Motivation

I would like to share these encouraging words my colleague text me this evening

' you are very special too, dont let anything hold you back. If your dream leads you somewhere, hope you have the courage to pursue it.'

Thanks so much val! Really needed the support..

Happy New Yr!

Been ages since I have blogged! Just didnt have the mood and was too lazy to blog lah.

Hope everyone had a great time this CNY..I did, though I never won for every gambling session ie black jack, mahjong ( no luck for gambling this yr according to zodiac readings), hah the long PH was good!! Did some visiting, movies, clubbing, feasting..

However, I have grown to feel less close to family..Just didnt seem to understand or agree with how they managed matters..Wish I could move out..

We celebrated grandad's bday today..Grandparents are older and more forgetful..Granny have been asking me abt ang bao and money issues for the past consecutive 4 nites!! Really extending my limit for patience man..

Growing old is scary..esp when we have illnesses surfacing..Yikess *I dont wanna grow old!!*

This entry is so lacking in structure and logic..its just like my random thoughts in different paragraphs..Oh well whatever for tonite lah..Still bothered by the differences in me and family + freaking mon blues (I dont look forward to working at all) + jeff for reservist = :(

my first bday cake for this yr from my future sis laws! haha

hehe..thanks for the lovely cake girlies!

Cake from my colleagues

Bday cake and flowers from the bf

My 25th bday presents!!

On my 25th bday - 14th Dec

Thanks for all the bday well wishes, lovely presents and surprises all of you had showered me with.

Though there wasnt any big celebrations, I had the joy of having a few mini ones with different groups of friends! Be it advanced or belated, Ms jo jo is really touched! Thankies darlings!

And the best thing of all was that I took leave from bday eve and extended to a day after bday plus 2 days of wkends haha..there was a grand total of 4.5 days of leave!!

I had the privilege of cutting 4 cakes on my bday week! hehe..2 of them were surprise cakes, 1 was baked personally by my company's pastry chef and the last one being the most economical costing only $2 !! heh

It was the first time bf had sent flowers on my bday and am really pleased with it! hehe..

Anyway, here are some pics of my cakes and presents! More pics to be updated soon..

Hehe..

My mummy

The bf

The girlies!

Me time

It wasn't planned to be a ' me - time' session after work today..Jeff and I had wanted to go out for dinner..But due to some miscommunication, we didnt meet up. I didnt want to just get some takeaway and head home, so I ended up at Starbucks with 'Her World', a tall iced skinny latte and a toasted multigrain chicken sandwich!
Think it must have been a long time since I have had such an opportunity to just relax at the cafe that it felt really good to just have some time to myself! It was really therapeutic enough to kinda soothed my frazzled nerves (from work) and anger (from the tiff we had - but now resolved)..It will be even better if the seats were sofas! hah..
Reached home just in time to catch the last episode of the 9 pm serial! Had a chat with my popo and even did a diet history on her to check on her food intake! haha..*job hazard*
It had been an eventful week..few incidents had evoked quite a bit of emotions and thoughts..
Incident at work today allowed me to realise how horrible it felt to have someone tell me sarcastically some things I didnt do right, I would have handled it better if she just told me directly, however I have already made it clear to my colleague so its all good now. :)

Another issue with some friends or I would rather as acquaintances now, have now surfaced their ugly sides to me at an even clearer dimensions. The differences in how these people view and respect friendship and love as compared to the more sensible and normal *haha* friends I have is appalling!! I was totally disgusted and pained to see such people hurting the ones around them..unknowingly or rather they dont give a damn about..

Think I shouldnt write too much of these stinky tales of them in my precious blog space lah, not worth it also..

Time to lie down on my comfy bed already..working tmr in exchange to attend my long awaited convocation next sat!
Hope it will be a more pleasant day tmr..

I need a break!

I feel worn out, especially when it comes to getting up to prepare for work..I really need a break! And the short break at Genting wasnt enough boy..it was more of rush there and rush back again...

I wonder how I will get my break when I dont have much money to spare..:(

*Yawnz* Am feeling depressed again...sux..

I'm a Mazda Miata!

You like to soak up the sun, but your tastes are down to earth. Everyone thinks you're cute. Life is a winding road, and you like to take the curves in stride. Let other people compete in the rat race - you're just here to enjoy the ride.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

Diminishing..

How do one handle the dejection and disappointment of knowing that we can't fulfil that big dream we had?

I am trying really hard to move on and self comfort..

Eventful weeks

I have had so much fun for the past two weeks..but also a doubly fair share of crap from work and the people i meet..Met up with pretty shirlene for our first ktv session together and we had so much fun! And we chanced upon the new foodie area beside carrefour at suntec..wah so much finger foods and takeaways!
And I was even more delighted to know that my fancl products were around 10% and more cheaper in japan than the ones in here..So all thanks to shirlene, she managed to buy them back for me when she went there for work! And everytime she goes to a new destination, she will bring back small gifts for me..she is such a sweet darling!!
sighz i wished i could be like her too..going to all the fun and new destinations..

And last week, Jeff and I attended the NDP! Hiakz..it was a truly fun and heartwarming session..it never fails to bring a fuzzy feeling to my heart when the entire stadium sings the national anthem and say the pledge..And of cos the most anticipated item for the parade - fireworks! I found the session quite short this yr though...

We also celebrated our 8th year anniversary together..haha..our celebration just revolved around eating! haha..2 days ago, we cooked spaghetti with lotsa mushrooms and chicken and had a clam chowder which jeff didnt like..cos he said it was too fishy! Desserts were chocolate and grapes..*so fat*

Then came the actual day where we pigged out at sushi tei and desserts at my fav coffee joint - coffee club at somerset! Wah..so shioksss..hehe..

