Havnt been blogging cos i have been too jaded and disappointed to do it..

Been asking myself over and over again why do things have to turn out this way..God has really played a big joke on me..why put me up there and then throw me heavily onto the ground.

It doesnt help when i have gone this far but yet still unable to reach the goal..ya maybe it is not meant for me..but i am truly disappointed..in fact i feel lost now..cant help feeling regretful too of my choice of course i have undertaken..sux..

Words to describe my feelings now: pathetic, lost, disappointed, underachiever, loser..

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out. When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life. Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance

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Your Birthdate: December 14

You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you. It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy! You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around. But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long. Your strength: Your superstar charisma Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you Your power color: Fuchsia Your power symbol: Diamond Your power month: May

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Had a quarrel with my grandfather..well as usual, he shouted at me in the act of showing that he is boss and no one should ever reason with him..cos he is always right.

Well, what i said to him was just 'the maid is waiting for the water to boil' hence the extra few mins he has to wait for his tea break. Of cos the 'tyrant' attitude in him wouldnt allow such a lowly member of the family speak to him in this manner..and was immediately angered...It was a loud argument..and of cos he would add lines like 'i have seen u grown up', ' how dare you..'
I find this argument pointless and i happen to be nosy at that point of time and became a person he could vent his frustrations on..

Should have just kept quiet huh..and let him shout at the maid who by now should be used to his endless scoldings...

I dont hate my grandad..in fact i do cherish and care for him alot..and i understand where his frustrations came about..but does he need to always be the one that is right? Does he need to scold and shout to just get his way? Since young, i always feared him, he was a fiesty and hot tempered granddad..he has instilled in me a lot of values where i find important that the younger generation nowadays should be taught as well..But i dont agree with how he communicates with us..

Why do we always have to bear the brunt when we are not at fault at all..and worse be maligned of expressing something totally negatively just because you are the oldest in the family?

there are times where i wish i was financially stable to be able to support myself and thus move out..will save alot of heart ache and arguments for everyone..

:p

wah someone is trying to murder me!

Bleah..

Ok..this is just to say theres an unusual but pleasant phenomenon today..i have chatted with my 3 girlies namely mich, paul paul and jie ( in that order) on the phone today! haha unusual cos i normally dont really chat much on the phone..and to think i gotta chance to chat with these 3 precious girlies on the same day is definitely something worth blogging hahaha..

Its a rainy morning..and im up pretty early...with such a weather, it would be so cozy to just snuggle under the sheets with jeff hehe..* he is sleeping so soundly now* Just cant get to sleep more even though i have tried shutting my eyes...guess it has got to be the stress of the unfinished 50% assignment! Bleah..cant wait for it to end !! Its the last assignment boy!

Mummy is finally back from her holiday! And she bought me a Coach bag hehe..and the amazing thing is that i have never told her i was looking for a beige coloured one recently..and the bag she bought was exactly wat i wanted!! hehe..wonders of the bond between mother and daughter. Thanks mum! *muackz*

Went to fetch her from the airport with jeff, aunties, uncle and my cousins..and happened to see some of the teeny boopers waiting for FIR..hehe managed to catch a glimpse of them myself..I like their songs too...Faye, the female lead singer is very cool and stylish when she sings!

Alritey gotta get back to my work now..*though i would love to sneak out and catch a movie*