Its Sunday nite..and needless to say, Monday blues are setting in..Am typing this in Jeff's place..just joined him and his friends for dinner. Talking about dinner, i took a cab down and just as i needed some quiet time to myself, taxi uncle was yakking away right from my house to the destination..Sighz..i gave really obvious 'ums' and 'ahs' but he still didnt get the hint..And i must say this is first time taxi uncles talk to me about food..to the extent of dishing out a recipe!! Yesh..u read rite, he literated the recipe of chilli crab to me! Not bad huh..haha..
Didnt do much today, was supposed to be doing work at home, but of cos i was distracted with chatting..
Mum was home and cooked really yummy bee hoon..And she finally made some space for me in our SHARED wardrobe for my winter clothings..Between us, we each have got a wardrobe with another shared one..but mum has got soo many clothes in there! Simply no space man..
Friends around me have been having problems with their relationships..Me included..As human beings, we have the ability to feel and think and emotions are powerful forces of humans that propel us to react and behave in a certain way..Love is definitely the greatest example where the strongest and toughest can crumble under the influence of it..And of cos could also make the weakest stand up again..
And i think as i grow older, i tend to keep problems to myself more..Probably cos friends around me have their own set of problems, commitments to attend to and the least i want is for them to worry about me and be burdened further with my problems..And some which may be perceived as miniscule to them..It tires me to relate the problem too i guess..But nevertheless, i know my gal pals will always be there for mi whenever i need a crying shoulder or a listening ear..and most importantly someone who genuinely cares abt me..
Have a gd week ahead guys..
6/26/2005
My precious...wkends..
While waiting for my painted toenails to dry, i thought i should update my blog.Its a quiet sat night for me, as compared to the crazy partying for the past few sats..
Went Mr Bean Cafe with Paul paul and friends while Jeff went TM to meet his uni friends...before that, i was at Bugis with Jeff..Caught 'Initial D'..Woo..enjoyed ogling at the droolsome Jay, Edison and Yu Wen Le..and the one sitting beside mi lah..hahaha..After watching that show, i am quite determined to go book my advanced test next sat *lol*..(Dear if u are reading this, i must emphasize again i am not thinking of being able to do 'drifting' ok!! :p)
Bumped into sec sch juniors..and one of them kept saying i was skinny..i totally disagree with that man!! Ought to be more stringent in my intake liaoz..been eating too much lately!! *Images of today's intake surfaced - 1 popiah, 1/2 char siew bao, a glass of siew dai coffee, 3/4 plate of hokkien mee, some fries from Mos Burger, 1 iced latte, a caribbean chicken tortilla wrap..arrgghh..all going to my thighs, waist and arms!!
Fri was spent rushing work..finally finished a set of the menu..but still gotta make changes to it..that will be done tmr..*sighz* Then rushed down to suntec to meet Mich and Eliza for a ktv session at K box..It turned out really well with Mich and Eliza hitting off pretty gd..Cos its their first time meeting each other..And i must thank bernard for being such so nice for his company as well as helping mi carry my laptop from Yio Chu Kang to Suntec..And his own apptment was at Orchard!! Wah..you mei you ze yang nice!! hehe..thanks kor..i know my friends dote me!! :p
Have been thinking of trying my luck for the upteen time to ask Mum if i could keep a dog..Guess most likely the answer is gonna be a quite obvious NO..:( I want a dog so badly that i m even willing to keep a chihuahua cos its small!! Those who know me well enough knows i love shih tzus and silky terriers more loh..Nvm..am still gonna try asking her tmr!! Wish me luck guys haha..
Ok..eyes getting heavy, more typing errors liaoz..haha..Gonna lie on my comfy bed..Have a lovely sunday guys!
Went Mr Bean Cafe with Paul paul and friends while Jeff went TM to meet his uni friends...before that, i was at Bugis with Jeff..Caught 'Initial D'..Woo..enjoyed ogling at the droolsome Jay, Edison and Yu Wen Le..and the one sitting beside mi lah..hahaha..After watching that show, i am quite determined to go book my advanced test next sat *lol*..(Dear if u are reading this, i must emphasize again i am not thinking of being able to do 'drifting' ok!! :p)
Bumped into sec sch juniors..and one of them kept saying i was skinny..i totally disagree with that man!! Ought to be more stringent in my intake liaoz..been eating too much lately!! *Images of today's intake surfaced - 1 popiah, 1/2 char siew bao, a glass of siew dai coffee, 3/4 plate of hokkien mee, some fries from Mos Burger, 1 iced latte, a caribbean chicken tortilla wrap..arrgghh..all going to my thighs, waist and arms!!
