Havnt been blogging cos i have been too jaded and disappointed to do it..

Been asking myself over and over again why do things have to turn out this way..God has really played a big joke on me..why put me up there and then throw me heavily onto the ground.

It doesnt help when i have gone this far but yet still unable to reach the goal..ya maybe it is not meant for me..but i am truly disappointed..in fact i feel lost now..cant help feeling regretful too of my choice of course i have undertaken..sux..

Words to describe my feelings now: pathetic, lost, disappointed, underachiever, loser..