Goodbye

My beloved gong gong passed away on 17th Sept 2007.
Missing u dearly..may u be happy and painfree now

Hope

I can just hope, pray and wish for this entire ordeal to be over..with you safe by my side..
The worry creeps up whenever I am idle, and it scares me to think of how we should handle it if the worst really happens..
I try to be brave and think positive as much as I can...but deep down I know I will crumble if it really happens..
I am scared and too occupied to be too bothered or affected by anything else happening in my life now..I just want you to be safe and happy...

New job..

I need to get out of my current job soon...i have been dragging myself to work everyday
:( Wish me luck in my job searching !

Went shopping today! SURPRISINGLY, it was Jeff who suggested it! hehe..bought a pair of brown pants from gg5 and 2 cardigans from far east..Was hoping to get some shoes and tops for work but didnt see any I fancied..

Will be going to KL over the long wkend, last time I went was when i was in pri sch! But kinda nervous after hearing friends tell bout rampant robbery and pick pockets around..I thought I went there to unwind!

Anyway, pic on the left shows 3 pretty gals at dblo having heaps of fun dancing and drinking! haha and on the right is the bf with my super adorable nephew!

Tarot card

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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TGIF..almost

Morale at work has reached its lowest I think.. and its not only me now..its everyone of us! I could not believe we were actually having a discussion and something like a brainstorming session on why we were all feeling this way!
Colleague even mentioned if we could bring it up to boss! Wah..madness! Hah..but I am comforted in a way cos at least I now know I am not overly pessimistic *lol*

Talking bout reaffirmation of thoughts, another colleague in another dept agreed with me that growing old can be quite scary esp when sickness and abandonment befalls. Ha, all the more realistic and upfront when you work in a geriatric dept. I say dying a natural cause is the best, as compared to being in pain or paralysed for long long periods of time and not being able to do anything at all on your own, OR to be so demented that you no longer recognise your loved ones or if you had your dinner OR, to be abandoned by your own flesh and blood or worse, all of THEM OR to be placed in a nursing home where sub optimal care is given.

..Aging is a natural and inevitable process unless life ends before we can age..I say I shall try to be less pessimistic and do the things i want to do/achieve before its too late!

Jo ponders, thinking of which ' hmm, maybe i should just awol for work tmr since I want to sleep in' ' Gotta do the things I want to do wat...' haha..

Motivation

I would like to share these encouraging words my colleague text me this evening

' you are very special too, dont let anything hold you back. If your dream leads you somewhere, hope you have the courage to pursue it.'

Thanks so much val! Really needed the support..

Happy New Yr!

Been ages since I have blogged! Just didnt have the mood and was too lazy to blog lah.

Hope everyone had a great time this CNY..I did, though I never won for every gambling session ie black jack, mahjong ( no luck for gambling this yr according to zodiac readings), hah the long PH was good!! Did some visiting, movies, clubbing, feasting..

However, I have grown to feel less close to family..Just didnt seem to understand or agree with how they managed matters..Wish I could move out..

We celebrated grandad's bday today..Grandparents are older and more forgetful..Granny have been asking me abt ang bao and money issues for the past consecutive 4 nites!! Really extending my limit for patience man..

Growing old is scary..esp when we have illnesses surfacing..Yikess *I dont wanna grow old!!*

This entry is so lacking in structure and logic..its just like my random thoughts in different paragraphs..Oh well whatever for tonite lah..Still bothered by the differences in me and family + freaking mon blues (I dont look forward to working at all) + jeff for reservist = :(

my first bday cake for this yr from my future sis laws! haha

hehe..thanks for the lovely cake girlies!

Cake from my colleagues

Bday cake and flowers from the bf

My 25th bday presents!!

On my 25th bday - 14th Dec

Thanks for all the bday well wishes, lovely presents and surprises all of you had showered me with.

Though there wasnt any big celebrations, I had the joy of having a few mini ones with different groups of friends! Be it advanced or belated, Ms jo jo is really touched! Thankies darlings!

And the best thing of all was that I took leave from bday eve and extended to a day after bday plus 2 days of wkends haha..there was a grand total of 4.5 days of leave!!

I had the privilege of cutting 4 cakes on my bday week! hehe..2 of them were surprise cakes, 1 was baked personally by my company's pastry chef and the last one being the most economical costing only $2 !! heh

It was the first time bf had sent flowers on my bday and am really pleased with it! hehe..

Anyway, here are some pics of my cakes and presents! More pics to be updated soon..

Hehe..

My mummy

The bf

The girlies!

Me time

It wasn't planned to be a ' me - time' session after work today..Jeff and I had wanted to go out for dinner..But due to some miscommunication, we didnt meet up. I didnt want to just get some takeaway and head home, so I ended up at Starbucks with 'Her World', a tall iced skinny latte and a toasted multigrain chicken sandwich!
Think it must have been a long time since I have had such an opportunity to just relax at the cafe that it felt really good to just have some time to myself! It was really therapeutic enough to kinda soothed my frazzled nerves (from work) and anger (from the tiff we had - but now resolved)..It will be even better if the seats were sofas! hah..
Reached home just in time to catch the last episode of the 9 pm serial! Had a chat with my popo and even did a diet history on her to check on her food intake! haha..*job hazard*
It had been an eventful week..few incidents had evoked quite a bit of emotions and thoughts..
Incident at work today allowed me to realise how horrible it felt to have someone tell me sarcastically some things I didnt do right, I would have handled it better if she just told me directly, however I have already made it clear to my colleague so its all good now. :)

Another issue with some friends or I would rather as acquaintances now, have now surfaced their ugly sides to me at an even clearer dimensions. The differences in how these people view and respect friendship and love as compared to the more sensible and normal *haha* friends I have is appalling!! I was totally disgusted and pained to see such people hurting the ones around them..unknowingly or rather they dont give a damn about..

Think I shouldnt write too much of these stinky tales of them in my precious blog space lah, not worth it also..

Time to lie down on my comfy bed already..working tmr in exchange to attend my long awaited convocation next sat!
Hope it will be a more pleasant day tmr..

I need a break!

I feel worn out, especially when it comes to getting up to prepare for work..I really need a break! And the short break at Genting wasnt enough boy..it was more of rush there and rush back again...

I wonder how I will get my break when I dont have much money to spare..:(

*Yawnz* Am feeling depressed again...sux..