Fri was spent rushing work..finally finished a set of the menu..but still gotta make changes to it..that will be done tmr..*sighz* Then rushed down to suntec to meet Mich and Eliza for a ktv session at K box..It turned out really well with Mich and Eliza hitting off pretty gd..Cos its their first time meeting each other..And i must thank bernard for being such so nice for his company as well as helping mi carry my laptop from Yio Chu Kang to Suntec..And his own apptment was at Orchard!! Wah..you mei you ze yang nice!! hehe..thanks kor..i know my friends dote me!! :p
Have been thinking of trying my luck for the upteen time to ask Mum if i could keep a dog..Guess most likely the answer is gonna be a quite obvious NO..:( I want a dog so badly that i m even willing to keep a chihuahua cos its small!! Those who know me well enough knows i love shih tzus and silky terriers more loh..Nvm..am still gonna try asking her tmr!! Wish me luck guys haha..
Ok..eyes getting heavy, more typing errors liaoz..haha..Gonna lie on my comfy bed..Have a lovely sunday guys!
6/22/2005
My kind of life!!
Finally got to meet up with Xiushan and Sian eng yesterday...went NYDC for dinner..i had mushrooms attack..and i have never had so much mushrooms in my life before!! Haha..but it was gd..cos i have always thought mushrooms will always come with cream sauce instead of a tomato one..then i had my daily dosage of coffee in the form of Betty Boop style cappucino!! *yumz* and shared a mango tango cheesecake with ah eng..it was alrite..
Then after that, xiushan had to head home cos she wasnt feeling too gd...whereas the siao char bor me suddenly had the urge to get a bag! hahaha..and poor ah eng had to rush around with me to look for that bag for mi to buy! hahaha..and guess wat?! I really managed to get a bag haha..from little matchgirl! Nice neh..
Then after that, xiushan had to head home cos she wasnt feeling too gd...whereas the siao char bor me suddenly had the urge to get a bag! hahaha..and poor ah eng had to rush around with me to look for that bag for mi to buy! hahaha..and guess wat?! I really managed to get a bag haha..from little matchgirl! Nice neh..
6/19/2005
Eventful week..
Wah, long time since i have blogged..Jo is getting lazy!! Hehe..blame it on the attachment lah..working hrs from 8.30 am - 6.15 pm..and its bloody warm in the office cos the stupid air con broke down!! Arrgghh...Ji tao perspire non stop from start of work till i knock off..:( I dont like such working conditions..cant dress up, then still have to stink at the end of the day..sianz..wat to do, just have to endure till end of next mth...
Anyhow, met up with a few friends which i havnt seen in a long time..really enjoyed their co man..and i must say, its gd to be back! ( in this aspect haha) Went dbl o last saturday..and the lycheenis (as how mi and pauline will call them). Read ' lychee martinis' are oni for $6!! hiakz..had a really great time man..
Oh yahh i bought brown contacts for myself!! Hehe..was on my way to meet some friends for dinner at suntec when i passed by this promotion..the 2nd box was going for 50 %..Had always wanted to try them and since they had this promo, i thought i would just give it a try..hehe..am wearing them now, will post a pic later!!
As for yesterday, i was out the entire day man..went shopping wif Jeff..he claims its his turn to shop and that i m banned from shopping cos i have been overindulging haha..oh well..in the end, i still managed to get a pair of slippers from Charles and Keith!! Hiaks..and my poor boy didnt get anything..hehe..Then headed down to PS for dinner and coffee..then caught Ghost Train with Jeff's uni friends plus jimmy and ben...The show was alrite, wasnt as scary as i have anticipated it to be..at least this horror show had a storyline..Show ended at around 11 45pm..then decided to go Partyworld for some ktv...from 1 am - 5 am!! wahh..this has gonna be the first time i sing till 5am!!! It was quite fun and it got a little too crazy when jimmy came down with 5 of his other guy friends...Haa..then again, it was all gd fun...
Finally went to bed at around 6 am...*yawnzz*
Yeah..that sort of sums up wat i have been doing for past week and wkends..alrite i gotta go now, mr jeff is hurrying mi..gonna get a thumb drive for myself..then going for dinner with his family to celebrate Fathers Day..will blog later ya...
Anyhow, met up with a few friends which i havnt seen in a long time..really enjoyed their co man..and i must say, its gd to be back! ( in this aspect haha) Went dbl o last saturday..and the lycheenis (as how mi and pauline will call them). Read ' lychee martinis' are oni for $6!! hiakz..had a really great time man..
Oh yahh i bought brown contacts for myself!! Hehe..was on my way to meet some friends for dinner at suntec when i passed by this promotion..the 2nd box was going for 50 %..Had always wanted to try them and since they had this promo, i thought i would just give it a try..hehe..am wearing them now, will post a pic later!!
