7/24/2005

How Can i Not Love You

~ How Can I Not Love You ~
Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love eachother
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
Wat we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

7/22/2005

friday..

Thought i should blog first before starting on my mad rush for my attachment report..Yeah its a friday nite and here i am slogging (going to) away..Price to pay for being lazy and procrastinating!! And poor me is sick :( Developed a really bad cough recently..my throat is so itchy!! *coughz*
I must say i have been quite a gd gal lately cos i have been going home for dinners! Cant resist all the yummy soups i have missed in my stay in Aust...yumz*

I noticed ever since i came back, i had been such a lazy gal..god knows how am i going to complete the 3 assignments i will have for my paediatrics nutrition subject next boy..
Talking abt uni work, i passed the subject i dreaded the most! hiakz..i am soo relieved! Next 2 hurdles will be to pass this attachment as well as the paeds i mentioned earlier..

Then dearie and i were thinking of going to either HK or taiwan for a break after my attachment..Hmm..dearie wanted to go to some resort but mum expressed her worries about us going ( she claims shes paranoid after all the bombing and tsunamis)..Oh well..will see how it goes when dearie comes back..Dear is in Thailand now..Hope he is having fun!

Think i will go to the temple tmr in the morning and also get a bday gift..alritey..gotta start on my work now! Blog again..buaiz..

7/18/2005

sick..

Didnt go to work today..had diarrhoea..couldnt figure out which food caused it man..2 more weeks left to rush my work liaoz..and i have got to be disciplined!! No going out after work...must stay home durin wkends too liaoz..sighz..sianz...

7/13/2005

I am finally going to attend a friend's wedding dinner! Just got the invitation card from her...Shes actually my ex colleague from the last temp job i had..she and her husband are just so loving..really envious man.. Met up wif her, mabel and jiahui and had such a gd time just sharing stories about rships to match the theme of the night! *LOVE, RSHIPS and MARRIAGE*

I am not ashamed to say i m resistant to change..however, if given some time and to something that cannot be helped, i would conform to the change..
I have been unhappy..needless to say, the stress from the attachment exacerbates the misery..I am so tired of being unhappy..and i guess all of my readers are sick of reading it too..I wished i could just draw myself away from the gaping hole...

Life upon returning back here wasnt how i thought it would be..Over there, i was always hoping to be back in your arms again..cos i missed you so much and i knew u missed me heaps too..though we suffered from the absence of seeing each other..the sweetness exuding from our phone calls were just so nice..the naive me expected you to able to spend as much time as you could wif me..

Back here..no doubt we had our sweet times together..but i guessed we have just changed..your career unarguably is the priority for you now..and i wasnt prepared...wasnt prepared to have to learn to tolerate the lesser time you will have for me, to have to accept that you do certain things to try to help in your job...to have to accept the busy you not have the time and patience to give little surprises or just hug and hold mi lovingly and tell me things are gonna be ok even though u may deem as impractical...The rship has ventured into another stage..a stage which is unfamiliar to me..a stage which sometimes upsets and confuses me...a stage which u always say i will understand when i start to work..Does one's perspective of the relationship really change after working?

I m confused..and i dont wan to grow up...i am beginning to think of myself as childish, as not being understanding enough..am i really that? I know im too sensitive and pessimistic for my own good..if only i could get to choose my character huh? As if i could help it...To help myself? Well..what is there to reassure myself that everything is ok? I really dont know..and i need guidance...

Lost Jo..

7/11/2005

Blue blue monday..

Must be the withdrawal from the heaps of fun i had last wkend that i felt extremely blue today..what with one of the report barely done and the other which seems impossible to complete..Jo is feeling really blue, stressed and depressed...Sighz..how am i ever going to pass..
I have got oni 3 weeks to complete them!!

On a lighter note, i have to tell u all abt the celebration we had at MW for Ms Paul paul's bday..It was good..and i m glad the bday gal enjoyed herself..apart from a couple of unhappy and unforseen events that happened..Hope yan fang is feeling alrite now..

Was somewhat reluntantly whisked off to tanjong pagar...then again, after some valid explanation..it didnt seem that unreasonable afterall...stayed for awhile and off we went to the 24 hr coffeeshop to feed our growling stomachs..

Sunday morning, we had yummy popiah and it was more interesting than the ones we were used to as we had to roll them ourselves..There was this shop which catered all the ingredients from the skins to the chopped peanuts..Even jeff who is not a great fan of popiah liked it!
Caught Fab 4 in the evening and i think it must be the lack of sleep from sat nite..i almost dozed off at the beginning of the show! Luckily i managed to keep awake after the pace of the show became faster..AFter the show, jeff actually suggested going to my fav coffee joint !! hehe..Coffee club express at somerset! Yeah..see lah..how to expect me to return to plain, stressful and boring work after i had so much fun in the past 2 days boy..

