Pre flight syndrome

I am feeling so blue..and everytime before a flight, I will tell Jeff I want to quit..

Yesh I have been toying with the idea of leaving the co..even if it means paying up the bond..Ya what an irony right, a stark difference to the Jo back then who had been trying so hard to get into the interviews and feeling over the moon when she finally did...

Jeff always tells me, the grass is not always greener on the other side..

Feeling the jitters before flt is the norm...there will be so many things running through my mind: worrying abt how the seniors would be like/would I be pushed to the business class to die under stress/how are the other crew like etc...

And the worst is to leave Jeff/family/friends..:(

I dont know how long I can tahan..but I will try my best..