As for yesterday, i was out the entire day man..went shopping wif Jeff..he claims its his turn to shop and that i m banned from shopping cos i have been overindulging haha..oh well..in the end, i still managed to get a pair of slippers from Charles and Keith!! Hiaks..and my poor boy didnt get anything..hehe..Then headed down to PS for dinner and coffee..then caught Ghost Train with Jeff's uni friends plus jimmy and ben...The show was alrite, wasnt as scary as i have anticipated it to be..at least this horror show had a storyline..Show ended at around 11 45pm..then decided to go Partyworld for some ktv...from 1 am - 5 am!! wahh..this has gonna be the first time i sing till 5am!!! It was quite fun and it got a little too crazy when jimmy came down with 5 of his other guy friends...Haa..then again, it was all gd fun...
Finally went to bed at around 6 am...*yawnzz*
Yeah..that sort of sums up wat i have been doing for past week and wkends..alrite i gotta go now, mr jeff is hurrying mi..gonna get a thumb drive for myself..then going for dinner with his family to celebrate Fathers Day..will blog later ya...
6/13/2005
6/12/2005
Another week passed..
Just got back from Xueling's bday bbq..it was good thought at first i felt a little awkard when left wif her friends alone..Nevertheless it was gd after awhile when things were warmed up after that..Food was gd!! And i realised bbq mushrooms are awsomeee!!
The location of the bbq was really really gd..its at this new block of apartment just beside Parkway with a name we cldnt quite know how to pronounce..it was some Cote thingee lah..
Wah..i wonder when i can get to own sth like that man..
In all, it was an enjoyable nite and i hope the bday gal enjoyed herself too..and im really happy xueling liked the present we gave her..:)
Ok lah..i shld go to bed now..cos its blue monday again tmr..sianz..its so sianz to have to work and not be able to enjoy even though im back..
Gd nite pple..will blog again..feeling too lazy to elaborate on more stuff and also relate the past few nights of enjoyment i had in the first week of being back here..
niteezz...
The location of the bbq was really really gd..its at this new block of apartment just beside Parkway with a name we cldnt quite know how to pronounce..it was some Cote thingee lah..
Wah..i wonder when i can get to own sth like that man..
In all, it was an enjoyable nite and i hope the bday gal enjoyed herself too..and im really happy xueling liked the present we gave her..:)
Ok lah..i shld go to bed now..cos its blue monday again tmr..sianz..its so sianz to have to work and not be able to enjoy even though im back..
Gd nite pple..will blog again..feeling too lazy to elaborate on more stuff and also relate the past few nights of enjoyment i had in the first week of being back here..
niteezz...
6/06/2005
Depressed
Depressed is how i am feeling now. I feel down, irritated, alone, lost and not loved at all. I think i really might have depression without myself knowing it. i feel down cos the attachment ahead of me seems tough, i feel irritated due to the weather, due to the fact that i cannot see you now even though i miss u so much and that our conversation ended up in a quarrel, that you always have to ask me ' Why are you always like that huh?' There are times where i dont know how to explain why i do certain things, why i behave certain way..and this is the time where i cant answer you immediately cos i was busy holding back my tears, busy trying to piece together why i was feeling this way, trying to refrain from telling you i really do want to see you but know that its not such a gd idea to come over now cos you really should spend time at home. I cannot give you a definite answer to what i want cos i am a girl!! i certainly dont need to handle your impatient and bloody insensitive side of you now.
To you, i am just being unreasonable and throwing one of those tantrums again. To you, I AM ALWAYS LIKE THIS. Let it be then...
I feel lost cos i dont know what i want to do after i can finally complete the course. I regret my choice and hate it for feeling that way cos thats really no point in feeling that way now, cos its not gonna change anything.
I feel sad to see my grandfather deteriorating like that..
I hate to have to overcome obstacles to get things going, i dont feel like putting in any effort in doing anything..call me a quitter, a loser, a whatever. I dont care.
i am tired, i just want a break. I want to do whatever i feel like and not having to explain and please someone.
Just too bad..things are not going to go the way i want it to be cos the world just has to go in this sucky way...
To you, i am just being unreasonable and throwing one of those tantrums again. To you, I AM ALWAYS LIKE THIS. Let it be then...
I feel lost cos i dont know what i want to do after i can finally complete the course. I regret my choice and hate it for feeling that way cos thats really no point in feeling that way now, cos its not gonna change anything.
I feel sad to see my grandfather deteriorating like that..
I hate to have to overcome obstacles to get things going, i dont feel like putting in any effort in doing anything..call me a quitter, a loser, a whatever. I dont care.
i am tired, i just want a break. I want to do whatever i feel like and not having to explain and please someone.
