for other gals..But she tried to lay her filthy paws on MY BF..only cheap women try their luck at guys whose gfs are PRESENT..Obviously i was du lan..she even tried to put her arms around my shoulder..*puiz* And she also contemplated stealing ms paul paul away from me..ta ma de..
As some friends may say i show my dislike of certain pple too blatantly..i dont believe in pretending to be nice..its just not me..unless there is an absolute need to it..
Then on sunday..was out at east coast playing with sparklers and candles..haha trying hard to relive the childhood days..
Oh yesh..i must also mention i got myself a new fringe! haha..still trying to get used to it man..
9/13/2005
Was in the midst of my assignment when i had the urge to blog..Jeff just called before going to bed..
The times spent together for the past few days were just so surreal..what with the mess for the past 2 weeks and the total change of feeling after that..I dont want to go through that mental torture again and more importantly dont wish to be hurt again..
However, i can say i am smiling again.. :)
Was browsing through BRIDES at Times just now and there was a line that caught my eye, from my vague impression, it said something like 'duration of your relationship could be important as well in deciding to tie the knot as the longer you are with that person, the more the true personality of the person will show through'
Hm, i totally agree with that line man..and to me, it applies to friendships as well..
The longer you know a friend, the more you know abt him / her..with the times spent together, the more opportunities to see how your friend behaves in different occasions and how he/she handles issues that come along..
I wonder how others handle it when you realise that the friend that you thought will be by your side never did and puts you down in front of others? How to come to terms that the friend that will be nice to you isnt that nice afterall?
Do we then lower our expectations of these friends and then draw ourselves a little further away from them? Or do we just play along and be fake about it and pretend everything is still cool? Or bring up the issue directly and risk the possibility of losing the friendship?
Hah..decisions.. personally, i hate fakeness..and i treat my friends the way i want to be treated..
Just dont take my easy going-ness for granted and be more sensitive of my feelings.. =)
The times spent together for the past few days were just so surreal..what with the mess for the past 2 weeks and the total change of feeling after that..I dont want to go through that mental torture again and more importantly dont wish to be hurt again..
However, i can say i am smiling again.. :)
Was browsing through BRIDES at Times just now and there was a line that caught my eye, from my vague impression, it said something like 'duration of your relationship could be important as well in deciding to tie the knot as the longer you are with that person, the more the true personality of the person will show through'
Hm, i totally agree with that line man..and to me, it applies to friendships as well..
The longer you know a friend, the more you know abt him / her..with the times spent together, the more opportunities to see how your friend behaves in different occasions and how he/she handles issues that come along..
I wonder how others handle it when you realise that the friend that you thought will be by your side never did and puts you down in front of others? How to come to terms that the friend that will be nice to you isnt that nice afterall?
Do we then lower our expectations of these friends and then draw ourselves a little further away from them? Or do we just play along and be fake about it and pretend everything is still cool? Or bring up the issue directly and risk the possibility of losing the friendship?
Hah..decisions.. personally, i hate fakeness..and i treat my friends the way i want to be treated..
Just dont take my easy going-ness for granted and be more sensitive of my feelings.. =)
9/05/2005
A friend said this to me..and said i was a confused gal..maybe i am huh...
Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind
The days were spent trying to find an answer for myself..meanwhile the sad thoughts were helped kept at bay with my girlies and friends who i am very grateful for..Though it was really hard not to feel sad..but it was definitely less painful with all the support i had from friends..Cant imagine how it will be like if i was all alone in all this mess..I hope i will emerge stronger from this ordeal..watever the decisions maybe..To those friends that i havnt told anything to..its not that i dont want to share but i just want to keep it small and hope you guys can understand that..
On a lighter note, i did something which i had never attempted..that is to club for 3 consecutive days!! hehe..dblo on fri..mw on sats and sun! All thanks to my crazy peeps..but it was good!!
I hope i will be happy soon..
Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind
The days were spent trying to find an answer for myself..meanwhile the sad thoughts were helped kept at bay with my girlies and friends who i am very grateful for..Though it was really hard not to feel sad..but it was definitely less painful with all the support i had from friends..Cant imagine how it will be like if i was all alone in all this mess..I hope i will emerge stronger from this ordeal..watever the decisions maybe..To those friends that i havnt told anything to..its not that i dont want to share but i just want to keep it small and hope you guys can understand that..
On a lighter note, i did something which i had never attempted..that is to club for 3 consecutive days!! hehe..dblo on fri..mw on sats and sun! All thanks to my crazy peeps..but it was good!!
I hope i will be happy soon..
9/02/2005
8/26/2005
He finally came online..and im relieved..
Im such a paranoia..such a weakling..
To jie who is chatting wif mi now: thanks for assuring that the way i reacted was totally understandable..
To paul paul : im such a crybaby...hehe...but what will i do without u..
To eliza : thanks for being here and feeling gan cheong for mi as well..
Im such a silly girl..sighz..
Im such a paranoia..such a weakling..
To jie who is chatting wif mi now: thanks for assuring that the way i reacted was totally understandable..
To paul paul : im such a crybaby...hehe...but what will i do without u..
To eliza : thanks for being here and feeling gan cheong for mi as well..
Im such a silly girl..sighz..
As each hour passes by, my heart sinks even deeper...No sms or call from you..Why?
It was a restless night for mi as i tossed and turned and woke up several times to check my phone..thinking that you might drop a msg or call..
I have thought over all the possibilities but none of them was substantial to warrant for your actions..except if you were kidnapped...
How should i be feeling now? Worried? Disappointed? Or once again be understanding? Or as nonchalant as you had portrayed to be? Call you?
I dont know..i just know the feeling sux..
It was a restless night for mi as i tossed and turned and woke up several times to check my phone..thinking that you might drop a msg or call..
I have thought over all the possibilities but none of them was substantial to warrant for your actions..except if you were kidnapped...
How should i be feeling now? Worried? Disappointed? Or once again be understanding? Or as nonchalant as you had portrayed to be? Call you?
I dont know..i just know the feeling sux..
8/24/2005
Am typing singlehanded while holding a plum in the other..its sho sour but i like! heh..hope the little amts of Vit C in that plum can help battle the annoying flu bug that had invaded my system!! I could have taken an orange instead but im too lazy to peel it..and i prefer my oranges peeled instead of them cut into wedges..
Had been out the entire day with Jeff..Been a long time since we have spent so much time together in a single day boy..He had been tied down with work..then again, i have gotten used to the fact that there will be fewer chances of us 'pak toring'..oh well..career comes first now..
Gotta be more disciplined if i want to complete my assignments sooner boy..then again, i am not complaining cos time was well spent with him before he goes on a business trip to Thailand on wed which i will refer it as the 'land of temptations'..
Shall have the time to concentrate on work and try to take my mind off pointless worries and thoughts for these few days while he is away..
Had been out the entire day with Jeff..Been a long time since we have spent so much time together in a single day boy..He had been tied down with work..then again, i have gotten used to the fact that there will be fewer chances of us 'pak toring'..oh well..career comes first now..
Gotta be more disciplined if i want to complete my assignments sooner boy..then again, i am not complaining cos time was well spent with him before he goes on a business trip to Thailand on wed which i will refer it as the 'land of temptations'..
Shall have the time to concentrate on work and try to take my mind off pointless worries and thoughts for these few days while he is away..
8/16/2005
Had an eventful day yesterday..As we were promised a tour of how the foodservice operations will be like in the army camp, we made our way down to SAFTI. It was an eye opener and im pretty impressed with the architecture of the entire compound..nice! Erm sorry i dont know how else to describe it in those terms which my 'architectural' friends will be more well versed in huh..ok let mi try harder..it looks like a fortress! Gives me a serene yet secure feeling prolly cos of its high walls..
As its a protected area, we had to exchange our ids for visitor passes..Had a taste of how the infamous cookhouse food tastes like..and sad to say, i have to agree its really not that good..better not let my ex supervisors see this man..
Then headed down to jurong east to meet Jeff for abit..had fries and a drink...then decided to roam around to pass time till evening to meet jie..
