Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone! May it be a smooth saiing year ahead for all of us..most importantly, to be healthy and to be with our loved ones...

I am feeling so so so lousy now cos I got called up to do a long flight later..Because of this flight, I cant join my relatives who are having good fun at my cousin's place..

I am so going to leave this stupid job in Aug!

It had almost been 1.5 yrs! Jeff and I were discussing about how timely this piece of good news came..

The case is finally closed and none of the scary consequences we both had thought would happen..

The lot I got a few months earlier did indicate that things were going to be ok but still I kept praying as there werent any news yet and still I wasnt reassured till things were really confirmed!

I am so so relieved and would like to thank the friends and family that had been supporting us on, urging us on to be positive and the neverending words of encouragement throughout this long and tiring mental torture..

Time to move forward and to strive to be a better person..:)

One of the days we had been anticipating and planning for had finally came! I am so glad everything turned out well without any major hiccups :)))

Am very glad the vendors we engaged in for eg, decor, caterer, makeup artist and photographer were all professional and timely in their services!

Jeff and I are both very happy that almost all their close friends and family were there to witness and share this very special moment as they embark on a new phase of their lives together. And also for Jo who celebrated her 27th birthday with a very very pretty cake ( with compliments from her dearest Mich, Daphne and hubby)!

Thank you to all the well wishes, help, long distance phone calls, ang bows and lovely gifts we have been showered with, all of you have showed us once again how loved the both of us are. :)

Next, we are looking forward to our customary wedding in 2009!

2 more days left to my singlehood! Hope we didnt miss out any preparations and if we did to be done in the span of this couple of days!

Jo is still worried that things might go wrong e.g checking in later than the stipulated time, decor not done up in time, make up artist forgetting bout turning up..even though we have already sent emails/smses to confirm and remind ya..

Seems like I can only be rest assured when the actual day is here!

Anyway..
Cant help admiring my freshly manicured fingers and toes hehe..thanks to Sarah for doing such a good job despite the fact that i was fretting over 2 broken nails (on my index fingers)!
Hehe

Our new sleeping arrangement

My house has been and still undergoing some renovations..there had been some changes in our living arrangements and now Jeff and I will be sleeping in Mum's former bedroom while Mummy will take the master bedroom!

We have decided to combine 2 mattresses together for now and get a proper bed after our customary wedding.
Im sure it will be much more comfy than our former sleeping arrangement( 2 of us squeezing on a super single bed *lol*)

We went for our final fitting too and I really cant afford to have any changes to my waistline now other than just maintaining it cos the dress was altered to fit so snugly to the extent of it being a little restricting! Haha..anything for the sake of beauty!
I really hope this special event will turn out well :)

Growing pains

It feels great to meet up with a friend that I havnt seen for a long time! And it feels even better to see her heavily pregnant :)

Through our conversations, it dawned upon me that I should appreciate and maintain the currently good relations I have with my family and future in laws.

I have heard too often married friends lament about their woes about how much they have to give in to their in laws to have some peace at home etc..

Sighz, gone are the carefree days of just having to worry about passing exams or how to spend the sch hols..what comes now are major life responsibilities like how to make a marriage work, having kids, supporting your aging parents..

Adulthood isnt that fun afterall ya?

Jo's cooking again tonight! hehe..Will try to post some pics of it if possible.

Just as I was on my way back from grocery shopping..The bus I was in collided into a car!

It was cruising along fine when suddenly all of us were hurled rudely in front as the bus driver tried to do an emergency brake and immediately we hear a loud BANG!

Thank goodness nobody was standing at that time cos the impact was so great that all my chye sim and mushrooms fell off from the seat( thats besides the pt, just trying to describe the magnitude of the impact)

Am really relieved no one was injured besides just having a deep dent in the unfortunate driver's car..

Poor bus driver looked disturbed too after he left the accident scene..hope he doesnt feel too guilty and both drivers be more careful in future...

Having a home cooked meal, Catching a movie, Ktv, Being there for a heart broken friend, shopping are things I enjoy much more and cherish dearly now given the nature of my job.

Finally met up with Mich for our long awaited ktv session! Bought a knitted top from Mango and the best purchase of the day is to finally find the shoes for my ROM and wedding! But it cost a whopping $290! Ok, Jo is a poor gal so spending this amount of money on a pair of shoes she isnt going to wear probably more than 5x makes her feel guilty..

But but..it is worth it to make yourself happy and look pretty on your big day right ? haha!

Though wedding preparations are taxing but I am enjoying every part of it! I think I am going to miss it when the big day is over..but there is still like 9 months to it so I am going to savour every moment of it till it is finally here!

Finally came back from new york last evening..I would normally feel v happy to be back I aint feeling exactly that way now cos of the lack of time I have with Jeff :(

Jeff has to be back in camp for reservice and the only off day he has are to be spent at a friend's wedding and the next time his reservice ends is on tues night..and I will be going away again on wed morning le..:(

Am feeling so bored now..but looking at my freshly manicured finger nails lessens the negativity a little haha..*vain*

But am looking forward to tommorrow cos am going to choose my ROM gown, catch up with the pongs and run errands like change money, go to the temple..

Yayy..haha..*crazy*

1.5 more mths to go to our ROM!

Things to be done
- Choose gown
- Confirm on who to engage for deco
- Photographer
- Caterer
- Order bouquet
etc..yikes!

So many things not done yettt...And did I mention that my schedule is amazingly packed for Nov?

Gong gong..

