I am finally going to attend a friend's wedding dinner! Just got the invitation card from her...Shes actually my ex colleague from the last temp job i had..she and her husband are just so loving..really envious man.. Met up wif her, mabel and jiahui and had such a gd time just sharing stories about rships to match the theme of the night! *LOVE, RSHIPS and MARRIAGE*

I am not ashamed to say i m resistant to change..however, if given some time and to something that cannot be helped, i would conform to the change..
I have been unhappy..needless to say, the stress from the attachment exacerbates the misery..I am so tired of being unhappy..and i guess all of my readers are sick of reading it too..I wished i could just draw myself away from the gaping hole...

Life upon returning back here wasnt how i thought it would be..Over there, i was always hoping to be back in your arms again..cos i missed you so much and i knew u missed me heaps too..though we suffered from the absence of seeing each other..the sweetness exuding from our phone calls were just so nice..the naive me expected you to able to spend as much time as you could wif me..

Back here..no doubt we had our sweet times together..but i guessed we have just changed..your career unarguably is the priority for you now..and i wasnt prepared...wasnt prepared to have to learn to tolerate the lesser time you will have for me, to have to accept that you do certain things to try to help in your job...to have to accept the busy you not have the time and patience to give little surprises or just hug and hold mi lovingly and tell me things are gonna be ok even though u may deem as impractical...The rship has ventured into another stage..a stage which is unfamiliar to me..a stage which sometimes upsets and confuses me...a stage which u always say i will understand when i start to work..Does one's perspective of the relationship really change after working?

I m confused..and i dont wan to grow up...i am beginning to think of myself as childish, as not being understanding enough..am i really that? I know im too sensitive and pessimistic for my own good..if only i could get to choose my character huh? As if i could help it...To help myself? Well..what is there to reassure myself that everything is ok? I really dont know..and i need guidance...

Lost Jo..