Just too bad..things are not going to go the way i want it to be cos the world just has to go in this sucky way...
6/05/2005
1st weekend in singapore..
Im sitting in my room writing this!! Went MW last nite to celebrate Nara's bday..glad that she was so happy..hehe..
The music wasnt that gd last nite though..hopefully it will better nez wkend..that is if im going down again..
Sighz..was supposed to go out for coffee..but due to some stupid reason at home, i cannot go..can forsee alot more of such things happening in the future.so have to postpone till dinner..mafan.and this has once again confirmed one of my reasons abt my little relunctance in returning home..
oh yah the surprise for jeff went well..but he said he knew sth was gonna happen..chey..like real..if not he wldnt look so surprised wat...
Somehow i feel lost..well, i m happy i m back..but theres so much adjustments and getting used to, to do..even to my r'ships..am i normal?
Im scared..to the extent of feeling lost..
The music wasnt that gd last nite though..hopefully it will better nez wkend..that is if im going down again..
Sighz..was supposed to go out for coffee..but due to some stupid reason at home, i cannot go..can forsee alot more of such things happening in the future.so have to postpone till dinner..mafan.and this has once again confirmed one of my reasons abt my little relunctance in returning home..
oh yah the surprise for jeff went well..but he said he knew sth was gonna happen..chey..like real..if not he wldnt look so surprised wat...
Somehow i feel lost..well, i m happy i m back..but theres so much adjustments and getting used to, to do..even to my r'ships..am i normal?
Im scared..to the extent of feeling lost..
6/02/2005
Last day of my studies
It is finally the last day of my studies in Newcastle!! I cannot believe I am typing this sentence hehe..By the way pple, I am typing this in a words document yesh..cos I don’t have my beloved internet access so I thought I still want to type this out to commemorate this special day!! But then again, even if I have internet access, I cannot post this cos I have got a plan in mind, that is to surprise Mr Jeff!! Hehe..hopefully by the time u all guys get to read this, I have successfully surprised him..Told him I am going back on the 11th..and had got the help of Jimmy to help mi find out his whereabouts so I can go down and surprise him!!
As I am typing this out, my hse mates are busy cooking their first meal of the day at 4.55 pm, it feels nice to be typing here while we joke and laugh..I love this kind of feeling..that makes me even more relunctant to leave..yesh I feel kinda sad that I am leaving…leaving the fun and freedom I have here. Then again, I am of course happy that I don’t need to be stuck in old boring Newcastle...
Today was spent tidying up the report we have been working on for the past 1 month..rushing to prepare my presentation slides..Surprisingly, I didn’t feel as anxious as I thought I would be considering the fact that I didn’t rehearse enough…But it went well!! So happy! Then after that we went for lunch at this Thai restaurant which served really good food..i ate cashew nut chicken with sweet spicy sauce and rice…then came back and had our assessments done..well, there are things which my supervisor pointed out which I feel its not what I am..just that circumstances has made it seem like that..oh well..cannot explain here too..sighz…Anyway on a lighter note, hehe..think we are going Goldbergs later for coffee..hehe…
But aiyah still have to pack..:( my belongings are all over the place!! Sianz..and the coach will be coming at 4.30 am later..means don’t need to sleep liaoz..sianz..Gonna be a panda when I see my mum tmr..
K lah gotta go now..see u all soonss my dear ppleee!!
As I am typing this out, my hse mates are busy cooking their first meal of the day at 4.55 pm, it feels nice to be typing here while we joke and laugh..I love this kind of feeling..that makes me even more relunctant to leave..yesh I feel kinda sad that I am leaving…leaving the fun and freedom I have here. Then again, I am of course happy that I don’t need to be stuck in old boring Newcastle...
Today was spent tidying up the report we have been working on for the past 1 month..rushing to prepare my presentation slides..Surprisingly, I didn’t feel as anxious as I thought I would be considering the fact that I didn’t rehearse enough…But it went well!! So happy! Then after that we went for lunch at this Thai restaurant which served really good food..i ate cashew nut chicken with sweet spicy sauce and rice…then came back and had our assessments done..well, there are things which my supervisor pointed out which I feel its not what I am..just that circumstances has made it seem like that..oh well..cannot explain here too..sighz…Anyway on a lighter note, hehe..think we are going Goldbergs later for coffee..hehe…
But aiyah still have to pack..:( my belongings are all over the place!! Sianz..and the coach will be coming at 4.30 am later..means don’t need to sleep liaoz..sianz..Gonna be a panda when I see my mum tmr..
K lah gotta go now..see u all soonss my dear ppleee!!
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