Torture..

7/10/2005













Your #1 Match: ENFP




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A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
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You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
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You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.


7/07/2005

Early morning..disillusioned...

Hi pple..am chomping away on my cereal and milk while typing this..Thought i should blog before getting changed for work..Let mi see..Met up with some of my Uni friends for a get together at 'Ting Yuan Ma La Steamboat'..It was priced at $16.80 per person..sth like all u can eat buffet..however this time, you dont even need to move an inch to get the food you want..cos the waiter will bring it to you..We tried 3 kinds of soup and the spiciness of the Ma La wasnt that hard to handle..Im not bragging here lah..not saying that i can handle really spicy food but i didnt hear any of my friends complain that it was too hot..But only when you drink the soup will you then realise its quite spicy huh..
Then Kristy suggested going for KTV..and off we went ( some of us) to Kbox Suntec..Knowing me, I am always onz for some singing! Sang and joked till 1 am and i decided to take my leave though i really would love to stay on..Had to wake up early to WORK mah! *sianz* And did i mention i am quite dead cos i havnt even done like half of my report which is gonna be due end of this mth and to be submitted to a very strict lecturer? *sighz*
Yup..alrite i gotta go decide what i have to wear from my somewhat drab and boring wardrobe for work..

Will blog again..

7/02/2005

a month has passed..

Wow..its one of those rare saturdays where i find myself at home..Finally got the chance to sleep in, but i think i need a new pillow..the old and flat one has been causing all the annoying headaches and neckaches!! i need to get a full length mirror too!! Seems like its time to head down to ikea! See if jeff is free tmr to acc mi or not..

Was out with Mich and pauline last nite..and coincidentally, we were all decked in pink and denim bottoms! hiakz..we make a pretty pic but too bad the oni digital cam died..so no pics to show how pink we were! Hee

Another more mth to go for my attachment, hope everything goes well and just let mi pass pls!! Now i finally understand why ah eng was actually afraid of graduating..i feel lost..What am i going to do after i graduate?
1. Work as a dietitian?
2. Go try for the travel industry?
Sighz..choose 1, will i like my job? i mean i am feeling sick of it..like when i was having my attachment, i dont detest it though i was constantly grilled by my supervisor cos i know it will be different if i was already a dietitian..But will i like my job for long? Guess no one knows..only if i start working in it..Seriously, i dont look forward to working in this line at all..i wonder if its burn out or issit that my interest has faded?

Choose 2, firstly, i have to be able to get in..and i have had enough of friends and family reacting like this : 'You are going to waste your degree', 'No job prospects', 'What are you going to do after this?'

Well, all above meant well..but its my life rite? This is what i want to do at this point of life..If there are so many ' what if'..why dont we just come up with a 'fool proof' plan in our life..have everything planned out so that we can counter every 'what if'? Will we really be happy then?

6/26/2005

Life is so unpredictable

Its Sunday nite..and needless to say, Monday blues are setting in..Am typing this in Jeff's place..just joined him and his friends for dinner. Talking about dinner, i took a cab down and just as i needed some quiet time to myself, taxi uncle was yakking away right from my house to the destination..Sighz..i gave really obvious 'ums' and 'ahs' but he still didnt get the hint..And i must say this is first time taxi uncles talk to me about food..to the extent of dishing out a recipe!! Yesh..u read rite, he literated the recipe of chilli crab to me! Not bad huh..haha..

Didnt do much today, was supposed to be doing work at home, but of cos i was distracted with chatting..
Mum was home and cooked really yummy bee hoon..And she finally made some space for me in our SHARED wardrobe for my winter clothings..Between us, we each have got a wardrobe with another shared one..but mum has got soo many clothes in there! Simply no space man..

Friends around me have been having problems with their relationships..Me included..As human beings, we have the ability to feel and think and emotions are powerful forces of humans that propel us to react and behave in a certain way..Love is definitely the greatest example where the strongest and toughest can crumble under the influence of it..And of cos could also make the weakest stand up again..

And i think as i grow older, i tend to keep problems to myself more..Probably cos friends around me have their own set of problems, commitments to attend to and the least i want is for them to worry about me and be burdened further with my problems..And some which may be perceived as miniscule to them..It tires me to relate the problem too i guess..But nevertheless, i know my gal pals will always be there for mi whenever i need a crying shoulder or a listening ear..and most importantly someone who genuinely cares abt me..

Have a gd week ahead guys..

When can i ever have my own dog?

Like i said, the answer was a NO from my granddad..sighz..:(

My precious...wkends..

While waiting for my painted toenails to dry, i thought i should update my blog.Its a quiet sat night for me, as compared to the crazy partying for the past few sats..