Received a call from mum to remind me to offer joss sticks to gong gong..It had been a year since gong gong passed on..

Time flies..I still rem clearly that very morning when we received a call from the nursing home that he had been admitted to the hospital for shortness of breath..

All of us rushed to Ward 44 of CGH..the ward which i covered when i was still working there..

I naively thought gong gong was going to be ok..but sadly he didnt..he never opened his eyes..he was using so much effort to take each breathe..it hurts to see him struggle so hard...

I hoped he heard all that we said to him before he left us to a better place..

After his passing..I refused to take that ward for awhile..cos it reminded me so painfully of him..

Gonggong was just like a father to me..growing up had not been easy cos he was always so strict with me, he had a fiery temper and always scolded me if I wasnt in my best behaviour..but i appreciate all that I have gone through cos now I understand the values he was trying to inculcate in me..

There were of cos very fond memories of us going to Pattaya together with mum and popo, him ferrying me on his bike and going for swimming..he was the one who taught me how to swim..

Sigh..:(

Cherish your loved ones while you can..no matter how much they had angered or saddened you before..

Gathering

It was the first family gathering after popo left us..It was something I looked forward to so much after a 5 day flight..

And the flight back wasnt exactly very pleasant in the sense that we had a very ill passenger onboard and all of the crew didnt have the time and mood to eat..So we were all tired and v hungry but thankfully there were medical personnel onboard and there wasnt only one doc..but like 3 drs and 2 nurses on that flight..

Hope that passenger has been discharged and is alright now..

All the drama that happened had certainly made me feel even more eager to be back home to loved ones and good food! (We had catered Peranakan food)

I am so glad I was able to be back in time to catch up with the family and see my most adorable nephew!

Heavy rain = no food!

We planned to order kfc for dinner just now, but could not get through their delivery hotline at all...So Plan B was to order pastamania instead..so after a few attempts, we finally got through and just as I was about to anticipate tucking into some italian fare, the operator told me that delivery was suspended due to the heavy downpour..and guess what! The same answer was given to us when we tried Canadian pizza too!

Aiyah, so much for trying to be lazy and having food delivered to our door step..

Ended up having to walk over to the hawker centre to buy food back...:(

Getting married

I wished I was one of those happy bride to be, like most of my friends but there is just this one thing that havnt been resolved which is weighing down my heart all this while.

I dont know how long more I have to worry about it..I feel like a bore whenever i tell my close friends bout it cos there is nothing we can do and I dont expect my friends to listen to my woes over and over again..

Have been praying hard for this issue to be over and hopefully not end up in the worst case scenario..

I hate this so much...

I love to cook!

Cooked dinner again today..Fish in dark soya sauce with onions and tomatoes, Stir fried xiao bai chye with mushrooms and sliced pork..hehe..

Am glad Jeff enjoyed it! *beams*

I like cooking occasionally but I cannot imagine having to think of varieties EVERYDAY if I was a full time home maker!
And gets worse if the husband and children starts complaining or becoming fussier..

Am a contented gal now probably cos I aint on stupid standby for this entire week and am looking forward to FIR's concert, a 1 day batam trip and our 10th anniversary!

:))

In love...

We collected our wedding bands today and I was so surprised when Jeff insisted on wearing it at the shop right away!

Haha..

Well, I would have preferred to keep it till our ROM and exchange brand new rings along with our vows but Jeff was so bent on wearing them now, telling me it doesnt make a great difference from wearing it now or later..

I thought it was really sweet of him to think that way considering that there are some guys that rather hide their rings and thus marital status for more 'fun' outside..

So, we both put on the rings for each other at the beach just now before heading to Beach Cabana for drinks with friends..and my boy even dedicated ' Nothing's gonna change my love for you' to me!

Aww..so sweet..hahah..

Pre flight syndrome

I am feeling so blue..and everytime before a flight, I will tell Jeff I want to quit..

Yesh I have been toying with the idea of leaving the co..even if it means paying up the bond..Ya what an irony right, a stark difference to the Jo back then who had been trying so hard to get into the interviews and feeling over the moon when she finally did...

Jeff always tells me, the grass is not always greener on the other side..

Feeling the jitters before flt is the norm...there will be so many things running through my mind: worrying abt how the seniors would be like/would I be pushed to the business class to die under stress/how are the other crew like etc...

And the worst is to leave Jeff/family/friends..:(

I dont know how long I can tahan..but I will try my best..

Disillusioned

Just got back frm clubbing..and had many thoughts running through my mind..

Was it really unintentional or just riding onto the notion of "under the influence of alcohol' that effected that kind of behaviour?

Was it acceptable to be flirting right under the nose of that person's partner and when that partner is also your friend?

How would you feel if that partner was you?

Dickheads are those that readily take you when you throw yourself at them.

I bet you didnt even care how that person feels about you. You dont mind being called a bitch too as long as you get as many guys hooked onto you.

I dont think you had any morals, values, respect at all for your relationships or so called boyfriend.

I am so disillusioned by the notion of love and faithfulness with people like you around.

Dartboard

Touched down last night..Didnt really enjoy my flts cos of the bloody irritants onboard..those pple have such weird and nonsensical unspoken rules and only when you think its perfectly fine and do it, they all swoop at the chance to fault you with it!

And did I mention that as they have gleefully complained about you to the supervisors, they would still be nice to you and still can say ' I enjoy working with you!'
Wat the fuck lah..

No wonder theres such a high turnover rate for these companies..

I am pissed off..