Fri was clubbing nite..was supposed to go butter factory but in the end we ended up at MOS cos the quene was too long at that stupid factory..Ah well..shall go there earlier the next time..Nevertheless, it was fun at MOS too with Ms Paul paul, my neighbour and a new friend *lol*! But it was such a pity that i had to leave earlier..

Then yesterday was girlie day out with Mich and Daphne..so tai tai u know hahaha...went for lunch at crystal jade then coffee at TCC..it was just catching up and more catching up and we have made a pact to meet up on the saturday of every month where Daphne and I wont be working...

Yeah..sianz..too bad wkends are always too short..*sianz*

Shall blog again.Happy wkends pple!!

Sevens

7 Random Things About Me

1. I feel refreshed after washing dishes and seeing them all squeaky clean.
2. I shuffle cards, hold the spoon and clap with my left hand but I am not a leftie.
3. My lashes are my favourite feature on my face
4. I am superstitious
5. I have picked up a kid's poo before from the floor using only paper towels
6. It irks me totally to see my bed in a mess
7. I wished I had siblings

7 Random Songs At The Moment

1. Yuan Lai - Lin Jun Jie
2. Hua Tian Cuo - Wang Li Hong
3. Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
4. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
5. Together Again - Janet Jackson
6. Qian Nian Zi Lian - F.I.R
7. Jia Zhuang - Jolin Tsai

7 Things I Like Most

1. Coffee
2. Hugs and kisses
3. Veggies
4. Money
5. Shopping
6. Singing
7. Nua-ing

7 Things That Scare Me

1. The supernatural
2. Cockroaches
3. Losing my memory
4. Losing my loved ones
5. Sickness
6. Left alone in this world
7. Losing hair

7 Things I Say The Most

1. kns
2. Wah lau
3. Oh my goodness
4. Are you serious?
5. I am a dietitian, my name is Jolyn
6. So irritating
7. Hai

7 People To Do This

1. Weiguo
2. Daphne
3. Su Ann
The rest had already been tagged or they dont keep blogs..

All in a day

My colleagues and I were faced with a thick pile of referrals ie many clients (better change to this description just in case I get into any trouble for writing that) waiting to be seen as we stepped into the office on a blue monday..We were down with 2 staff..my senior went on leave and there our new colleague would start work only on the last week...
So the 4 of us left were totally maxed out, well or should I say it SEEMS like ALL of us were, even though it is quite obvious that some of us were not, only appearing to be, which irked me even more.

Anyway back to the story, if all the clients were nice and compliant, it wouldnt have made me blog it down here..But NO, one of them totally stretched my patience and tolerance..{Description of this scenario has to be carefully worded due to the reason stated above)

That arseface client of mine wasnt a local..He didnt need any advice whatsoever and told me straight in the face that I didnt know anything about food when I went in to introduce myself..So I attempted to tell him his blood levels showed that his control over his condition wasnt that good, and I mentioned a scientific term which I would go on to explain a few secs later, but NO, arseface had to say this ' wait wait, stop, speak english, I dont understand u. Then i went ' Ok, this *** means your control, before i can continue, he cut in again, ' NO NO stop, I SAID speak in english!'
What the hell? How the fuck do i explain when he just kept stopping me? Ok nvm..the quick tempered me was already seething with anger but I was surprised at myself for being able to control it..
Then he went on to say he knows his condition perfectly well, saying that he just lacks exercise and its ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE to do NATURAL exercise here..Cos i suggested walking, swimming..He said he dont do that, the only thing he does is farming..and he cannot find it here..because 'this country is totally artificial' and that 'all our food is cooked in oil'..And went on about if given a choice, he wouldnt have came here...Arseface was posted here to work...
Anyway, unfortunately, I couldnt rebuke back even though I was fighting back the big urge to do that..
He was an absolute arse, totally fucked up and a racist..and he looks down on pple different from him..One of the nurses caring for him even had to take this kinda of comments from him ' You dumb asians'
Wah really feel like slapping him I tell you...ok anyway readers, i gotta go and get ready for work now..have to stop abruptly first..continue again k..haha

No time for myself..

As I was signing in, I was half expecting to key in the wrong user name or pass word..Im surprised I still remember! I long for some slack time where I can blog, use the msn or just surf the net at a leisurely pace at work..But with such a tight schedule at work, time simply doesn't allow me to blog at all..And comes after work, Jo will be either catching up with a friend or doing some shopping/self maintenance/reading up where I will be so dead beat by the time I am done. The only thing I feel like doing is to SLEEP.

Talking about sleeping, I cant believe I spent almost 3/4 of Sunday sleeping!! Sat was a late night out with booze at Brewerkz and then an even later nite with ktv after that..So I slept in till 1 plus on Sunday..Woke up and dragged Jeff out from bed to feed my growling stomach...At 3, Jo was a satisfied gal but falling drowsy again..So I decided to take a nap..haha..Nap continued till 8 pm!! Haiyooooo..Then nvm..time for dinner..ended at around 10 plus...As I was feeling quite energetic, I went to bed at 1 plus am which I shouldnt have cos comes Monday morning, I still felt tired!!! Its such a vicious cycle..And there were so many things I had planned to do on the weekend but ended up sleeping and yet still feeling tired..so DUH!!

Ok anyway, one of my closer colleague had left..She is the only one I feel comfy talking to about more personal matters and def. has more EQ than some others!! Its going to get lonelier at work these days..Unless I want to be more superficial and do some acting..hah..

Time to get ready for work...Sianz..