Went Mr Bean Cafe with Paul paul and friends while Jeff went TM to meet his uni friends...before that, i was at Bugis with Jeff..Caught 'Initial D'..Woo..enjoyed ogling at the droolsome Jay, Edison and Yu Wen Le..and the one sitting beside mi lah..hahaha..After watching that show, i am quite determined to go book my advanced test next sat *lol*..(Dear if u are reading this, i must emphasize again i am not thinking of being able to do 'drifting' ok!! :p)
Bumped into sec sch juniors..and one of them kept saying i was skinny..i totally disagree with that man!! Ought to be more stringent in my intake liaoz..been eating too much lately!! *Images of today's intake surfaced - 1 popiah, 1/2 char siew bao, a glass of siew dai coffee, 3/4 plate of hokkien mee, some fries from Mos Burger, 1 iced latte, a caribbean chicken tortilla wrap..arrgghh..all going to my thighs, waist and arms!!

Fri was spent rushing work..finally finished a set of the menu..but still gotta make changes to it..that will be done tmr..*sighz* Then rushed down to suntec to meet Mich and Eliza for a ktv session at K box..It turned out really well with Mich and Eliza hitting off pretty gd..Cos its their first time meeting each other..And i must thank bernard for being such so nice for his company as well as helping mi carry my laptop from Yio Chu Kang to Suntec..And his own apptment was at Orchard!! Wah..you mei you ze yang nice!! hehe..thanks kor..i know my friends dote me!! :p

Have been thinking of trying my luck for the upteen time to ask Mum if i could keep a dog..Guess most likely the answer is gonna be a quite obvious NO..:( I want a dog so badly that i m even willing to keep a chihuahua cos its small!! Those who know me well enough knows i love shih tzus and silky terriers more loh..Nvm..am still gonna try asking her tmr!! Wish me luck guys haha..

Ok..eyes getting heavy, more typing errors liaoz..haha..Gonna lie on my comfy bed..Have a lovely sunday guys!

6/22/2005


My addiction

Mango Tango Cheesecake!!

My kind of life!!

Finally got to meet up with Xiushan and Sian eng yesterday...went NYDC for dinner..i had mushrooms attack..and i have never had so much mushrooms in my life before!! Haha..but it was gd..cos i have always thought mushrooms will always come with cream sauce instead of a tomato one..then i had my daily dosage of coffee in the form of Betty Boop style cappucino!! *yumz* and shared a mango tango cheesecake with ah eng..it was alrite..
Then after that, xiushan had to head home cos she wasnt feeling too gd...whereas the siao char bor me suddenly had the urge to get a bag! hahaha..and poor ah eng had to rush around with me to look for that bag for mi to buy! hahaha..and guess wat?! I really managed to get a bag haha..from little matchgirl! Nice neh..

6/19/2005


I look so haggard..:(

Eventful week..

Wah, long time since i have blogged..Jo is getting lazy!! Hehe..blame it on the attachment lah..working hrs from 8.30 am - 6.15 pm..and its bloody warm in the office cos the stupid air con broke down!! Arrgghh...Ji tao perspire non stop from start of work till i knock off..:( I dont like such working conditions..cant dress up, then still have to stink at the end of the day..sianz..wat to do, just have to endure till end of next mth...
Anyhow, met up with a few friends which i havnt seen in a long time..really enjoyed their co man..and i must say, its gd to be back! ( in this aspect haha) Went dbl o last saturday..and the lycheenis (as how mi and pauline will call them). Read ' lychee martinis' are oni for $6!! hiakz..had a really great time man..
Oh yahh i bought brown contacts for myself!! Hehe..was on my way to meet some friends for dinner at suntec when i passed by this promotion..the 2nd box was going for 50 %..Had always wanted to try them and since they had this promo, i thought i would just give it a try..hehe..am wearing them now, will post a pic later!!
As for yesterday, i was out the entire day man..went shopping wif Jeff..he claims its his turn to shop and that i m banned from shopping cos i have been overindulging haha..oh well..in the end, i still managed to get a pair of slippers from Charles and Keith!! Hiaks..and my poor boy didnt get anything..hehe..Then headed down to PS for dinner and coffee..then caught Ghost Train with Jeff's uni friends plus jimmy and ben...The show was alrite, wasnt as scary as i have anticipated it to be..at least this horror show had a storyline..Show ended at around 11 45pm..then decided to go Partyworld for some ktv...from 1 am - 5 am!! wahh..this has gonna be the first time i sing till 5am!!! It was quite fun and it got a little too crazy when jimmy came down with 5 of his other guy friends...Haa..then again, it was all gd fun...
Finally went to bed at around 6 am...*yawnzz*
Yeah..that sort of sums up wat i have been doing for past week and wkends..alrite i gotta go now, mr jeff is hurrying mi..gonna get a thumb drive for myself..then going for dinner with his family to celebrate Fathers Day..will blog later ya...

See my brown eyes??

6/13/2005


aww..bliss...

Ms Paul paul and Jo jo

Us at mw