Meeting up wif jie has always been good..it had been such a long time since we have both caught up with each other!! And i received gifts from her! hehe..a sweet looking panty and a bar of soap made from PURE dead sea salt..the PURE must be in caps to emphasize it exactly like how jie described to me last nite hahaha. And finally passed her, her long overdue bday pressie and im glad she liked it! :)
What i am going to say now could largely be related to gals..at least thats what i think..Are a woman's instincts accurate all the time? And does it only act up much stronger when it comes to her man? Gals, gimme ur views abt this ya..Guys are welcomed too k..
Alrite gotta head down to cineleisure to meet my cousin now..buaiz..
As its a protected area, we had to exchange our ids for visitor passes..Had a taste of how the infamous cookhouse food tastes like..and sad to say, i have to agree its really not that good..better not let my ex supervisors see this man..
Then headed down to jurong east to meet Jeff for abit..had fries and a drink...then decided to roam around to pass time till evening to meet jie..
Meeting up wif jie has always been good..it had been such a long time since we have both caught up with each other!! And i received gifts from her! hehe..a sweet looking panty and a bar of soap made from PURE dead sea salt..the PURE must be in caps to emphasize it exactly like how jie described to me last nite hahaha. And finally passed her, her long overdue bday pressie and im glad she liked it! :)
What i am going to say now could largely be related to gals..at least thats what i think..Are a woman's instincts accurate all the time? And does it only act up much stronger when it comes to her man? Gals, gimme ur views abt this ya..Guys are welcomed too k..
Alrite gotta head down to cineleisure to meet my cousin now..buaiz..
8/11/2005
Our anniversary
It was a special day for the both of us yesterday..10th August 2005..marks our 7th Year together..With all the dramas and heartaches that happened not long ago..it made me treasure the bliss of having him around even more for this anniversary..
Thinking back at how we first got together..he with his side parting hairstyle..the plump me with my braces and untrimmed eyebrow *eeks*..I was still recovering from my past rship..We went through the different phases in our lives..Poly days, NS, LDR with me stuck in Newcastle for 2 1/2 years, his new career...We almost didnt make it in some phases..But at each time when the rship seem to be dying..either one or the both of us will hold on tighter to it..salvaging it...
Like how i totally agree with my girlie..Nothing is forever..But a part of me is secretly hoping our love for each other will thrive and bind us both together forever..
Happy Anniversary to you and i..
Thinking back at how we first got together..he with his side parting hairstyle..the plump me with my braces and untrimmed eyebrow *eeks*..I was still recovering from my past rship..We went through the different phases in our lives..Poly days, NS, LDR with me stuck in Newcastle for 2 1/2 years, his new career...We almost didnt make it in some phases..But at each time when the rship seem to be dying..either one or the both of us will hold on tighter to it..salvaging it...
Like how i totally agree with my girlie..Nothing is forever..But a part of me is secretly hoping our love for each other will thrive and bind us both together forever..
Happy Anniversary to you and i..
8/09/2005
Happy 40th Birthday Singapore
Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!! I LOVE YOU!!!
It had been 2 years since i have been back for National Day..Nothing beats being back here..I am proud to be a Singaporean and living abroad for some time has made me love my home more..
It had been 2 years since i have been back for National Day..Nothing beats being back here..I am proud to be a Singaporean and living abroad for some time has made me love my home more..
8/07/2005
Hmm..couldnt get to sleep..think it has to be the caffeine from my skinny capp i had at Mc Cafe just now..Had a great day today..Only got up at around 1 plus this arvo and had a grilled chicken chop for brunch at around 3pm! haha..wat a great example i set as a dietitian huh..
Then accompanied Jeff home and got greeted by the ever adorable piggy..hehe..shes just so cute but i simply dont understand why she will growl at me everytime i hug her! haha..erm for those who is trying to make out who piggy is..shes jeff's family dog..
Then dinner was at this steamboat place at bugis..it was good..and the soup was fiery mann..then headed down to marina square to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Pauline and Jess..The story was gd! Found it entertaining..and i must say Charlie has got such a nice accent! hehe..im a sucker for the British accent..
