He finally came online..and im relieved..

Im such a paranoia..such a weakling..

To jie who is chatting wif mi now: thanks for assuring that the way i reacted was totally understandable..

To paul paul : im such a crybaby...hehe...but what will i do without u..

To eliza : thanks for being here and feeling gan cheong for mi as well..

Im such a silly girl..sighz..

As each hour passes by, my heart sinks even deeper...No sms or call from you..Why?

It was a restless night for mi as i tossed and turned and woke up several times to check my phone..thinking that you might drop a msg or call..

I have thought over all the possibilities but none of them was substantial to warrant for your actions..except if you were kidnapped...

How should i be feeling now? Worried? Disappointed? Or once again be understanding? Or as nonchalant as you had portrayed to be? Call you?

I dont know..i just know the feeling sux..

Am typing singlehanded while holding a plum in the other..its sho sour but i like! heh..hope the little amts of Vit C in that plum can help battle the annoying flu bug that had invaded my system!! I could have taken an orange instead but im too lazy to peel it..and i prefer my oranges peeled instead of them cut into wedges..
Had been out the entire day with Jeff..Been a long time since we have spent so much time together in a single day boy..He had been tied down with work..then again, i have gotten used to the fact that there will be fewer chances of us 'pak toring'..oh well..career comes first now..
Gotta be more disciplined if i want to complete my assignments sooner boy..then again, i am not complaining cos time was well spent with him before he goes on a business trip to Thailand on wed which i will refer it as the 'land of temptations'..
Shall have the time to concentrate on work and try to take my mind off pointless worries and thoughts for these few days while he is away..

Had an eventful day yesterday..As we were promised a tour of how the foodservice operations will be like in the army camp, we made our way down to SAFTI. It was an eye opener and im pretty impressed with the architecture of the entire compound..nice! Erm sorry i dont know how else to describe it in those terms which my 'architectural' friends will be more well versed in huh..ok let mi try harder..it looks like a fortress! Gives me a serene yet secure feeling prolly cos of its high walls..
As its a protected area, we had to exchange our ids for visitor passes..Had a taste of how the infamous cookhouse food tastes like..and sad to say, i have to agree its really not that good..better not let my ex supervisors see this man..
Then headed down to jurong east to meet Jeff for abit..had fries and a drink...then decided to roam around to pass time till evening to meet jie..

Meeting up wif jie has always been good..it had been such a long time since we have both caught up with each other!! And i received gifts from her! hehe..a sweet looking panty and a bar of soap made from PURE dead sea salt..the PURE must be in caps to emphasize it exactly like how jie described to me last nite hahaha. And finally passed her, her long overdue bday pressie and im glad she liked it! :)

What i am going to say now could largely be related to gals..at least thats what i think..Are a woman's instincts accurate all the time? And does it only act up much stronger when it comes to her man? Gals, gimme ur views abt this ya..Guys are welcomed too k..

Alrite gotta head down to cineleisure to meet my cousin now..buaiz..

Our anniversary

It was a special day for the both of us yesterday..10th August 2005..marks our 7th Year together..With all the dramas and heartaches that happened not long ago..it made me treasure the bliss of having him around even more for this anniversary..

Thinking back at how we first got together..he with his side parting hairstyle..the plump me with my braces and untrimmed eyebrow *eeks*..I was still recovering from my past rship..We went through the different phases in our lives..Poly days, NS, LDR with me stuck in Newcastle for 2 1/2 years, his new career...We almost didnt make it in some phases..But at each time when the rship seem to be dying..either one or the both of us will hold on tighter to it..salvaging it...

Like how i totally agree with my girlie..Nothing is forever..But a part of me is secretly hoping our love for each other will thrive and bind us both together forever..

Happy Anniversary to you and i..

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!! I LOVE YOU!!!
It had been 2 years since i have been back for National Day..Nothing beats being back here..I am proud to be a Singaporean and living abroad for some time has made me love my home more..

Hmm..couldnt get to sleep..think it has to be the caffeine from my skinny capp i had at Mc Cafe just now..Had a great day today..Only got up at around 1 plus this arvo and had a grilled chicken chop for brunch at around 3pm! haha..wat a great example i set as a dietitian huh..
Then accompanied Jeff home and got greeted by the ever adorable piggy..hehe..shes just so cute but i simply dont understand why she will growl at me everytime i hug her! haha..erm for those who is trying to make out who piggy is..shes jeff's family dog..
Then dinner was at this steamboat place at bugis..it was good..and the soup was fiery mann..then headed down to marina square to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Pauline and Jess..The story was gd! Found it entertaining..and i must say Charlie has got such a nice accent! hehe..im a sucker for the British accent..
Then we settled for coffee at Mc Cafe at East coast after much discussion..come to think it..it had been quite some time where i hung out at a cafe..relaxing..catching up and just listening to my girlies..
Just gotta know one of my girlie better and realised she has had such a trying time throughout all these yrs..and it made mi realised how fortunate i was..and shes indeed a strong gal..the set backs i have encountered are just so tiny as compared to her..I just wish life for her will be better soon..
*yawnz* yayy..finally feeling a lil tiredness setting in...shall go sleep now...
And hope my triple eyelid will go away and become double again..sighzz..aftermath of crying too much..and of cos to recover from the soreness of my left eye will goooo awaaayyyyy...

nite nite pple..

It has been an emotional roller coaster for me for the past 2 weeks...However, i have never expected things to resolve so quickly, of course i am not implying that i want it to drag forever but the whole decision and issue was already sinking in and then you called...

The longer time you spent in a relationship, the harder it is to let go...through this ordeal, i have learnt that forgiving is much easier than holding on and blaming..and that there are alot of things to learn in this world and trust is something which you must abandon all doubts and 'what ifs' and be brave to trust again..
And nevertheless..my girlies who have been there for me throughout this whole ordeal..

' Dear gals, it would have been so painful if i didnt have you gals with me..thank you so much for the guidance, advice and hugs..thank you so much for loving me so much...i love you all too..'

Of cos not forgetting the guy friends that have been offering me advice..thanks guys..:)

Though things are back to normal..i will still take things easy ya...life is so unpredictable..

on a lighter note, i finally learnt how to blade!! Thanks to ms paul paul once again for being the pushing factor..:) but gotta practise more to be more zai!!
And also, i have finally rebonded my hair!!

But my left eye is itching..and red too..sighz..dont know wat happened to it again..prolly shld see a doc huh..sianz gotta wear glasses...

Will blog again..

sad sad..

Finally came to the end of my attachment..Time to concentrate on other stuff...