Then we settled for coffee at Mc Cafe at East coast after much discussion..come to think it..it had been quite some time where i hung out at a cafe..relaxing..catching up and just listening to my girlies..
Just gotta know one of my girlie better and realised she has had such a trying time throughout all these yrs..and it made mi realised how fortunate i was..and shes indeed a strong gal..the set backs i have encountered are just so tiny as compared to her..I just wish life for her will be better soon..
*yawnz* yayy..finally feeling a lil tiredness setting in...shall go sleep now...
And hope my triple eyelid will go away and become double again..sighzz..aftermath of crying too much..and of cos to recover from the soreness of my left eye will goooo awaaayyyyy...
nite nite pple..
Then accompanied Jeff home and got greeted by the ever adorable piggy..hehe..shes just so cute but i simply dont understand why she will growl at me everytime i hug her! haha..erm for those who is trying to make out who piggy is..shes jeff's family dog..
Then dinner was at this steamboat place at bugis..it was good..and the soup was fiery mann..then headed down to marina square to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Pauline and Jess..The story was gd! Found it entertaining..and i must say Charlie has got such a nice accent! hehe..im a sucker for the British accent..
Then we settled for coffee at Mc Cafe at East coast after much discussion..come to think it..it had been quite some time where i hung out at a cafe..relaxing..catching up and just listening to my girlies..
Just gotta know one of my girlie better and realised she has had such a trying time throughout all these yrs..and it made mi realised how fortunate i was..and shes indeed a strong gal..the set backs i have encountered are just so tiny as compared to her..I just wish life for her will be better soon..
*yawnz* yayy..finally feeling a lil tiredness setting in...shall go sleep now...
And hope my triple eyelid will go away and become double again..sighzz..aftermath of crying too much..and of cos to recover from the soreness of my left eye will goooo awaaayyyyy...
nite nite pple..
8/03/2005
It has been an emotional roller coaster for me for the past 2 weeks...However, i have never expected things to resolve so quickly, of course i am not implying that i want it to drag forever but the whole decision and issue was already sinking in and then you called...
The longer time you spent in a relationship, the harder it is to let go...through this ordeal, i have learnt that forgiving is much easier than holding on and blaming..and that there are alot of things to learn in this world and trust is something which you must abandon all doubts and 'what ifs' and be brave to trust again..
And nevertheless..my girlies who have been there for me throughout this whole ordeal..
' Dear gals, it would have been so painful if i didnt have you gals with me..thank you so much for the guidance, advice and hugs..thank you so much for loving me so much...i love you all too..'
Of cos not forgetting the guy friends that have been offering me advice..thanks guys..:)
Though things are back to normal..i will still take things easy ya...life is so unpredictable..
on a lighter note, i finally learnt how to blade!! Thanks to ms paul paul once again for being the pushing factor..:) but gotta practise more to be more zai!!
And also, i have finally rebonded my hair!!
But my left eye is itching..and red too..sighz..dont know wat happened to it again..prolly shld see a doc huh..sianz gotta wear glasses...
Will blog again..
The longer time you spent in a relationship, the harder it is to let go...through this ordeal, i have learnt that forgiving is much easier than holding on and blaming..and that there are alot of things to learn in this world and trust is something which you must abandon all doubts and 'what ifs' and be brave to trust again..
And nevertheless..my girlies who have been there for me throughout this whole ordeal..
' Dear gals, it would have been so painful if i didnt have you gals with me..thank you so much for the guidance, advice and hugs..thank you so much for loving me so much...i love you all too..'
Of cos not forgetting the guy friends that have been offering me advice..thanks guys..:)
Though things are back to normal..i will still take things easy ya...life is so unpredictable..
on a lighter note, i finally learnt how to blade!! Thanks to ms paul paul once again for being the pushing factor..:) but gotta practise more to be more zai!!
And also, i have finally rebonded my hair!!
But my left eye is itching..and red too..sighz..dont know wat happened to it again..prolly shld see a doc huh..sianz gotta wear glasses...
Will blog again..
8/02/2005
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